一
When I was in my teens or 20s, I especially liked to worry about national affairs. Whenever I see other countries "bullying" us on the news, I am always filled with indignation, clenching my fists, and vowing to work hard in the future to make our country stronger. And every time I see the news talking about China's rise, economic boom, etc., my national pride will arise spontaneously, and I feel very lucky and proud to be born in such a land.
Now, I am in my thirties and on the road to becoming a fourth generation. Gradually I don't like watching the news. I'd rather be a social creature who doesn't hear what's going on outside the window and only wants to earn hard-earned money.
Nothing else, I just don’t want to cause any trouble for myself.
However, information is still pervasive, and inadvertently, you will still see all kinds of clogging news.
For example, the young couple in Henan lived frugally, sold their goods, and borrowed money just for their own little nest.
Finally, after working hard for several years, I returned to before liberation.
In the end, the nest was gone, the money was gone, and the shameless profiteers were fattened, and then ran away in style.
二
Some time ago, I had a drink with my long-time colleague and friend BESS. She recently found a job that was not that bad. She commuted for about two hours every day and had two children at home waiting to be fed.
She is tired and anxious, not knowing where the future lies. Her boss commented that she was not professional enough and could not pinpoint the company's problems and solve them.
BESS Her hair was falling out a lot, and she even joked with me: "Do you think if this continues, will I become a bald woman?"
She wanted to leave her job, but she couldn't. The environment of
is too bulky and I can't move around. I stay and get PUA again.
When I read Bei Dao's poems before, he said: Nowadays, when we drink late at night, when the cups touch each other, it is the sound of broken dreams.
Now, we don’t even dare to dream.
just wears a body, mechanically busy at work every day, and then gets off work and returns to his own nest. Day by day, coming and going, like an ant struggling to find food.
Ants can still hibernate, but we can't.
三
After work, I occasionally choose to watch videos for entertainment and to numb my anxious nerves.
viewed a video in which the blogger said that he had quit his job and was living a life like a fairy, earning 30,000 yuan a month. Another video was viewed in which a blogger said that he was doing a side job while working, and that his side job alone was earning 20,000 yuan a month.
I have deep doubts about myself. I have worked hard for many years, never giving up on professional advancement, and never daring to slack off at work. How can I feel embarrassed that someone can easily take a few months' salary from me?
Melancholy and sourness arose spontaneously in my heart. I originally wanted to calm my anxiety, but in the end my anxiety became even worse.
Some time ago, as HR, I interviewed a group of old people in the company. They told me that there is no financial pressure now, and the mortgage has been paid off. Working in this company is just a matter of social security, and they don’t think much about other things.
is full of "lying flat" meaning.
Sitting across from them, still burdened with a mortgage, I felt unspeakable pain in my heart.
Several years ago, I watched "Animal Farm" and I felt really enlightened.
What is the essence of this world? It's just that the big fish eats the small fish, and the small fish eats the shrimp. Moreover, the vast majority of people in this world are just shrimps. They work diligently and carefully all their lives, but they will still be eaten by fish. In the past, the big fish seemed to be merciful and would not eat them all, but now, it seems that is no longer the case.
As a hard-working social worker, how should we face such a situation?
Stay alive, refuse to be a leek, reduce unnecessary expenses in life, learn a skill at work, stay away from "easy monthly income of over 10,000", focus on improving yourself, persist to the end, you still have a chance to grow into a big fish .
