On the afternoon of December 4, the well-known Taiwanese writer Qiong Yao was confirmed to have passed away at her home in Tamsui District, New Taipei City. She was 86 years old. Qiong Yao mentioned in her suicide note, "When people get old, they have to go through a very painful

Screenshot of Qiong Yao’s suicide note video.

On the afternoon of December 4, the well-known Taiwanese writer Qiong Yao was confirmed to have passed away at her home in Tamsui District, New Taipei City. She was 86 years old. Qiong Yao mentioned in her suicide note, "When people get old, they have to go through a very painful period of 'weakness, degeneration, illness, hospital visits, treatment, and death'", and she said, "I don't want that kind of death." Nandu reporters learned that Qiong Yao once refused to intubate her husband when he was seriously ill. She said that when she saw her husband's painful appearance after intubation, she instantly felt that she had "betrayed him."

Screenshot of Qiong Yao’s suicide note video.

Qiong Yao ’s son said that his mother left a suicide note. At noon on December 4, the secretary discovered that Qiong Yao had committed suicide in her room, and immediately notified the emergency department. When the ambulance crew arrived, they found that Qiong Yao had no breathing or heartbeat and was obviously dead, so she was not sent to the hospital.

Qiong Yao's suicide note mentioned, "'Pianran' is my two favorite words. It represents the 'flying' of 'autonomy, freedom, freedom'. It is graceful and 'light'. I got rid of the body that gradually caused me pain." , turned into snowflakes and flew away "

" This is my wish, 'Death' is the only way for everyone, and it is also the last 'big thing'. I don't want to leave it to fate, and I don't want to slowly wither and wither. I want to 'make the decision' for this last big thing... When people get old, they all have to do it. After a very painful period of "weakness, degeneration, illness, hospital visits, treatment, and death", this period can be long or short. What a torture it is for people who are bound to die of old age! Unfortunately, he may also become a "bedridden old man" who relies on "intubation" to survive. I have witnessed that kind of tragic situation. "

In June 2019, Crown Publishing House issued a statement saying that the husband of writer Qiong Yao. Ping Xintao, founder of Crown Group, passed away on May 23 at the age of 92. It is reported that Qiong Yao and Ping Xintao got married in May 1979.

Nandu reporters noticed that in 2017, Qiong Yao revealed that her husband Ping Xintao suffered from vascular dementia and had been hospitalized for more than a year. She also expressed her suffering during this period on Facebook, knowing that he would never recover and could not bear it. He was asked to have a nasogastric tube inserted, which caused him to have a falling out with his stepchildren. But under the persuasion of writer and anesthesiologist Hou Wenyong, she compromised, but she consciously betrayed her husband, said a hundred times that she was sorry, and even had the idea of ​​whispering.

On November 28 this year, Qiong Yao posted a long video "Remembering the Dead Husband" on social platforms.

She said: "I miss you very much these days. I miss you so much after you were inserted into the nasogastric tube, after your children violently attacked me, and after I finished "Before the Snowflakes Fall". Trying my best to stop myself from falling into it, I made this video out of our photos. I kept watching the video and listening to the song. Tonight, I am thinking of you! This short video is our life! You have gone away, so I might as well go back! "Beautiful lovers in this life, meet in the next life." However, I know deeply that you don't believe in the next life, otherwise, you will not leave any regrets.So, we say goodbye in this life! ”

Qiong Yao also said, “It has been five and a half years since your death, plus you have been bedridden for more than three years, plus you have had dementia and forgotten me, it has been more than ten years! …I confess very frankly: ‘I miss you so much! '"

Interview and writing: Nandu reporter Zhou Minxuan intern Wang Mingyue