"They have to do it, and I do it voluntarily."-"Agarwood crumbs · first incense "
If you ask me, what do I want most?
Then I definitely said without hesitation: "Love, freedom, wealth."
look! I am so greedy. I know, there are any men and women in this world who don't expect to have these!
No one is a saint, no one is a monk.
We, as a layman, are so greedy and degenerate.
In order to get the love, wealth and freedom I want, I work hard to go to school, and live alone after being admitted to college, longing for love in loneliness, being loved, hurt in love, and forced to grow up. The growth path of
is bumpy, and if you are not careful you will go astray.
Some people want to take shortcuts and betray their beauty to find a way to get rich quickly.
Some people seem to be out of silt but not stained, but they have trouble starting with walking. When
camellia girl became a prostitute from the poor, she had no choice but to survive.
In order to stay in Hong Kong, Ge Weilong gradually sinks into the drunken fandom of the upper class, all because she is willing.
are all choices, and they have also become social flowers of the upper class. They are also no different from prostitutes, but the Camellia girl is still pure and pure like a camellia, but Ge Weilong has made herself more and more depraved.
allows a woman to sink, sink, and sink again, until she completely degenerates. This is the brilliance of Zhang Ailing's novels, and it is also the sadness of Zhang Ailing's struggle with fate. When
wrote "The First Incense", Zhang Ailing and Ge Weilong were both students in Hong Kong. The same experience and the same mood, but Ge Weilong in Zhang Ailing's works was even more miserable and hopeless.
Ge Weilong is the heroine in Zhang Ailing's novel "Agarwood Crumbs·The First Incense".
This girl is as simple as the Camellia girl at first. Perhaps every girl is innocent when she is not truly independent.
A young girl like a camellia faces an important life choice. Whether to return to Shanghai or continue to stay in Hong Kong to complete her studies has become the knot in Ge Weilong's heart that is difficult to decide.
At this time, marrying a wealthy businessman as a concubine, the aunt who became a popular person in Hong Kong's upper class, became Ge Weilong's only hope in Hong Kong.
Ge Weilong wants to stay in Hong Kong. On the one hand, she actually doesn't want to put her studies on hold, and on the other hand, she has been immersed in the prosperity of Hong Kong.
Ge Weilong's heart has desire and obsession, and the choice between this thought is either black or white.
Ge Weilong, who thinks that she is always white, looked at her concentration highly;
Ge Weilong, who thinks that all her desires are just passing by, finally squandered into charming eyes.
From the beginning of entering the aunt's house, the rich and noble, every flower and grass, and even the air is noble and strange.
Ge Weilong is like a white mouse, entering the gorgeous laboratory from the wild.
There is something pulling her, making her unable to extricate herself, that kind of thing is called desire. From the beginning of the novel
, the story has entered a fascinating and directionless road from the burning of the first incense, and where the end is, the incense is burnt, and the story naturally stops abruptly.
But regarding Ge Weilong's life, when the first incense burned, that was only the beginning of her.
concealed his family, to please his aunt, Ge Weilong let go of his self-esteem and face, and learned the first lesson of life.
And the name of this lesson is: What do you want , what should you give first?
The tearing feeling that she grew up had already occurred when she lied to her aunt in spite of her face, and this tearing feeling would spread, deepen, rot, and make her feel unhappy, and thisJust the beginning.
Ge Weilong has paid the price since entering the aunt's house, and this price is her honesty.
She betrayed her honesty and couldn't see her heart, just like a fish hooked.
and Ge Weilong, who is looking for tiger skins, are successfully supported by her aunt, but she knows her own heart, but not others. Aunt
can accept Ge Weilong. One is that she is in a dire situation, she has a need, and this need has contributed to this cooperation.
This is a bloodless transaction, but it is also the beginning of a girl's fall, and it is also the history of an old woman's conspiracy.
The fish that was hooked was caught and the fate of only being eaten.
Since Ge Weilong was hooked and on the thief ship, it would be difficult to think about it.
Ge Weilong, who lives in his aunt's house, has a variety of beautiful clothes in the closet, which satisfies the vanity of a girl who loves beauty.
was taken to various receptions by her aunt, and she saw the charm and superiority of the social flower. She fell in love with this life. When
fell in love with someone, that kind of regret that could not be loved became her lingering regret. The appearance of
Qiao Qiqiao became her only secret key against her aunt, but she really fell in love with him.
broke through the scene of true love, she regretted it for the first time.
The sea of bitterness is boundless, and she wants to look back.
was immersed in the fragrance of the first incense, it was a rare time for her to wake up.
This time she gave up everything, struggling, struggling, missing, painful, tearing.
finally lost to desire.
How can a fish that has been hooked escape to the sky without being squeezed out of the last fish of value, is it still a nutritious fish?
At this moment, the brief sobriety has become the reason for Ge Weilong to sink and degenerate.
God gave her a way to live soberly, but she failed this kind of love. At this point,
is like Zhuge Liang's aunt, like a trader, playing with Ge Weilong's destiny at will, but in her dictionary, there is no humanity.
Two people who have no affection, one squanders affection, and the other hypocritically uses affection as a weight. In the eyes of readers, they are hypocritical.
Once people become hypocritical, then the conscience in human nature will only become less and less, until there is no.
And the aunt who can choose to marry a wealthy businessman when she marries, and finally inherit all the inheritance, but the aunt who fools around with people now has no moral restraint and no human conscience.
is with such an aunt, and Xiaobai's Ge Weilong wants to play with her, but she can only be played to death.
's retreat this time, I did not expect to be used by the scheming aunt to retreat and attack the heart. Ge Weilong did not escape but was sold.
's deed of selling this time is her life, but she knows it, but she is willing to fall, because this is what she wants, even if it is a fire pit.
Desire is the root of all evil, and hypocrisy is the poison that conceals the truth.
If Ge Weilong's layers of degeneration are due to desire, then learning hypocrisy when she is blinded by desire will aggravate her tragedy.
What she wanted was very simple, a person who truly loves herself, a wealthy family, and a dream of not wanting to be displaced.
is just that the original heart is still there. Even if the heart is dusty, it is still true. There is no hypocrisy, no vain, and it is not empty.
Now she, in the hands of her aunt who understands human nature, learning hypocrisy and learning to hide her desires has become a compulsory course for her.
But desire is like a poppy, it will be addictive, the more depressed it will go deep into the bone marrow.
And this depression, this pain, thisShe needs to vent her tearing sense, and only love can let her vent.
Therefore, with the appearance of Qiao Qiqiao, their love is just a transaction, each takes what they need.
And the aunt who knew everything, took good advantage of the needs of Ge Weilong and Qiao Qiqiao, and completely tied them to the thief boat. At the end of the
story, Ge Weilong and Qiao Qiqiao got married.
Their marriage is a transaction. Party A is an aunt and Party B is Qiao Qiqiao.
And Ge Weilong, she was just a fish on the chopping board from beginning to end, she never had a choice.
At the end of the novel, Ge Weilong and Qiao Qiqiao stood on the beach. Ge Weilong watched those laughing women who were forced by life and got on the thief boat, and watched the stray officers and soldiers treat her as a prostitute. At that moment, her heart was clear and sad. She said:
"What is the difference between me and them."
"They have no choice but I am voluntary." Voluntary degeneration, voluntary loss, everything is just because she is willing.This is a game between depravity and anti-depravity, as well as a path for a woman's self-examination.
and short introspection, in the shackles of reality and illusion, wanting to walk a path of freedom, but it is an unknown journey.
is the pinnacle of playing with humanity in Zhang Ailing's novels, "The First Incense" is full of stamina.
The length and temptation of agarwood constructs a false dream, and in this dream, the tearing of reality and falsehood, the half-dream and half-awake madness, what is the end of desire? The story of the first incense of
ends here, and there is already a certain number about Ge Weilong's life, the cause of the future, the result of today, and the cycle of cause and effect.
A person can truly control his own life only if he controls his desires. Only by not forgetting the original intention can you walk into the right way and get what you think.
