invited several guests to record a special anti-epidemic program. Liu Yan, who hadn't seen him for a long time, returned to the public eye with a dark blue professional suit.
's simple shoulder-length hair, elegant makeup, friendly smile, and Liu Yan with her sexy label removed, standing there like a colleague or neighbor beside us, so close.
Liu Yan, who has always been known for her sexiness, seems to have not shown her sexiness for a long time. She is well-maintained and looks clean and fresh when she is nearly 40 years old. She smiles on stage and still attracts everyone's attention.
The moment I saw Liu Yan appeared, I felt a sense of gratitude. I felt that she was the representative of most adults. From an ordinary background, with all his strength to gain a foothold in the big city, he chose to jump out of the "comfort zone" and set off again when he was nearly 40 years old. Isn't this the life trajectory of most ordinary adults?
During the Spring Festival, Liu Yan took his mother and his brother's family to spend the New Year in Huizhou. The six people ate and lived together, and enjoyed it all.
Liu Yan said: "Most of the time, I actually enjoy the feeling of being with my family. There are so many people in our family, there are six people, and then I feel the days with them every day, and my mother did not urge marriage. I didn’t talk about embarrassing topics. One of my biggest feelings is that this year our whole family will wear clothes and shoes together. My mom is even better. I took out my dress and cut it off at the waist and turned it into a half skirt."
The aunt
in the house home under the lens of my nephew and niece, Liu Yan, who is so grounded, is indeed fading away from the sexy goddess we had in those years.
Liang Huan once said: "When Liu Yan first appeared in the entertainment industry, I liked her very much, because I think that finally there is a woman in the Chinese entertainment industry who sells sex, and she is very confident. But this love , It just ends with liking."
He asked Liu Yan: "You obviously have the opportunity to be a symbol of the times, but why don't you bite?" Liu Yan's answer was quite unexpected. The reason she gave is that in this era, she is not suitable for excessive sexy, because she does not want to be a "objectified woman."
I don't want to be Liu Yan who can be molested by anyone. I never mind being sexy, but it's not allowed to materialize me.
may have been ups and downs in the entertainment industry for many years. Although there is no big hit, there is no masterpiece that can be drawn. With the death of his father, Liu Yan, who has a little less spiritual expectations, feels that it is time to let go.
It's time to put down the personal settings, it's time to be yourself.
"Sexy is a commendatory word, and I am not worthy"
Ma Weiwei once asked Liu Yan if she felt sexy? Liu Yan replied that she didn't think she was sexy.
She said that sexy is a commendatory word and an advanced vocabulary.
She doesn't think she deserves such an advanced vocabulary. If other actresses wear deep V clothes, fans will all flatter them, but if Liu Yan wears deep V clothes, she will be ridiculed very low.
At the same time, Liu Yan also said that many people mock her for having a face that is not grand enough to be advanced enough. She also thought that her face was tacky, and thought she could only shoot that kind of very low character.
The public's disapproval of Liu Yan caused her to be unconfident in herself.
People’s perception of themselves is largely influenced by the outside world.
Liu Yan was born in a poor family in Hengyang, Hunan. His father made a meager money by sending rice noodles to support a large family, and his life was struggling.
Liu Yan couldn't help feeling distressed every time he saw his father's thin body.
When Liu Yan was 25 years old, his mother was diagnosed with an intestinal tumor. The family was unable to do anything about the high cost of surgery and continuous radiotherapy and chemotherapy. She saw Anhui Satellite TV’s Super Host Contest and went to participate, because the champion could get a prize of 10,000 yuan. After the operation
, in order to save money, my mother kept Liu Yan fromGo for chemotherapy. She was very sad after knowing it. At that moment, she knew she had to make more money.
After many years, she sighed in an interview: "Now you put ten thousand dollars in front of me, and ask me to do something, I will sneer. But you put ten thousand dollars to me then In front of me, let me do something, I might really go.”
There is such a video on Douyin, asking "When did you realize the importance of money?". Many people replied, "It's the moment when parents are sick and need money, but they are powerless."
Many experiences will make us grow up overnight.
's simple native family and turbulent growth experience, it is difficult to give Liu Yan a broad view, which created her "unworthy" subconscious. Subconsciously, she thinks that she is not worthy of high-value returns.
This is why Liu Yan keeps saying that being sexy has nothing to do with her, because she knows what she is like.
Maybe this world is like this. Many people are living, but some people are indeed living.
The incident at the gate of bridesmaid in 2016 was revealed. Netizens have reprimanded the best men for their vulgar behavior, and also accused Liu Yan of deservedly, wearing so sexy, why not throw others at you. At the end of the trouble, things couldn't be suppressed, Liu Yan took the initiative to apologize. In the choked apology video of
, several best men, including Bao Bell, did not appreciate it, meaning that you were at best going all the way. Now you have messed up other people's weddings, and it has also affected the good reputation of several best men.
Later, the best men also apologized on Weibo, but did not mention Liu Yan at all. It seemed that she was not worthy of an apology as a party.
This time, Liu Yan offended half of the entertainment industry. The inherent low value of
made Liu Yan lost herself in the cusp of the storm. Although she did not hype, and although her private life was very conservative, when something happened, she first stood up and admitted her mistakes. No matter if she was wrong, she seemed to be big The act of tolerance is too despising of oneself, and it is difficult to get the respect of others.
Maybe those who are born to lose at the starting line need to force themselves to practice various martial arts, which also includes tolerance and self-comfort.
is a girl, don’t forget, even if you lower your posture and ask for everything, when you pretend not to care about yourself, others’ respect for you is just casual.
"I was never a princess, but a civilian."
lost the host contest, but won a contract with Light Media. Liu Yan thought: "The contract is more important than the ranking. Only when I am strong and independent can I really support me. In 2006, Liu Yan, who carried the burden of his family, came to Beijing with dreams and started his host career. Apart from the physical challenges of dozens of programs every day, the biggest challenge was the squeeze and difficulties encountered at work.
When Liu Yan and Wu Zongxian hosted Shaanxi Satellite TV's "Saturday Fun", they were suppressed by Taiwanese producers. At that time, almost everyone could scold her. Once the program was recorded, the producer cursed at her, "Will you be the host, who asked you to take the call? Is it your turn?"
even pointed to her nose and said: "If not The TV station recommends you, even if you kneel down and lick my toes, I won't use you!" In addition to these, the producer also spread rumors that she came in through the back door. This rumor has continued for a long time.
Those humiliating words pierced Liu Yan's heart like a needle. She wanted to turn her head away, but she was not qualified to challenge reality.
Another time, at Jay Chou's song club, she rushed to the venue after receiving a job, but because a popular female host said "very different stage", Liu Yan had to wear heavy makeup and resist tears to go home.
She cried many times, but no one saw it.
On the way we grow up, we will all encounter some disasters, some unbearable blows, and even the original family is doomed to be a carefreePeople, because fate is inherently unfair. But can these injustices really determine a person's fate?
may be a general who is going to be a big man. Liu Yan, who has been busy with work for a long time and has chest pains, went to the hospital for examination and was found to have chest tumors. This is undoubtedly a bolt from the blue.
"I was very afraid at the time. I was afraid of getting cancer. I was afraid that I would collapse like this. I was afraid that no one could take care of my family. Because I still have a mother with cancer, I was determined to give them the best life. "
For the first time, she felt helpless and scared.
She began to think about her bucket list: if she died, how much money should she save for her family, who should take care of her parents, and her grandma should also entrust her uncle... She thought a lot.
Fortunately, Liu Yan’s chest tumor is benign. After the operation, Liu Yan cherishes every day she lives. She took the magazine photo of "Men's Wear". She felt that even if the body lost something, she could leave something beautiful. Memories. Never thought, but it became an instant hit.
Liu Yan was stunned. He had been working hard for more than ten years and hadn't made a name for himself. In the end, he only wore less clothes and realized his wish for many years. Although she doesn't like this kind of herself, and she is not used to it, but she who desperately wants to get rid of the current predicament, can only choose this way.
Although we have to give up some things for the sake of our family, I think for her at that moment, dignity is not important, other people's views are not important, and family members are important.
once asked Liu Yan: “Don’t you mind if your body is consumed by the masses?” Liu Yan replied: “ I wear sexy clothes. This should be accepted. This does not mean that I behave licentiously. ” Indeed, as a "Sexy Actress", Liu Yan's scandals are rare. What kind of lace news such as Xiaosan and Lover has never been with Liu Yan, and her family doesn't even have a picture of herself.
Some people seem to be bohemian but they are loyal, and some people are invincible. Just like Liu Yan once said on Weibo:
I have a career line, yes, please also see my professionalism. I work hard to make my family live a better life and I am very proud.
Liu Yan bought a house in Beijing's East Third Ring Road, and also settled in Guangzhou for his parents and brother-in-law. Now she no longer has to worry about the cost of another operation for her mother, and even the school expenses for her nephews are covered by her. If
is a person who has received a lot of love since childhood, he will not get used to it. Some people are really born princesses. They are princesses for a lifetime, but I am not. I have never been a glass-hearted person.
It is impossible for a person to live without frustration. Even this way, it is not so much growth as it is constantly falling, climbing, falling, and climbing. But in many cases, there may be pain to make us more cherish the happiness that flows in a moment.
In "Wonderful Flowers", Bo Bonnie sighed: People are full of bitterness in their hearts, how sweet is it to fill them up. Ma Dong suddenly stood up and said: Bonnie, you are wrong, there are a lot of bitter people in my heart, as long as a touch of sweetness can be filled.
, like most adults, is tightly choked by life, can breathe, can live, but cannot move. Even so, everyone is trying their best to find the sweetness that belongs to them. Maybe it's just a cry in the car, maybe just the moment the family smiles.
"I don't have a home anymore" before the movie "The Beneficiary"
, when you see the name Liu Yan, you will most likely think of a "borrowing upper position" woman with a bright sexy symbol. Even if she has strength, these strengths have been ignored Up.
No one cares about her original intention to set foot in the show business because of treating her family members, and no one will really take her words of "no label" seriously.
Dapeng, who took it seriously ten years ago, became friends with her. Ten years later, Dapeng became her best friend, and more people still stayed on the road of misunderstanding Liu Yan. It is hard to think of being 38 years old. She was able to conquer all the current audience with the live make-up remover shots that were done once.
Actually, the Hunan girl who came to North Drift in the lens has no culture, and the anchor Yue Miaomiao, who has experienced all kinds of hardships, is actually somewhat similar to Liu Yan herself in experience.
We don’t know exactly how much hardship a girl from the North Drifting will suffer. Just like when Liu Yan went through the property transfer procedures after his father’s death, he was met with online violence by many people who eat melon. They also didn’t know the truth of Liu Yan. experience. In the
movie, Yue Miaomiao had a monologue in Hunan Plastic Mandarin, which made many people cry.
"The little fox fairy used to wear a mask to communicate with everyone. Today I decided to be myself. I am from Hunan. When I was a child, I went to Guangdong with my mother. When I was a little older, I went to Beidiao. I have suffered a lot of crimes and deceptions along the way. There is a seriously ill father and a younger brother in the family. I always thought that I would live by myself in this whole life..."
At that time, the sentence-
"I always said that I was 24 years old in my natal year, no, I am 38 years old." After
finished speaking, she covered her mouth, tears flashing in her eyes.
is really heartbroken.
is like Yue Miaomiao doing a lot of exaggerated actions in live footage, but you just know that she is not that kind of person, she is also weak, and eager to love and be loved, and loves money but treats it like dung.
This is not just the comedy contrast created by "The Beneficiary", it is more like Liu Yan removing his halo in the movie and facing reality with himself.
In 2017, Liu Yan's father went to Beijing to see a doctor because he couldn't eat, and he was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer as soon as he checked. From the end of 2017 to 2018, Liu Yan gave up all job opportunities and stayed with him in the hospital every step of the way, rubbing his body and pouring urine. I can't even take care of my personal image. I often go to discuss the condition with the doctor without makeup and wearing pajamas. Doctor
looked shocked: You just came here? But she had no time to think about anything else, and it didn't matter if she was photographed by passers-by. Even though
tried his best, his father could not last long. He passed away only five months later. Before his death, my father looked at his cell phone and checked the family photos over and over again, the places their family had been together, and the things they had done. He smiled and said:
"I have been content in this life, with filial children, and have gone to so many places... …" After his father passed away, Liu Yan was heartbroken and insisted on taking care of his father's funeral...."
. A good friend Dapeng also attended the funeral. He watched Liu Yan greet him by himself. He was busy and orderly without shed a tear.
He told his colleagues, What kind of a girl must be strong enough to bear the pain and take care of it all by herself. After the death of
's father, Liu Yan's mother lived with her elder brother and lived by herself. Liu Yan once said in front of reporters that she often felt lonely, "I don't have a home anymore, do you know? I don't have a home anymore".
Suddenly she didn't know what it meant to make money.
I used to be very purposeful, as long as there is opportunity and possibility, I must seize it. But I don't have that strong purpose now. I may need to rethink what is most important to me. There are many choices in life. We don’t know exactly how much she paid for
. You see her success, but you don’t see the persistence and forbearance behind it.
Conclusion
Jiang Wen said in "The Middle Age of Dog Day": "Middle age is an age that sells laughter. It must not only win the favor of the elderly, but also be a role model for children, and always pay attention to the face of the partner, and constantly cater to it. The mind of the boss." people are at such a unique stage in their middle age. At this time, a person begins to think about life, but finds that this is the time when he is the furthest away from his true self.
Liu Yan, who is nearly 40 years old, said at this time, I am not a young literary girl, I do not write poems, only realism, and then live. She finally showed her true self in her middle age, and she has to say that this is a kind of letting go and an attitude. This attitude of
also tells the ordinary majority of us:
must face yourself and the life in front of you.
If everyone is preaching poetry and the distance, and dreams are hard to wake up, how can you get the ambiguity in front of you.
About the author: sister Anne1, writes the most common emotions in the world, and uses words to bring you warmth and strength.
