"Compared with movies, you are the most important, and I can make movies well if you nurture you well." Yang Lina , the director of two films about mother-daughter relationship, brought his 19-year-old daughter, Xiaoxiong, to see us.
Her last film, " Spring Tide ", was released in 2019 and showed the tormenting relationship between a mother and daughter, Ji Minglan and Guo Jianbo. Hao Lei, who played Guo Jianbo, had a long video in front of her mother's hospital bed. In the monologue, he said all the tears in the relationship: "If you are quiet, the world will be quiet, let us be quiet for a while, if you wake up, you will definitely scold me... You want me to find a good man, there is one Home, live a decent life. I don't."
in September this year, her new film "Mom! " is released, mother and daughter are still the protagonists of the story. The 65-year-old daughter is suffering from Alzheimer's disease , and the 85-year-old mother needs to pay tenacious vitality to take care of her daughter. Although there are many heavy factors in this film, such as disease, aging, history, and betrayal, the background is warm and bright, and the relationship between an elderly mother and daughter Jiang Yuzhi and Feng Jizhen is full of trust and love.
The mother-daughter relationship is a profound proposition, at least in Yang Lina's creation, there is no simplified answer to this question. If her relationship with her mother is closer to the version of "Spring Tide", then her relationship with her daughter is closer to "Mom!" ".
Our interview was conducted in a restaurant near the Roman Lake in Beijing. Outside the window was the autumn sun, wind and lake. "Mom! "The script was born here. She had just returned from a road show out of town and was in a hurry to return to Beijing because the day after the interview, her daughter Xiaoxiong was going to study abroad.
didn't need to ask any questions, Yang Lina just started talking. In her films, there are often large monologues and ravings of stream of consciousness . She has a lot of expressiveness, though she says she's exhausted in the intensive interviews. She often jumps from one point to another, and her daughter, Xiaoxiong, will help her supplement and summarize, "I was overdrawn in recent interviews. I said sisters, please help me, please."
The little bear is 1.8 meters tall, tall and straight, vivid, likes painting, likes equestrianism, and expresses more logically than his mother. During the conversation, the mother and daughter cuddle together, and their relationship is frank, intimate, and bright. They are all willing to compliment each other to the extreme. On the mother's birthday, the daughter tattooed her mother's name, "LINA" on her lips.
Xiaoxiong said that his most sincere blessing to his mother is that, whether it is money or partnership, nothing should detract from his mother's interest in creation, because creation is the most important thing to her.
Yang Lina went on to say, "You are my biggest limitation."
Xiaoxiong described their relationship as cruel and voluntary. "The moment you become a mother, it brings life. In addition to giving, it also brings restrictions. You are no longer yourself." In
's letter to Xiaoxiong's 12th birthday, Yang Lina wrote: "Compared to movies, you are the most important. If you nurture you well, I can make movies well. I must also admit that you have always been my first heroine. A lot of creative inspiration comes from you, with you, my life is not boring, you are also the most effective correction belt in my life.”
The three generations of mother and daughter in “Spring Tide”
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32 years old, having a daughter is a watershed in Yang Lina’s life . The same goes for making documentaries at the age of 24, which she describes as a fresh start.
was originally a dancer and drama actress, but she started making documentaries in 1996. She saw the one-armed teenagers swimming by the lake in the orphanage, so she began to photograph a group of children in the orphanage; she saw a group of old men sitting by the wall in the downstairs of her community basking in the sun, "like a string of candied fruit string. It looks like it's very beautiful", so she filmed "Old Man"; later she took a walk and saw a group of old people dancing square dance, the music was coquettish and secular, an old man invited her to dance, so she filmed "Old An" love; out of curiosity about my parentsDivorced, she made "Home Video". When
first started filming, Yang Lina didn't even know that what she was shooting was called a "documentary". She relied on her instincts and past stage experience, but she was unexpectedly ahead of the times. She was one of the first female directors of independent documentaries in China. Before this, few directors would shoot private family life, not only her, in those few years, a group of female authors shot their own works one after another. "30 Years of Chinese Documentary Films: How Images Salvage Our Memories" commented, "This may not be just a coincidence or mutual inspiration. With the possibility of 'individual films', there is a strong rebellion behind the collective outbreak of female authors. Try to see and express the world in your own way."
Yang Lina's first documentary "Old Man" won the Asian New Wave Excellence Award at the Yamagata Documentary Film Festival in Japan, as well as awards at major documentary film festivals in France and Germany. Jia Zhangke invited her to appear in the movie " Platform " after seeing it. But at that time, some people thought that Yang Lina had no professional training and was still an actress. They said that her flash of inspiration would not last, and that she would not know where to go or what to do in the future.
But for more than 20 years, Yang Lina has been filming, not only documentaries, but also films in the past ten years. Her first film is "Spring Dream", which presents the female eroticism and spiritual world extremely freely, and was shortlisted for the Golden Horse Award. After that, they filmed "Spring Tide" and "Mom!" " (formerly known as "Spring Song"), is her female trilogy.
Even though the mother-daughter proposition is deeply entangled in her life, the outside world often regards Yang Lina as the director of the mother-daughter relationship. She said that this is not her, she is interested in people in society, women in people, women daughter in. She likes to photograph the elderly, children, women, and men are mostly invisible in her films. This is her intention. "The relationship between men includes , the law of the jungle, , which is even more cruel, but I don't want to see such cruelty," she said. What I am interested in is the simple relationship between people, this does not mean avoiding complexity, just like someone asked her, why does your work keep shooting "betrayal"? The daughter betrays the father, the son betrays the mother, and she dances in the complexities of human nature.
"Mom! "Still
Yang Lina described her life as "self-help". In the early years, she rescued herself from the boring education system through dancing; later, she rescued herself from the uniform collectivism through documentaries, and she kept expressing because of pain; after having a daughter, she created Simple, trusting, loving intimacy, saving herself from rough relationships; now, she's filming "Mom! ", to save himself from the low tide after "Spring Tide".
She is 50 years old this year, she said it is the right age, her life will be staggered with her daughter, her daughter goes to study abroad, she continues to make movies, her creativity is still strong, she has accumulated a lot of stories over the years, she is still dream.
The following is Yang Lina's self-report, and Xiaoxiong also made some additions -
A family unit
They all said that I am more gentle, more commercial, and not as sharp as before.
I think this is the process of people growing up and changing. I think the emotional resonance of of ordinary audiences is also meaningful.
I've been exploring the subject of family, we haven't grown up like the older generation, it's because we have the ability to save ourselves, I think I've been saving myself all my life. But not everyone has the ability to save themselves. Many people may just repeat, be silent, and forbear. Should I say no through my works?
My mother is something I can't get around in my life (proposition). My mother was like an angel in "Home Video", she is a very good mother, very responsible, responsible, and a mother who can exchange life for life, but for me, don't exchange life for life, you are both You don't need to understand me, you treat me peacefully, I don't want you to look at me like an enemy, and I don't want you to say that everything you say is a curse. She was young then, and we're fine now. So time is a good medicine, a chronic medicine.
This is the homework between me and her in this life. I must reassure my mother on the day when my mother's life ends. Don't let her feel that I am still a person she has always worried about. I hope I can follow her well. She said, in our life, you raise me, I take care of you, please feel free to hand you over to me, I really want to tell her that, but I never said it, I just say mom, don't worry.
Young Yang Lina and her parents, my brother
When I gave birth to a bear, my mother bought me 999 roses. She said that it was given to me by my father, but she actually bought it. I remember waking up from the anesthesia with overlapping voices, and I heard the doctor sew my belly and say, "This woman is so funny, she blew her mother a kiss when she came in." I also heard, " It's a girl, it's a girl".
I heard cries from a very distant place, and I felt like I was lying in a giant pumpkin petal as big as the universe. When I was pushed into the elevator, I looked up and knew it was my mom, I could smell her, and my first words, instinctive, subconscious, without any rational thought, was, thank you mom for raising me. After I finished speaking, my anesthesia came back, and I fainted again.
We can go from a very small (angle) - the rudeness of mothers to daughters, to the rudeness of people to people, to the rudeness of the previous generation. Why do I keep having these in my movies? Because our family, including getting along with people, has changed from a small unit to a large unit, and from a large unit to a social one. I fear and hate violent language, violent incidents, and violent injuries that permeate family and social relationships.
"Mom! "There is a line in it, "All violence is shameful." If you understand this sentence, you will understand me, and you will understand all my mildness. They also talk about compassion, and I say it has nothing to do with compassion. This is my most basic appeal to people and relationships.
left behind a lot of sequelae in the last century. The struggle in "Spring Tide" is the struggle between the daughter and the rudeness, and the struggle against the patriarchal . Then my generation must make progress. If I make progress, my daughter will make progress. When I am kind, she will be kind to others.
When she was in elementary school, I wanted to apologize to everyone, the teacher, the classmates, and the parents of the classmates. She was also physically punished and walked the dog for others. Shout, I realized right away, I don't want to repeat the way I've been roughed up, I'll wake up quickly, that's tragic.
I don't want to educate people with a video. Sometimes I say Little Bear to watch this (movie), she says don't brainwash me, don't bother me, I'm very careful, and I don't think a work can play such a big role, I'm totally out of my self-esteem Or curiosity about other people's worlds, I want to understand, and that's a natural process in which The Women's Trilogy was born.
The young Yang Lina and the young bear
Every mother is a wolf
"Every mother is a wolf", is "Mom! ", I remember I wrote her a 12th birthday message to her, she was 12 years old, she was slim, she looked like a big girl, and it was the first time I felt that she was treated by a man with the eyes of an adult, the opposite sex. Looking at her with eyes, I walked behind her and thought, look at your sister, silly X.
She has a very high thirst for knowledge and cannot get enough knowledge in school. She is a very sensitive child, she is resistant, her personality is squeezed, and she has encountered bullying at school. I took care of her very hard all the way down. At that time, I really realized that I was a she-wolf.
Once I saw the teacher make the whole class ignore her, I went crazy at that time... Children are traumatized and she doesn't want to go back to school.
She didn't attend classes on campus for a while, I was watching her on campus, she was also watching me, she used to study very well, especially loves learning, she is just testing you, she sees if you can give She loves enough and I let her know that I love you no matter what. At that moment, every moment after that, I did it, and I will tell you with my actions that you are safe and that your mother is always by your side.
She didn't have confidence in school and was sad every day, I told her to stop and take a year off, and then she didn't go to school for a few years. But this does not mean not studying. I took her to study abroad. We went from to the British Museum, , all the way to Taiwan, to the most remote villages in Hubei. We shortened the time and made up for the middle and high school courses in a short time. She only had time to ride horses, paint, make music, and she was doing well, she had a lot of time in control of her life.
Later, Ma also helped her heal herself very well. I made a new documentary called " girl and horse ". I saw that the trust established between horses and people is what is lacking between people. She went to elementary school to fight with teachers, schools, and education. She didn't trust her very much.Feeling, she saw a horse at the racecourse. I think that horse is the ugliest of all horses, but she thinks it is very beautiful. She stopped going to school after a year. The horse is still there, she Just say Mom I want to ride a horse, I say yes.
At the beginning of the film "Girl and Horse", someone is beating the horse, because the horse is too strong, no one can tame it, and the coach can't get on it. The little bear screams when he sees the horse being beaten, and she says why do you treat it like that? ah? She would rather have the whip on her, she said all the faults were not the horse's fault. I think this is the kindest and most instinctive protection of human nature for the weak. At night she went to feed the horse carrots, and she didn't dare to ride it. Later, when she grew up a little, she rode on that horse. It was her first horse. It was very strong, but it could understand how good children were to it. It was the most humane. I remember the little bear said at the time, you trust it, it trusts you, I think it was a child who taught me a lesson, she was right, the horse really trusted her, and in the end the two of them He has won two equestrian World Cup championships held in Beijing.
Daughter Bear and Horse
The reason why I spend so much money on buying her a horse and letting her ride it is actually a good healing process. Her role as a father has been absent since she was a child, and she is sensitive. I remember when she was in the fourth and fifth grade of elementary school, she fought with boys. She was not looking for trouble. She was offended every time. Spirit, you offend me, I have to fight back, I agree, you don't need to endure.
I will definitely not suppress her, you have to maintain your own personality, I accept all her personality.
(Little Bear: Actually, there is no need to accept it. (Next) I will take the responsibility. Her relationship with anyone is sometimes caused by this kind of unconscious good behavior. The relationship between her and her mother , she will deliberately make concessions, but between me, she is still relatively relaxed. I think she can be herself when my mother is by my side, just like I am myself when I am by her side. But some mothers can't be in front of me. Be yourself, she is our mother, this is scary.)
The stories I will shoot next are all written by me on the way with my daughter. My creativity is still very strong these years, and I think the next ten years will be my best time. So I just say you're gone, leave me the time, and I'll just focus on my work. You see netizens say "Mom! "In the movie, the mother and daughter talk like lines, but in fact, we talk like this, we are not Kochi, we are not from the Republic of China, and we all talk like this when we open up our WeChat, of course, there are also rude ways, then It is also the freedom between us.
Farewell
She is 19 years old and I told her that our lives are now intertwined with each other, we are both the best time, I am the best time for body and creativity, she is the time when she blooms like a flower, This is the real mother-daughter separation, and her life will give her its own meaning.
(Little Bear: The original words are even more tragic. What you said is that the "Pharaoh" (cat) will wait for you to come home, like waiting for the end of his life, you and I will also be intertwined here.)
I was with her before Say, I raised you, and if you come back and fuck me again, I will kill you like a she-wolf. This is also a very honest state of mind. She said I know, I know, I don't mess with you.
Sometimes I tell my daughter, did you give birth to the wrong child? You see I'm so poor, fat and ugly, you should have gone to another house, but you came to me because you didn't see clearly? She said mother is not, you are the best. It was originally a joke, but it turned into a very formal confession. Of all the awards and compliments, nothing satisfies me more than the compliments from my daughter. Of all the titles, I like Mommy Bear the most. This identity helped me grow and made me proud.
I was a dick when I was young, and I was lucky at that time, no difficulty. I danced since I was a child, and later when I became an actor, I was also well protected. In China at that time, the best theater had the best teachers.
The year I was 32 was a watershed in my life, because I had a child, I wasn't ready when I had a child, I didn't want to get married, and I didn't want to have a child. I didn't need a child to show that I was complete Yes, but it doesn't seem to be, her birth corrected me so wonderfully that she turned all my attention to me and herIn getting along, like sisters, like friends, like mother and daughter.
(Little Bear: My mother's unruly things when she was young have been domesticated a lot by life. It's not the domestication of her personality, but it may really be because of the child. The older I get, the more my mother really gets. More and more like my mother. When I was young, I felt that her mother's identity was far away. You would think that she was a director and an artist. I even remember my mother made me tomato and egg soup when I was a child and put wolfberry in it. Now To me, she is not a director or a screenwriter, she is just my mother. When I was a child, I was in the mall, I was young, I looked for her, and my mother was gone...)
I heard the broadcast say Yang Lina , your child is at the service desk in the mall, come and pick up the child. I'm running away, sorry sorry. I remember once in a big winter, I was so dressed up that I was going to go out. I was wearing a down jacket. She said, Mom, should I just wear this shirt? I wasn't a good mom to begin with.
The desire for control in the mother-daughter relationship also exists, but it is not a problem. The relationship between me and her is not the relationship between Ji Minglan and Guo Jianbo, but more like the relationship between Jiang Yuzhi and Feng Jizhen. It is pure and trustworthy. I especially like the word "simple". I took care of her when she was a child, and she will take care of me when she is 10 years old. All my softness comes from her, the softness I receive comes from her, I get fulfillment in this relationship, it's okay to have no man, it's not sacrifice, I don't want to be someone else's victim, and I don't want someone else to do it for me sacrifice.
On my birthday, she cooked me a meal, from 9:00 am to 1:00 pm, a total of four dishes, it was very laborious, and when she finished, I had to clean up my kitchen for two days. But I also want to thank, flowers, gifts, and a letter, she is my narcotic, my exploiter, the most cruel, bloody capitalist, but you have to be grateful to her, this It's another aspect of our relationship.
Young Yang Lina, and Yang Lina drawn by Xiao Xiong
Break free
I have always loved to lie since I was a child. Lying is too easy for me. I make it up now. As soon as I see the teacher, I will come right away. Moreover, what I make up is not a regular lie. I have been beaten for lying since I was a child, but what is that? Isn't that just your imagination?
I always run away in class. One summer, knew that was calling. I was ready to go to class. I thought I couldn't do it. I couldn't take this class. I asked my classmates, can you read the words on the blackboard? He said he could. I finished speaking, my eyes can't see clearly, I really can't see anymore, and I cry. Everyone came, a very old physical education teacher with white hair, carrying a big man on my back, ran to the hospital, went to the hospital for various examinations, did his stomach hurt? pain.
My parents and my mother came with delicious food, I finished eating, they said go home, and I knew it was over. My mother asked me to put the quilt away. I said, Mom, I can't see my eyes. My mother took a wet towel and wiped me. Can you put it away? No, it really can't be placed well, you can't see it. She takes another shot, can you? Can can. Immediately I will be fine, but my acting skills are too poor. I have always loved to lie since I was a child. In fact, it is the confrontation of children against adults and the escape from the world.
dancing was also my escape method at that time, to escape the boring education and dry classroom, I was reluctant to enter the classroom, in the rehearsal hall, and on the stage very free. I am also very grateful to my mother. She sent me to the Children's Palace to learn dance. My father did not agree at the time. All parents bought water for their children and accompany them. The teacher asked about the schoolbag? I always lose my schoolbag, which is left in the rehearsal hall, and I don’t study well. At that time, all my energy is devoted to dancing.
Later, when I was in the drama troupe, I also escaped. I have my way of resisting. I remember they asked me to rehearse, and I hid at the house of my neighbor, my grandma, who needed me and I needed her. My life has always been tied to the elderly. In addition to being beautiful, I think the elderly are also safe and non-invasive.
I hid in the hut, they said Li Na, rehearsal. At that time, if you didn't rehearse or take classes, it would be a big deal. But I would rather take the risk and skip classes. Listening to their footsteps walking away, I am very happy.
(Xiao Xiong: My mother is such a free soul, but it is very painful to learn to flatter.)
She talked about a very core thing, and there are many (suppressed) sequelae in the group, but whereWhere there is oppression, there is breaking free. This is human nature. People in every era have their suppressed parts, but they also have the nature to break out of the cage.
(Xiao Xiong: I think other people can of course feel pain and depression, but not everyone will choose to leave as resolutely as you do. Some people may go out because of profit, some because of numbness, you can go out, in fact, you did It's a big trade-off, it's essentially your pursuit of freedom.)
, look, why did you bring her here? It was really helpful to bring her here. I was the first in my class to report and leave. It was too difficult to understand in that environment. You have everything, but I couldn't bear it at that time. You see, our life is very frugal now.
I have to be vain and I'll probably be an actor forever. If I want fame and fortune, I won't make documentaries.
When I stand in the middle of the old man with the camera, I have a sense of existence, so this is art? I was fake, whitewashed, arranged, art wrapped in a suit. When I entered the world of "Old Man" with a camera in 1996, they didn't ask me anything, and they wouldn't let you do anything, but I experienced real, unadorned emotions. That was a watershed in my life.
"Old Man" by Yang Lina
Why do I like the faces of old men and old ladies, I can see the calmness and peace of old age from those old people, I don't take your food, you don't take mine , it may not matter if you rob me, after getting old, there is a kind of kindness. I was filming "Old Man", because of the faces of the old man, their posture is very beautiful, sitting on the side of the road, to a certain extent, I feel that it is similar to religion. When dealing with this world, what do you want from me? I'm not a believer, but I'm wondering what is divinity? What is spirituality? We are all being slowly changed by the years, our appearance and mentality. I think everyone is the same when they are 80 years old. They are all naive, even pure. of beauty. I'm on the road to being shaped, so I'm still struggling now, I'm still willing to understand suffering, I'm still willing to say I hurt, when that time comes, I'll be, I'll take whatever you come, I'll go anytime, I'm ready for everything Now, I sit under the sun, on the side of the road, in my own house.
The world of "Old Man" is my sky. Although "Old An" is not about my love, it is also the destination I yearn for. When I saw the one-armed boy throwing stones into the lake, it also hit In me, there is a kind of sad beauty. I want to see the incompleteness, their struggle for life. I have come to this day from that moment. I don't even want to mention my previous resume. I have worked as an actor and dancer, and I usually mention them in one stroke, so I said that I have done two things in my life, one is raising children, and the other is making movies and documentaries.
Yang Lina and the old men she filmed
Freedom
Although I can be released as an actor, I am not happy with it. I don't want to be picked by a bunch of guys. We went to the cast to audition. I can't remember the faces of those guys at all, but I will always remember their arrogant, scrutinizing, dirty eyes, eyes, body ... and it completely blew me away. So why I love actresses, I know too much how precious and how difficult they are, and they have not experienced it once. The process of being scrutinized and criticized is more cruel than mine.
Before I was a dancer, my name was Yang Lina. Later, when I grew up, I became Yang Lina. I used to be a graceful dancing girl, but I'm already pretty enough, so I don't need a pretty name anymore. Sodium is the chemical element , which is ever-changing and can accept all changes. I also hope that my life will remain a single possibility that cannot be activated. Li is square, strong, steady, strong, and fat (laughs). You see, so I'm very dignified now, very strong, and I'm doing pretty well with those two words so far.
not being in shape has something to do with me being lazy, it has something to do with me not caring what people think of me, and it has something to do with me feeling like I've been picked on too many times. When we were actors, we put on makeup three times a day and changed a lot of clothes. Before the age of 20, I basically grew up hungry. So I want to be full now, you know? All my life, I have been with myselfI am fighting against the contradictions in me. At some point, I also have a destructive power, I destroy myself, even if I take my own medicine one day, you can't control me, I think Godard is very good (September 13, 91-year-old film director Godard In Switzerland chose euthanasia), which is also a beacon, illuminating the future path of many people.
I didn't accept my body like this from the beginning, I originally said that you (Little Bear) made me like this. But I know that I wronged her, and it has nothing to do with her. But there is one thing that makes me so happy, I let my actors bloom.
The feeling of freedom is that no one is staring at you (laughs). At my age now, no one is looking at me on the road. When I was young, the rate of turning back was too high. Just like her, when someone asked her to WeChat, when she was a child, she was so scared that she called her mother and ran to me. That is the inevitable appearance of young life.
(Little Bear: You see what you said about your indifference to your appearance, it seems like a kind of confrontation to yourself. But with me, your flesh is the softest thing in my childhood memory. When I hugged her, she There is temperature, and this soft touch is my memory symbol to some extent. So while you are fighting against yourself, you are also giving, a bit like what Zhou Xia said in the movie "Mom!", maybe I am in It might make you successful.)
When you reach this stage of your life, you will love yourself more, but when you are young, you will consume yourself. It’s not so much that you don’t get stared at, you don’t please others, you don’t want to be pleased by others, it’s better to say that you don’t even please yourself.
Xiaoxiong often said, Mom, you can find me a stepfather, I don't want it, I can choose my own life. It's 50, what can't you see? Besides, the love in movies and literature is also my love journey, enough.
(Little Bear: My mother is a big heroine in the traditional sense.)
Yang Lina in "Mom! 》The shooting scene
dream
My dream is the best reminder of my own life, not only will I make decisions, but I also have predictions.
(Little Bear: My mother is really a dream god.)
When my life becomes very mundane, such as running around for money, I must have no dreams. That kind of dream must be when I am very close to myself and my life is very simple. A dream is a particularly good gift, it is spiritual, it is the window to my spiritual world, if the real life is very mundane, crowded and sad, then in the dream, I am free, I am a fairy, I A child protected by a dream.
Look at my dark circles, I'm very busy day and night, after morning work and night work. When I wake up in the morning, I remember my dream, and I will write it down soon and share it with her. She has now inherited my mantle and started to dream.
I can smell all the breath in my dreams, the dreams are black and white, and they are colored. They all say that dead people can't talk to people. I can talk and hug. I always dream of my grandma, she has passed away, I I always dreamed that she was hiding in a particularly quiet alley, where she fetched water and grew vegetables, and they hid themselves. I said she's still alive, that's great, I'm going to treat them well.
Grandma gave me love. I miss her so much now, she is very tired and has several children to support, but her motherhood shines through all the children, including me, I am one of her children. She rocked me while she played poker, so now I can fall asleep on the train no matter how I rock it, I remember that rocking, I remember that motherly love. I've been discussing reality and fantasy in my films, it's not that I can't tell the difference, it's just that you are more willing to believe which one.
I like Buñuel , a Spanish director, he has a movie ending that I remember very clearly. He said I wish I didn't say goodbye to the world, and every ten years I would come out of the grave, go to the newspaper stand and buy a newspaper, put it under my arm, then go back to the cemetery and see What's happening in this world is particularly fascinating.
Sometimes everyone asks how did you create? What do you rely on? I usually just say it perfunctorily, through books, movies, but how else can I explain it? Every artist enters the worldThe channels are different, and each has its own method. I create works because I am in pain, I have cried, I feel uncomfortable and want to talk, but the bear is not as painful as me, she is well protected, she sees , realize, will express. I feel that to interpret my work according to the motif, it must be singular and representational. I would rather explain it this way, my motif is, people in society, women in people, daughters in women.
When I was little, I slept in the dormitory of the dance academy. There were a lot of messy lines or black dots on the wall, or a snot. I could see from the wall that there were children, parents, and Fish, there's a dog, I'm looking for this. I compare my fingers to the moon. I have a grandmother, she told me stories of ghosts and ghosts, opened my imagination of literature, opened my imagination of a wider space. If I grew up around her, I might be the Marquez of the Northeast.
I remember standing on the wooden pier in front of my house, holding a disc, "Sing with the disc in hand..." (singing), an old man's song, many people said that this child performed too well and sang well Great, that was the first stage in my life that I was looking for for myself. So life is like a dream, and when I think back to that moment, it is a very distant little shadow. On that road, so many people commute to get off work, and I forget what they look like, wearing gray and white clothes. , blue clothes, both men and women, young and old, I am so young, I am singing emotionally, some people pay attention to me, maybe no one pays attention to me, that is the prelude to my life.
In 1993, 21-year-old Yang Lina
