The love I give you has been very quiet in exchange for your occasional care. It is obviously a movie about three people, but I still can't name it...
Inexplicably, I kept thinking about the song "Always Very Quiet" in my mind early in the morning. I couldn't bear it. I searched out all of Asang's songs and listened to them while I was staying. The more I listened, the sadder I became, and the more I missed her, the more I missed her. She really sang the loneliness and desolation in this world to the extreme.
If she were still alive, she should be with her lover now, have three children, sing her favorite songs, and do her favorite things. It is so beautiful and so happy. These are what she expected during her lifetime.
It's a pity that God is jealous of talents.
God didn't let her get what she wanted.
In April 2009, Ah Sang unfortunately passed away from breast cancer at the age of 34. It has been 14 years now. Do you still remember her?
Asang left, my first reaction was not to believe it, because her singing has always been in my ears, and my CD player was full of her songs.
In the past, I was not a gossipy person. If I liked a song, I would just listen to it with all my heart. At most, I just knew the name of the singer. I didn’t care about other things such as age, hobbies, and life experiences.
is Ah Sang, a special being.
She has always been quiet and sang lonely. She was afraid of troublesome people during her lifetime, and even when she was sick, she did not let her family and friends know. The songs she sang were very sad, and her growth experience was as sad as her name and song, but she herself was always sad. Be optimistic and smile.
Perhaps this is the reason why so many people like Asang. Even if life is full of sorrow and loss, she never gives up or complains.
The first time I heard Asan’s song was in 2004, through my deskmate’s headphones. How could
have such a sad melody? How could someone make this song so lonely and sad?
"Loneliness is the carnival of one person, and carnival is the loneliness of a group of people."
"I eat and travel alone, walk around, read books, write letters, and have heart-to-heart conversations by myself."
I am deeply moved by this song. I was deeply shocked and asked my deskmate who was singing.
asan.
From then on, the name was engraved in my mind. Later, I searched for her songs everywhere. "Leaves", "Loneliness Sings" and "Always Quiet" became my most played songs.
I don't sing very well, but every time I hum these songs, someone will ask: "Whose song is this? It's very nice."
But every time I tell them it's Asan, the response I get is "I've never heard of it." This is the situation of Asang. She is not a popular singer, so many years after her death, some people said:
She left before I had time to get to know her or see her face clearly.
This is somewhat regrettable, so let’s get to know Asan again today.
Dugu's life creates a lonely singer, and Asang's life is just like her name: "Sang".
Ah Sang, formerly known as Huang Yanlin, was born in 1975 in Taiwan, China.
Asan's parents gave birth to four children. She has an older brother and sister, and a younger brother. Asan's mother is a virtuous woman, but she has a violent father, which doomed her childhood misfortune.
In Asang's memory, his parents often quarreled when he was young. His father often left home to avoid debts. When he came home, he was always in a bad mood. He either yelled at them or became violent towards his mother.
She remembered that one time her mother was beaten by her father and ran away from home, leaving her at home with her brother, sister, and brother.
The younger brother was still young and wanted to find his mother. Asang held him in her arms and comforted him, "Mom will be back soon!" She said this, but in fact she herself didn't know when her mother would come back or if she would come back. She still remembered that feeling of homelessness so vividly many years later.
This experience as a child had a huge impact on Asang.
Later, when she grew up, she once wrote in her blog about her feelings when she sent her pets to other people's homes for foster care. She was very distressed.
When Asan was in sixth grade, his parents divorced. His mother had to raise several children and bear the debt left by his father, so she had no choice but to foster Asan in her aunt's house.
Only those who have experienced it understand what it feels like to live under someone else's roof.
In order to reduce the burden on her aunt, Asang helped with crafts to earn pocket money. She folded plastic flowers, wrapped chocolate wrappers, and pieced together motherboard parts in an electronics factory. She did various jobs.
Although life was hard, Asang never felt tired. She believed that the hard days would pass and a good life would come.
Asang likes acting. After graduating from junior high school, she was admitted to Nanqiang Industrial and Commercial Film and Television Department. After graduation, she was admitted to the art team and worked as a colleague with Sun Xiezhi.
Asang is not afraid of hardship and hardship. She actively cherishes every opportunity. She originally thought that her job would be stable and she would have a stage to express herself. Unfortunately, the art team was laid off not long after.
Later, in order to make a living, she and a group of friends went to PUB to sing. During this period, she was discovered and signed by Bole Jiang Yiping.
However, this road was not smooth. Either the recorded demo could not be found by a record company to release, or the newly recorded record encountered a typhoon and all the hard work was wiped out.
In order to make ends meet, Asang worked as a customer service announcer at a law firm's switchboard and a department store.
Ah Sang has done a lot of work, but the only thing that remains unchanged is her persistence in music. Although she thought about giving up during the most difficult times, there was always a voice in her heart reminding her to persist a little longer.
Finally, hard work paid off. In 2003, when Ah Sang was 28 years old, she joined Huayan International and had the opportunity to sing the ending song "Leaves" of the TV series "Rose Love" and became famous.
In November of the same year, the company helped her release her first solo album "A Little Hurt" and also held a media meeting.
On that day, Asang specially made bitter melon honey juice to entertain everyone. This is a special drink, which means it is bitter first and then sweet, just like Asang’s experience since he was a child.
Someone asked her if she was tired and whether it was hard work after so many years. She said frankly:
Looking back now, she was only a little injured.
"Just a little injured" is such an understatement because she believes that after going through the storm, she will definitely encounter a rainbow, and her life will get better and better in the future.
Indeed, with "A Little Hurt", Ah Sang was nominated for the Best Newcomer Award at the 15th Taiwan Golden Melody Awards;
In 2005, she released her second album "Lonely Singing", but because of the sales of this album Not ideal, failed to renew contract with Huayan International.
As soon as her career started, she suffered another heavy blow. Asang did not expect it to happen so quickly, but she was not discouraged and set her sights on the mainland.
In 2006, Ah Sang participated in Hunan TV's singing program "Famous" as a contestant. However, the reality was still unsatisfactory, and Ah Sang had to accept commercial performances as his main source of income.
She still had a glimmer of fantasy in her heart, believing that she would be seen.
However, what people didn’t expect was that God played a huge joke on her at this time. In 2007, she was diagnosed with lymphoma.
Asang is not a person who likes to trouble others. While actively undergoing treatment, she also hid her illness from everyone, and even broke up with her boyfriend for this reason.
God is so cruel. She has been so miserable since she was a child. Just as life gave her a little sweetness, it suddenly plunged her into hell.
But Asang never complained, she always faced it optimistically.
Perhaps this is what makes people feel more distressed. Her boyfriend did not leave her after learning the truth. He knew that she was afraid of dragging herself down, but he was not afraid. He wanted to defeat the disease with her.
Perhaps this is the only sweet thing in Asang's life. The person he loves most is always by his side during the most difficult times. They look forward to the future together, and sweetly share the news of their marriage plans when meeting friends.
She was so happy at that time, I couldn't tell that she was in any condition of health.
Friend Zhang Zhicheng recalled that when he last saw her, she told him that she was getting married. Her smile was so sweet, and he was really happy for her.
’s boyfriend has been secretly preparing to give her a romantic and unforgettable wedding.
However, the disease was relentless. In October 2008, the cancer cells in Asan's body had deteriorated and spread to advanced stage of breast cancer.
Half a year later, on April 6, 2009, Ah Sang died of illness at Tzu Chi Hospital in Xindian District, New Taipei City. He was only 34 years old.
It was also at this time that Asang's parents learned that she was dead. In order not to worry them during her illness, Asang never told them, which meant that she could not feel the warmth of her family until her death.
Looking back at Asang’s life, it was too bitter and too short.
’s parents divorced when he was young. He lived with his aunt since he was in junior high school. He worked various jobs in order to earn pocket money. After a long time, his dream was illuminated and he tasted a little sweetness, but he was soon slapped hard by life. .
But she is admirable. Even though life is difficult, she always smiles at it, is self-reliant, and never complains.
Ah Sang didn’t leave any special last words before she left, but the last words she said were heart-wrenching: “Don’t add too much morphine, I’m afraid you’ll become addicted after you recover.”
Until this moment, she was still full of hope for life. , she loved music, loved the world, and was so reluctant to let go of everything, but the disease took her away ruthlessly.
Fortunately, her singing voice is still there, and the emotion and power she conveyed through her singing voice are still there. Even in the past 10 or 20 years, as long as people still listen to music, they will definitely hear her singing voice. That is what she left behind. The last gift in the world.
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