stills from the movie of the same name
saw the introduction of the Japanese novel "Chunqin Copy" on an online reading platform or a book-selling platform, and was moved by this "deformed" love of abuse and willingness to be abused (many described on the Internet). "Deformed Abuse"). So I bought it online without hesitation and received it within a few days. I received the book in the morning, and I read it in the afternoon and evening, only 50,000 words.
has a very thick and concise cover, and it does not have the fancy envelope (sheath), girdle, or even a bookmark belt that other books now have, which is quite special.
Novel cover
Around the 20th century in Japan, the heroine, Miss Chunqin, became blind due to illness at the age of nine, and later learned to play the piano (Japanese Guqin and Shamisen ), and she was talented and outstanding; , but violent. Sasuke, a teenage apprentice at the home pharmacy, undertakes the daily pick-up and drop-off task of Chunqin learning, and then takes on the daily life of servants. He only obeyed the order of the young lady, fulfilled his duties, and deeply trusted Chunqin. Although he had been "tortured" by Chunqin, he could endure it, and regarded Chunqin's rudeness as enjoyment.
As the age of both parties grows, the love of children grows naturally, and there are close relatives and unknown sons. However, Chunqin absolutely refused to marry her parents, and would rather live together forever, living a husband and wife life like "master and apprentice" and "master and servant" until the end of her life (Chunqin died at the age of 58, Sasuke was 83 years old, he was alone more than 20 years).
In fact, the most touching and evocative thing in the book is the attitude of the two people to this emotion, which seems a little unreasonable. But we carefully analyze the psychology of the two, in fact, it is completely reasonable.
Chunqin's character is extremely beautiful, arrogant, indifferent, unruly, willful, and tyrannical. In short, she is an "abnormal" person. In fact, this completely conforms to the personality and psychological characteristics of the disabled: she has a strong sense of self-protection, and "prevents personal injury." Whoever hurts first” is a mania of the weak. And why does Sasuke willingly "enjoy" Chunqin's "abuse love"? In fact, this is also in line with common sense: from when she was a teenager, she went to school to learn the piano and took her hand, and then took care of her food and clothing in adolescence (especially helping her take a bath, rub her body, go to the toilet, etc.), normal men can't stand this temptation And torment, what can't you bear after being bewitched by love? Even later his self-inflicted blindness.
According to common sense, "A lover will eventually become a family". Then why is Chunqin unwilling to marry Sasuke and have children normally? (Although their family background and status are different, their parents did not hinder them, but matched them.) In fact, the love of the disparate status has become the pressure of marriage. Apart from the outside world (parents, social environment), the most difficult thing to overcome is oneself— - Chunqin is. She is obviously inseparable from Sasuke (whether in life, physically or psychologically), but the "dignity" in her self-consciousness is an insurmountable obstacle - how could she, a lady like her, marry a servant? What's more important is that if she gets married, it will prove that she admits her sorrow and compromise as a "disabled", then her beauty, arrogance, indifference, unruly, willful, tyranny will become a joke!
stills from the movie of the same name
If it is said that Chunqin allowed Sasuke to be close to herself in the first half of her life out of necessity (life needs, physical needs), then when she was disfigured, I was afraid that Sasuke would see her ugly face, and after Sasuke self-harmed and became blind, She could only accept him from the bottom of her heart (actually, from her psychological reaction that she was afraid that Sasuke would see her ugly face, Chunqin was actually afraid that Sasuke would leave her; and Sasuke's self-harm and blindness gave him a chance to prove himself, Only then did Chunqin completely dismantle the wall of defense against him). Then why are they still not married? Or because Chunqin didn't tear down the wall of vanity in her heart, which was the straw for her self-esteem that she held in her hand to show others (except Sasuke).
Sasuke's self-harm behavior is understandable, because his heart has long been captured by her, and he doesn't want to leave the impression of Chunqin's ugly face in his mind, so his "self-deception" behavior is completely understandable - of course, This kind of behavior requires not only courage, but also the power of love to support it!
