"I am my
is a firework with a different color
The sky is open
To make the strongest foam
I like my
Let the rose produce a result
in the lonely desert like
naked..."
It is a lyrics in the Mandarin version of the song "I" composed by Leslie Cheung to express his attitude towards life. It was arranged by Zhao Zengxi, lyrics by Lin Xi, and music by Leslie Cheung, and was included in Leslie Cheung and released in July 2000. In his solo album "Big Heat", the song won the title of "My Beloved Chinese Golden Melody" by the Hong Kong Composers Association in the same year.
Seventeen years ago, on April 1st, with the departure of Hong Kong singer Leslie Cheung, the fall of a superstar ignited a different kind of fireworks on April Fool's Day, making Ching Ming Festival even more desolate. The few lines he left behind "Depression! Thank you all friends, thank you Professor Mai Lifei Fei. This year is very hard, I can't bear it anymore, thank Tang Tang, thank my family, and thank Fat Sister. I haven't done anything bad in my life, why did this happen? ?" Once again exposed the fragility of human nature, this kind of inner helplessness that others can't see destroys the strength of life.
Don’t think too much about why Leslie Cheung suddenly left us, don’t ask who directed this human tragedy, don’t laugh at what is right and wrong in the world's eyes, whenever the wind rises, and the year goes by The "Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter" of "Together" still talk about "Love in the past", and "Who makes you crazy" in "When love is a thing of the past"? April's "Wind Continues Blowing", "No Sleep" in "Black Midnight", "Emotional Sting" hurts "Your Eyes and My Tears", "Fate" is over, "All these years" and "No Love", "Thousands of Mountains and Waters" will eventually return to "Floating Life as a Dream", and "People in the Same Path" asks "Who Resonates"? "This Life and This Life" followed "Red Face and White Hair" and "Dream of Death and Drunk Life" but only "holding a handful of loneliness", and finally sleeps in the earth "silence is gold"! At the end of the song, people are scattered, and what can't be scattered is the fireworks of different colors-"I"!
I am not a fan of Leslie Cheung, but I sympathize with his tragic life, a 17-year emotional betrayal, like a wild goose crossing a cold lake, the wild goose going to the lake without taking a picture, there is no inner feeling of helplessness and grief What people can experience is that no one can give up the most memorable love in the soul. It boils like the blood of life. Once lost, it is better to die than to live! His departure allowed me to see the meaning of love in everyone's life more clearly!
Love has always been the theme of the human emotional world. Because of love, the lyrics of simple love will also touch the heart. Because of love, those souls who stand on the line of death are resurrected in miracles. Because of love, those kindness and grievances are Happiness is imprisoned in the iron windows, because there is love, and the winter of life is full of sunshine... The magic of love makes everyone's life wonderful, tragic, or desolate!
Because of love, our sorrows and joys alternate between gains and losses. No one can bear the trauma of every loss, not just love, but all the love in life is not something we want to lose. The young writer Lu Sihao said, “Part of your growth is that you will keep saying goodbye to familiar things, saying goodbye to some people, doing things that you wouldn’t do before, and loving someone who may have no results. If you don’t do something, it’s tiring to do. I feel stupid again. It took me a long time to understand that the so-called growth is to be more and more able to accept who I am, and to get along with my lonely, lost, and frustrated myself better, and accept it. Then face it. No matter who you will meet in the future, life starts with meeting yourself.” Yes, love allows us to grow between choices. The years of growth require a brave and strong heart, but unfortunately Most people cannot do this, and Leslie Cheung is no exception.
It is reported that Leslie Cheung strives for perfection in everything. At the age of 46, he was worried that his image in the hearts of fans would be destroyed because of his bald hair. So he turned to be a behind-the-scenes director. This may alsoIt was one of the root causes of his death. In any case, it was sigh that he couldn't accept himself as he grew up as Lu Sihao said in his text.
The beautiful things are always so short-lived, whether it is from the glorious peak of Jiang Lang to die, or the impermanence of the world’s impermanence, they are full of the splendor that the meteors have passed. That is the wonderfulness that I once had, that is the most colorful The flower of life, like a flower, will eventually wither. Although there is sadness, "falling red is not a ruthless thing, it turns into spring mud to protect the flower"! If we can all have the feelings of relief in the Qing Dynasty poet Gong Zizhen's pen, we will not end our lives because death is worse than life!
In this Ching Ming season in memory of the deceased, with regret for the story of singer Leslie Cheung, I wrote simple words to warn people around me to cherish life and look down on the gains and losses, no matter how ruthless the years, no matter how rough life, no matter how rough How unfortunate is destiny, you have to know that as long as you live, everything is hope, everything is good, and everything is lucky!
No matter what you lose, all the losses are the beginning of the next gain. No one will stay with you all the time. Only you are the strength that will never leave you. Go forward with a brave heart and tell Self: I, fireworks of different colors, will always illuminate every segment of the night sky of life and accompany me forward!
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Yiye Qinghe, whose real name is Liang Yuanyuan, is a lover of calligraphy, photography and literature. The pen is chopsticks and ink for food, and the original grass and moss and flowers are used as companions.
