Text｜The kindness in the TV series of Chenxi Orange
is well-behaved, sensible, careful and excellent, and no parent does not envy having such a daughter.
However, Enhuai's hidden pain - everything she suffered, and her vicious calculation, in the original "Sea Anemone", it is more terrifying and thrilling.
This reminds me of the movie " Bad Seed ", also at a young age, also has vicious calculations, but, under the thoughtful calculation of Enhuai, I saw the pain of this girl and struggle.
She is not a really bad child, nor is she a villain who has completely destroyed her conscience, she is a child who has experienced hurt and never had love.
Just like Yang Yuan who still tolerated her after she knew the truth, she cried and said:
"I'm sorry..." Enhuai's tears flowed down her nose, "I really, really want to be like Xiao Mo... "
It can be seen that this vicious child is also a love-deficient child who is looking forward to love and wants to have love!
Calculation
Enhuai has a vicious calculation towards Yang Mo.
She is jealous of Yang Mo, with such parents, she always hears the quarrels of Yang family because of Yang Mo, so, an evil idea arises, she wants to replace Yang Mo (by the hand of others, kill Yang Mo) ), became the daughter of the Yang family. Ideas like
are vicious and childish.
Enhuai doesn't understand at all - the worry and love that parents have for their children.
The pain of losing a child is an inexhaustible and eternal pain. Even if there is a substitute, it cannot make up for the regret and pain in my heart.
Therefore, Enhuai's vicious idea can also see her naive view of love, because in her upbringing, she has never been taught - what is parental love and what is sincere affection.
As for her fantasy of replacing Yang Mo, why isn't she jealous of Yang Mo? She saw that Yang Mo was always told by her mother, but his mother never thought of giving up on him; after she saw Yang Mo disappeared, Yang's mother, who used to "hate" her son so much, cried heartily.
At this moment, she is envious and suspicious. In her logic,
thought: I solved a problem, why is the Yang family so sad? Since they usually quarrel because of Yang Mo, but after he disappeared, why are they so anxious? I could be his replacement and bring them all the glory, why wouldn't they consider me their daughter? Such a naive idea as
may be the immature thought possessed by the kindness of a child.
But why isn't this an indictment of grace?
She is accusing her parents, those two people who never gave her love and warmth, and she never got love from them, but it was from a stranger—the Yang family, that she felt that warmth and love ; She complained that she was so obedient and sensible, but she was still unable to get the care of her biological parents.
A more sensible child is often an unhappy child.
Enhuai's experience forced her to suppress herself, and this growth is full of danger-because, without the timely help and guidance of her family, children will easily have negative and difficult-to-solve negative emotions.
Therefore, Enhuai's sensible and well-behaved is just a disguise that she tries to suppress hatred and unwillingness in her heart. She is not so bright in her heart, but it is always cloudy. Otherwise, she would not have made such a mistake and wanted to replace Yang. Mo's idea.
It can be seen that in this calculation of Enhuai, there are her immature and vicious seeds, but why is it not her accusation of herself, the tragic fate that has never been cherished?
Lack of Love
Enhuai is a child who lacks love.
A child who lacks love is not terrible. What is terrible is that this child who lacks love has also experienced terrible violence.
Enhuai is not a child who was hoped and expected to arrive. Her arrival, in the eyes of her parents, was wrong and troublesome.
is like President Sun who gave the divorce certificate to Enhuai's parents, saying:
"It's still because of the children. Going to court is either for money or for children. However, their situation is just the opposite. No one wants children." Perhaps, she once tried to please her parents too!
Therefore, she acted so well-behaved and sensible, but to win the love of her parents. She thought that this way, she could restore the love of her parents, but she didn't know that the reality could be even crueler.
Enhuai's mother is not a good mother. She is selfish, so regardless of Enhuai's feelings, she left her to her cold and ruthless ex-husband - Xu Anzheng:
"Not only children, he ignores anyone. There is only himself in his world, and it is best not to be associated with everyone, he feels that it is a burden."
So, even knowing that her daughter lives alone, she has never visited her once, For her career and her new family, she completely abandoned Enhuai.
Enhuan has experienced a lot, but this is not the cruelest pain.
And the words in the text more or less told me that Enhuai's mother, Ms. Xia, had used violence against Enhuai.
"Enhuai, I always have deep guilt for her..." After a long silence, Ms. Xia said carefully, "When I first gave birth to Enhuai, I had already made up my mind to take a path in photography, but I can't let go of the work at hand, and I can't take care of the two ends, so Enhuai often has accidents..."
"What kind of accident?"
Ms. Xia raised her face and made a memory: "... I will fall off the bed, There is also a scar on her thigh, which was scalded by boiling water."
"Isn't this very common? I have never suffered minor injuries or illnesses, so there should be very few children who grow up like this."
"Some feelings, You won't understand."
...
"The last question." Zhang Ye put away the notebook, "Enhuai's mother, have you done anything to hurt her."
"Officer, I have already pleaded guilty, you Still... "
" answering my question."
"It's been too long, I can't remember."
I'm thinking, if Ms. Xia hadn't used violence against Enhuai, then Xu Anzheng's answer should be— There is no such affirmative answer, but his answer is very suspenseful, leaving room for people to think about.
And the truth that policeman Zhang Ye learned from his neighbors is even more cruel and unbelievable. I can't help but feel how disgusted it is to do such a thing to a child:
"It's a winter jujube core, stuck in a It's in the windpipe." She said, patting the table lightly, "but you know wow, when her mother came out of the bedroom, her face was full of tears. She hid in when she saw the child was dying. "
...
This is Enhuai's childhood - being beaten, scolded, cruel, neglected, and a girl who grew up from it, her excellence is a disguise, in fact, her heart is lonely and dark, like this How could she have a happy childhood and a happy life?
She is destined to spend her whole life to heal her childhood and to reconstruct her worldview. At that time, she may find out how ignorant and ignorant she used to be for Yang Mo's jealousy and persecution. Brutal!
The dark whirlwind of jealousy and unwillingness tore open the deepest pain in Enhuai's heart. This hatred and unwillingness devoured her and destroyed her.
But fortunately, what a kind family she met, Yang Yuan forgave her, and he also told Enhuai what he thought.
He said:
"Enhuai, I don't have such good luck. I always think about you as my own daughter." Yang Yuan's shoulders trembled, "I don't know what kind of pain there is in this world, It will be better than the memory of Xiao Mo. If I lose Xiao Mo, I will also lose you."
"I'm sorry..." Enhuai's tears streamed down her nose, "I really, really want to be like Xiao Mo..."
Finally , Enhuai realized his mistake and admitted himselfIn the darkness, she finally understood the meaning of love.
And sometimes, the cure for a soul is not attacking and scolding, but understanding and love!
exists because of love.
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