Eighteen years ago, Zhang Zhongxin, the people's policeman who was awarded the title of national second-class heroine, died of liver cirrhosis. When he died, he was in a coma for three days and three nights, but he still kept his eyes open.
The attending doctor solemnly said to Zhang Zhongxin’s wife, Yang Jing: “Sister Yang, your husband is rarely seen in our hospital in this situation. I think he must have something important to let go.”
Yang Jing thought of her husband. Before she fell into a coma, she told her: "I'm leaving, please bring your daughter up and do nothing else."
Yang Jing knows that the so-called "do nothing" in the words of husband means just Let her not remarry .
"I was only 40 years old at that time, and I didn't agree at once, just saying that I would try my best." At
, Yang Jing couldn't find anyone to confide in, so she could only pour out all the pain in her eyes to the doctor, she said : "If I promise him, what if I can't do it?"
Obviously, the choice before him is whether to keep the promise or lie to the dying person? Dr.
wanted to help Yang Jing clear the frustration in her heart, and kindly told Yang Jing: “It’s not a problem that your husband’s mouth and eyes are not closed. If you can’t do it, then go to his grave to confess later.”
Yang Jing finally obeyed. The doctor’s advice, because she felt that it was impossible to drag her like this all the time, so she went to the hospital bed and said to her husband: “Don’t worry, I will not do anything in this life, so I will bring up my daughter.”
said strangely, Yang Jing It was discovered that as soon as her voice fell, the index curve of heart rate and blood pressure on the intensive care unit quickly changed to a straight line. Zhang Zhongxin, who was in a deep coma and was reluctant to let go, immediately went peacefully.
Zhang Zhongxin, who has been working as a police officer all his life, finally got rid of the pain caused by his illness, but Yang Jing, who stayed in the world, made this promise, but did not know how she would go in the future.
Yang Jing who is holding a portrait of Zhang Zhongxin
18 years have passed.
On an ordinary day in the autumn of 2018, two volunteers approached Yang Jing in an ordinary company in the suburbs of Hangzhou, Zhejiang.
may be that no one has come close to her life for so many years, and no one has tried to walk into her heart. That afternoon, the past eighteen years ago was like a flood that burst a bank, and the surging surging could not stop it. But the bitterness and grievances of the eighteen years have stopped Yang Jing's tears and dried and wet.
Now talking about Zhang Zhongxin, talking about the past 18 years ago, Yang Jing still gritted her teeth and said more and more angry, she said: "I will never forgive him!"
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a policeman carrying a gas tank
Zhang Zhongxin was a policeman at the Xixi Police Station in Hangzhou. He died of illness on June 15, 2001, when he was only 43 years old. He was awarded more than 20 honorary titles such as National Outstanding Community Service Provider and National Outstanding People's Police Officer before his death. After his death, he was posthumously awarded as a second-class hero by the Ministry of Public Security.
Zhang Zhongxin is an extremely ordinary community policeman, ordinary like air and sunlight.
When he was young, Zhang Zhongxin was
. In those days, the duty of the community police was to walk from house to house to search for information, but Zhang Zhongxin did more. He also helped other people get haircuts, carry gas tanks, and bathe elderly people who cannot take care of themselves... …
One more time, Zhang Zhongxin, who was a community policeman, was shocked when he first stepped into Old Man Zhang’s house, and a stench came on his face.
That is a special family. Both the old couple are in their seventies and cannot afford to be ill. The 37-year-old daughter Xiaoqin is dumb, paralyzed, mentally retarded, and has severe epilepsy. Xiaoqin has never cut her hair since she was born, and her hair is messy and dirty.
That afternoon, Zhang Zhongxin, with a soft heart, washed Xiaoqin's hair with tears in his eyes, and the bowls he brought out were muddy water.
Zhang Zhongxin has since become a member of this family, washing, cooking, buying rice, buying vegetables, washing hair, and haircutting all inclusive, until he was admitted to the hospital with liver ascites. For 11 years, Lao Zhang's family has become accustomed to the life of Zhang Zhongxin.
has been in the police for 15 years and has changed five communities. This is what Zhang Zhongxin has done the most. No matter how small things are, as long as they can, he will help solve them one by one.
There is a wooden box in Zhang Zhongxin's relic. The words "Serve the People" on the box have faded. It contains razors and scissors, which he brought back from the army. With these simple tools, Zhang Zhongxin has served more than 4,000 people in the community.
Zhang Zhongxin, who cuts hair for residents of the jurisdiction,
is a person who is not respected and loved, and is often seen best when he leaves.
A reporter went to his community for interviews. Only ten residents were notified in advance. But when the reporter arrived, the gate of the community was already full of people. They all spontaneously told reporters about Zhang Zhongxin, because this one died young. The police treat them as parents, brothers and sisters.
After Zhang Zhongxin walked for a long time, the chalk writing "Sorrowful memory of Comrade Zhang Zhongxin" on the community blackboard was still painted over and over again by the residents. To this policeman who was familiar with his family, the residents did not want this name to be the same. Farewell to yourself. Some of them knew that Xiao Zhang was no longer there, but they still stubbornly dialed the familiar paging number.
A policeman will only help the residents of the community with chores instead of investigating the law and order and solving the case. Is this considered a business? At that time, there was also a fierce debate on this issue within the public security system.
But there is an indisputable fact that the area under the jurisdiction of Zhang Zhongxin is always one of the communities with the best public security and the lowest crime rate.
Zhang Zhongxin’s farewell meeting
After Zhang Zhongxin passed away, a young policeman posted a post on the public security intranet: “I didn’t say a word to Zhang Zhongxin, but only met him where he last worked. It was a smiling face. On the day that attended the memorial service, an old grandmother rushed out holding the coffin and cried and said: "Xiao Zhang, I am over 70 years old, let me go for you!" Everyone present at burst into tears. I suddenly I understand that whether he is an excellent people's police or not depends on how important his position among the people is. At that moment, Zhang Zhongxin made me feel how glorious it is to be a people's police!"
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Residents in the "
community gave Zhang Zhongxin rave reviews, but with his wife Yang Jing, what he did to Zhang Zhongxin was full of resentment.
How could Yang Jing have no opinion? is because he is not doing good deeds in general, but completely disregarding his family. But her husband was found by herself, and she was also helpless.
Yang Jing grew up in a military compound, influenced by his family, and has a good impression of being a soldier.
Yang Jing when she was young,
, she and Zhang Zhongxin met through introduction. The first impression Zhang Zhongxin gave her was that she was very honest and good-looking.
Yang Jing's personality is quick and easy to talk, which is the opposite of the "Jing" in her name. At that time, she also had her own "Small Nine Nine", and she felt that Zhang Zhongxin was honest and could listen to her. In the end, he didn't expect that he listened to her, and after listening to it, he would do it himself. After the
army changed jobs, Zhang Zhongxin became a community policeman. Since then, he has rarely got off work and went home on time. Even when Yang Jing gave birth to his son, he was not by his side, and rushed to the hospital after he was on duty in the clinic.
Zhang Zhongxin once served in the army when he was young. When he was young, Zhang Zhongxin added a child to
's house. There are more things. He is always asked to come back and help. He always has something to do with the resident's house. The resident's house is still waiting for him, as if any resident is better than his wife. important.
Yang Jing’s most annoying is that Zhang Zhongxin helps people carry gas tanks, but at home, she carries gas tanks. He helps people buy rice and vegetables. She always buys rice and vegetables at home. What was even more unexpected was that when she asked Zhong Xin, he was still righteous, and Yang Jing choked so hard that Yang Jing could not speak: "Those are widows and lonely old people, they can't do work, of course I have to help. You can't do anything, I I will also help you."
Yang Jing hates the pager the most. Days and nights are endless. The pager will always be a community resident who is more important than his wife.Called, left immediately, and asked him, he always said the same thing: The residents have something to ask for me, what can I do if I don’t go?
Later, when Zhang Zhongxin came back one day later, Yang Jing crossed the calendar. After three months of playing, except for one day, the other dates were filled with red crosses. has been married for 15 years, and the days when her husband comes home from get off work on time for dinner, the total does not exceed one year.
Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin
Later, Yang Jing couldn't stand it and filed for divorce. That day, I went to the street to go through the divorce procedures, and it was going through. Zhang Zhongxin's pager called again, saying that the residential area had to leave if something happened. Yang Jing waited all morning, but her husband did not come back either. As a result, it was this pager that kept them from divorcing.
is also strange, the day after Zhang Zhongxin left, the pager that had followed him for more than 10 years suddenly broke down. Yang Jing installed a new battery and dialed her husband's call sign several times, but the pager remained silent as if she was asleep.
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He is a policeman, but he failed to protect his son
Yang Jing didn’t know that her husband was actually very kind, because he felt that doing good things would be rewarded.
used to be a family of three
, but Yang Jing got a bad return. Her biological son Kunkun disappeared under the nose of the police husband.
It was before Zhang Zhongxin's youngest brother got married. Zhang Zhongxin temporarily asked for leave to take his son, borrowed a car and called a friend, and drove the whole night to Suzhou. Because of the unfamiliar road, my friend plunged a dam on the village road. My friend and Zhang Zhongxin were fine, but Kunkun, his son, could not be rescued. At that time, his son was in the second grade of elementary school. The sudden departure of
made Yang Jing almost collapsed. She said: My son has always wanted to take the small plane that flew up and down in the children's park. Zhang Zhongxin did not know how many times he had promised the child, but he had never fulfilled it. The son had tears in his eyes several times to complain to her father and deceive others. .
At the son's farewell ceremony, Zhang Zhongxin cried, crying and beating himself. The son’s body was about to be pushed away. He dragged the cart with all his strength and called his son’s little hand: "Kunkun, Dad will take you to the small plane, this time I really don’t lie to you, really."
Speaking of the scene at the time, Yang Jing said that her heart was breaking.
Every Qingming Festival, Zhang Zhongxin always visits his son. When he sees that little tombstone, Zhang Zhongxin always sits on the ground and punches his chest, "Kunkun, you have to forgive dad..."
son Zhang Zhongxin's accident made Zhang Zhongxin even more silent. In those years, he spent more time in residential areas.
A few years ago, he was injured in a car accident on the way to work, had a blood transfusion in a small clinic, and then developed hepatitis. He had frequent liver pain and he didn't go to the hospital in time. Until the final discovery, the ascites was already serious.
When Zhang Zhongxin was hospitalized, he also told Yang Jing that he recovered and he could wear a new police uniform to work. Later, his condition continued to deteriorate, and Zhang Zhongxin stopped mentioning work, but always said to Yang Jing: "I will accompany you more." While he was still alive, he hugged his wife and cried: "I am sorry for you and my son in this life. , I will repay in my next life!" Zhang Zhongxin passed away in the fifth year after the son of
left.
After three years, Yang Jing's father, the person who loved her the most in the world, also left. From then on, she was only left with herself, not even a place to complain. When
thinks of Zhang Zhongxin, she becomes even more angry. For his career, she left the mother and daughter in the world. It is more difficult for a living person than a dead person.
So Yang Jing would say: I will never forgive him for the rest of my life.
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I feel like I'm going to get through this hurdle.
"I am a one-one, so I didn't dare to promise at the beginning. But do you think I have suffered for so many years for this promise? I am alone and I am alone People are lonely and can't sleep, and I have to deal with all things alone. Who can bear this kind of suffering?"
Yang Jing said several "one person" in succession. More than a year after the son of
left, at the end of 1996, Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin had daughter Xiaocao. Named Xiaocao, one is GreekI hope she will be strong, and the second is to look forward to the arrival of Xiaocao, which can bring the power of growth to the whole family. The birth of daughter Xiaocao
brought new hope to the family
The year Zhang Zhongxin left, her daughter Xiaocao was only 5 years old. She collapsed once when the son of
passed away. Fortunately, the arrival of her daughter Xiaocao made her forget the pain temporarily. Now that her husband left and asked her to make a promise, she felt that she was going to be unable to pass this hurdle. The husband of
had just been away for a month, and once Xiaocao had a high fever in the middle of the night, Yang Jing found something was wrong, Xiaocao's forehead was hot and crying constantly, Yang Jing's heart was stabbed, she decided to go to the Provincial Children's Hospital overnight.
came downstairs with a small grass in his arms and realized that in the middle of the night, he couldn't get a taxi from the remote door of Chengxi's house, so helpless Yang Jing could only walk to the hospital with his daughter. Because of the long distance, Yang Jing only walked a little and a half after walking for a long time. Yang Jing felt very aggrieved and cried unknowingly, and her daughter also cried.
In this way, the mother and daughter were walking under the dim street lights, and they didn't reach the Provincial Children's Insurance Hospital until the sky began to dim.
At that time, the mother and daughter's life was frightening. One night a thief came to the house. The thief crawled in through the kitchen window. At that time, all the money in the bag was taken away. The only thing that did not take away was the water cost of the unit that each family had worked so hard to collect in front of the husband's portrait, because she was the unit leader at that time. At that time, Yang Jing was so scared that she was shaking, but she had nowhere to rely.
The long-term fatigue caused her original frozen shoulder to suffer a serious attack. The hospital received a closed needle and she couldn't get up in pain when she was lying in bed. At that time, her daughter was only five years old and could not hold her.
was really unable to do anything later, Xiaocao climbed onto the bed, used her small body to get under her mother's back, and exhausted her strength to push her mother to sit up. That year, Xiaocao began scrubbing her mother's back, and began to comb her mother's long hair.
The little grass who helps with housework
At that time, this long hair was the only thing Yang Jing thought of her husband. Zhang Zhongxin likes her to have long hair. She had her hair cut once when she first got married. Zhang Zhongxin was very unhappy, but she kept it for her husband. But in order to relieve Xiaocao's burden, Yang Jing had to cut off her long hair.
Xiaocao started cooking at the age of five. Yang Jing said: "Once I came home from get off work, Xiaocao said that my mother had cooked the meal, and my tears were hanging down at that time. Xiaocao thought he did not burn well. I said this is the world I have eaten. The best meal. I have a nanny in charge of the children in my family, and Xiaocao in our family is already standing on a small bench to wash water."
Life is busy and tiring.
Yang Jing said that when his father left, Xiaocao was in kindergarten. At that time, I put filial piety on Xiaocao and put it on his sleeve. Many children in the kindergarten made fun of Xiaocao not having a father. She went home and cried for several days.
Once when Yang Jing went to pick up Xiaocao, she saw a kid saying that she had no father. She was so angry that she gave the kid a slap without saying anything. She said that she knew it was wrong, but she couldn't do it. Otherwise, she couldn't calm Xiaocao's injured heart, and she couldn't overwhelm others on the aura. In the evening, the child's parents called to apologize, and then Yang Jing also apologized on the phone.
Xiaocao twisted his ankle when he was in the fifth grade. The classroom is on the fourth floor. Yang Jing had to carry Xiaocao to the school from the first floor to the fourth floor, and then from the fourth floor after school. She carried it twice a day for three months, and she couldn't even move her back, but there was no way, no one could help. Sometimes I shed tears on my back, then gritted my teeth and moved on.
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In order to live, I can only fight
After her husband left, the biggest difficulty left to Yang Jing is that there is no money in the passbook. In order to cure the disease, it has already owed a huge debt, which many importing drug countries cannot report. At that time, I bought the medicine from Germany and went to him before it arrived. The medicine cost 6,000 marks (worth about 23,200 yuan).
My family is empty, but I want to live, what should I do?
After Zhang Zhongxin left, Yang Jing carried the house alone
Yang Jing thought, if she promised her husband, she must do it. can have nothing, but we must give our daughter the best education, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, we have to learn what others are learning, and we must learn well.
At that time, one lesson of piano was one hundred yuan. Gritting her teeth, Yang Jing said to the teacher, Xiaocao's father is gone. We are a single-parent family. I will introduce you to ten students. You will give me a discount. The teacher later only charged her 60 yuan per class, and Yang Jing really introduced many students to the teacher. Yang Jing said that this teacher is pretty good, as long as the next student to learn piano hasn't arrived, he will teach Xiaocao Tong. She helps clean up when there is no one else in the teacher's house.
Once the toilet in the teacher's bathroom was blocked, and feces and urine flowed all over the floor. Yang Jing gritted her teeth and went in, bluntly dredging out all the dirt with her hands. She vomited while digging. She had never done anything like this since she was spoiled and raised. The teacher was very touched when she learned about it. She said she had planned to have a good class before calling someone to do it.
Yang Jing goes home at night and feels nauseous when she sees the food. Xiaocao asked her mother if she was sick. Yang Jing told Xiaocao how she cleaned the bathroom, saying that her mother had no abilities and no money. By doing so, she thought that the teacher could teach you better. Xiaocao said with tears in her eyes: "Mom, I will repay you well in the future."
Yang Jing said that at that time I really wanted to cry, or scold Zhang Zhongxin again, or that I would never forgive him for the rest of my life. . Although it's useless to say these things, I still have to say it, say it in my heart.
Yang Jing worked in the business system after graduating from high school, including the deputy business manager of the well-known "Little Luzon" shopping mall in Hangzhou. After that, she was transferred to the university to work as an administration and later as an accountant. I retired at the age of 50, and the retirement salary was not high, which made me stretched. How to do? Not only had to pay off the debt, but also had a training class for her daughter to go out to find a job.
searched on the Internet, and retired people don’t even want to be a cashier in a supermarket. Yang Jing only knew at that time how people collapsed when they were helpless. Only then did she think why her husband had to help those widowed elderly people, because they really had nothing to do except Zhang Zhongxin.
Yang Jing finally found a job in a gift shop, moving things in a warehouse. She had difficulty standing up when she squatted on the ground, she just relied on her will to carry it down.
She has also worked as a tutor. That's because Xiaocao has good grades. The parents of her classmates said, come and help us. Yang Jing said that she listened to military broadcasts on time every morning. This is a habit developed in the military compound. She said that there is no problem with current affairs and politics. You can also bring your language to ensure that you can be admitted to key middle schools. In the end, people wanted to pay her, but she didn't accept it, but Yang Jing remembered every income and expenditure clearly.
She doesn't take money from others, not because she doesn't want money, but she feels that she has to take the right way. The way here is not the principle, but the human relationship and face. Yang Jing has a bottom line, that is, she can't accept charity, and is only willing to exchange at an equal value. Perhaps the "equivalence" here is more of a consciousness. Only if I give, I can get it.
Later, when someone gave Xiaocao New Year's Eve money to various cards during the New Year, she accepted it. She felt that she could receive it at this time, so she could receive it with peace of mind. This is actually the money she used to pick sweaters, make shoes, and help others. Money for tutoring.
So in such a long time, she has never asked the organization for help, nor has she accepted simple help from others. She always hopes to get back the corresponding value through her own efforts and dedication, so she feels at ease.
has been making money by making sweaters for others for a long time. Imported cashmere sweaters were popular on the market at that time and they were very expensive. So Yang Jing went to Hangzhou Building to quietly memorize the styles of these imported woolen sweaters. After learning at home, she said to her colleagues: "You use one thousand yuan to buy cashmere thread, and you pay me one thousand yuan to make you like styles. Money." Colleagues with three thousand pieces of clothing can save one thousand yuan, and Yang Jing can make one thousand yuan.
Knitting sweaters was once one of Yang Jing's methods of making a living. As much as you have, you can live what kind of life. If you have a high IQ, you can use your brain to make money. If you have a low IQ, you can also use your emotional and physical strength to make money.
Although Yang Jing has an accounting certificate, but in the unitIt is only responsible for issuing wages and meal tickets. So besides self-study on the Internet, she went to the tax bureau's office to study in another way, quietly listening to other people's questions and how to answer them. After listening, sometimes I still don't understand, so I went to the counter and asked the staff. During that time, I sat there for a day, and for a while, some new people even regarded her as a member of the tax department.
Now she is an accountant for a company, and she is very good at doing business such as accounting and tax payment. She has won the trust of the boss, so the salary has been rising.
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Zhang Zhongxin's forever sister-in-law
When Zhang Zhongxin was there, Yang Jing was Zhang's sister-in-law, Zhang Zhongxin was gone, and Yang Jing was Zhang's sister-in-law, which has never changed.
Yang Jing said: All of this was done for Zhang Zhongxin, and he must not be embarrassed. If a person is kind or not, you must treat your family first. If you can't even do your family, what are you going to brag about outside?
In November last year, the volunteers also followed Yang Jing to Zhang Zhongxin's hometown. It can be seen that Yang Jing's position in the minds of Zhang's family was established by Yang Jing's care and dedication to Zhang's family bit by bit over the years.
When Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin's siblings
Zhang Zhongxin were there, she didn't necessarily go back every year. She used to host rural relatives quarreling for a year. But after her husband left, she felt obligated to go back every year, including bringing Xiaocao back, because after all, Xiaocao was a descendant of the Zhang family.
Father-in-law Yang Jing said before his death: "My eldest son is gone, but my wife is here, and she is better than you have a son." The
Zhang family is also proud of Xiaocao. After Xiaocao was admitted to the China Public Security University with a first-line grade, the people in his hometown were extremely happy. They were very simple and could not remember the name of the school, so they said that they were better than Peking University and Tsinghua University.
Yang Jing feels that this is also worthy of Zhang Zhongxin and Zhang's family. When Zhang Zhongxin came out as a soldier and became a policeman in Hangzhou, it was a lot of face. Now Xiaocao's entrance to university also saves Zhang's family. When
went back to Suzhou with Yang Jing, we were accompanied by Zhang Zhongxin’s two younger sisters. When they talked about Yang Jing, tears came down. They are grateful to this sister-in-law from the bottom of their hearts, and they are not good at talking.
Zhang Zhongxin has passed away for so many years. The brothers and sisters of the Zhang family go out to work, and Yang Jingneng is there to help wherever they go to Hangzhou. Because she said that they are indeed still having difficulties, she can still borrow money, but they can't borrow money in their hometown. She borrowed money with interest, and all of it was paid off in advance.
The son of Zhang Zhongxin's eldest sister recently got married and asked Yang Jing to borrow 150,000 yuan. Among them, 50,000 used gifts were returned, and 100,000 has not been paid. This money was also borrowed by Yang Jing. She would not rush to ask her elder sister, but would pay it back slowly. However, Yang Jing also told Zhang Zhongxin’s eldest sister that after Xiaocao will get married and have children, she will come to help. She may not be able to do anything at that time...
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For her daughter, she did everything
Cao Xiaocao, Yang Jing talks about her daughter Xiaocao most.
grew up in such a family encounter, Xiaocao has been more sensible than other children since childhood. When I was young, my uncle took Xiaocao to KFC and walked to the door. The four-year-old Xiaocao swallowed, and Lala's hand said, "Don't eat anymore, father is sick. Let's save some money."
Xiaocaocheng With the hope of Yang Jing's life
Eighteen years after her husband left, Yang Jing was not afraid to be frightened. It can be said that all the way is the rapids.
was afraid of her daughter being bullied in kindergarten and elementary school, so she protected her daughter like a chicken. Yang Jing usually likes to read books and is always wondering how to change her destiny. First, she changed her daughter's name, and then spotted a mole on her face.
Yang Jing even thought about changing her name, but in the end she didn’t change it. This is precisely what she is most sensible. She believes a little bit of what others say, but she doesn’t believe it all. She says the only thing she can believe. It's my own effort.
Xiaocao started to learn dancing and piano in kindergarten, and continued to learn steel in elementary schoolQin and ballet, went to junior high school and studied vocal music, both mother and daughter rushed to and fro like this, but changed from one bicycle to two bicycles.
Xiaocao still remembers the first time her mother took her to the piano shop and asked her to choose what she liked. So she chose the most beautiful piano. After growing up, Xiaocao knew that the piano she picked was the most expensive in the store, and it took her mother to wear many sweaters day and night to change it.
In Yang Jing's concept, children who have not been satisfied since childhood may grow up to be very greedy. She said that Director Qi in the "Name of the People" is like this.
Xiaocao has been more sensible than other children since childhood. When she was in the second and third grades, during the spring season, she would let her daughter hang upside down on the horizontal and parallel bars in the community every night. She thinks this can make the child grow taller because she and her husband are not tall. Now Xiaocao is about to graduate from university, and his height has grown to 1.68 meters.
Yang Jing is very strict with Xiaocao when she studies. She beat her daughter only to study. The family only allows Xiaocao to watch cartoons for half an hour on Saturdays. The first thing I do when I go out and come back is to touch whether the TV is hot or not, to judge whether Xiaocao has watched TV. When
was in junior high school, the TV was not allowed to watch. Xiao Caoti protested, "Don't you stop watching TV if I'm not at home?" Yang Jing immediately packed the TV and said you make a mark to see if I have turned it on. Later, the TV was simply shelved. She herself even said that sometimes she and her daughter have reached the stage of "matching wits and courage", but the original intention was for that promise.
As a mother can think of her daughter, Yang Jing has almost achieved the extreme.
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daughter has become a police flower, as if she is a destined reincarnation
Now Xiaocao also has the kindness and helpfulness of his father, which makes Yang Jing both happy and worried. What is happy is the quality of the daughter, but what is worried is afraid. A daughter who does too much will delay her studies. When
started military training for half a month in high school, Xiaocao behaved a little differently. On the first day of training, Xiaocao washed the clothes. The other 5 students in the dormitory did not wash them. Some children called their parents and asked them to come and wash the clothes. Xiaocao saw this matter in his eyes. After supper, he washed the clothes of the other five students in the dormitory, and just washed them for about a week. Later the children in the dormitory washed their clothes by themselves. This change of
surprised parents, and they were amazed by Xiaocao's behavior. Later, parents in the dormitory would prepare an extra for Xiaocao to deliver meals to their children.
Yang Jing said that at this time I seemed to have seen another Zhang Zhongxin, how powerful the inherited genes are.
Later, Xiaocao went to university and it was the same. There was a child who had passed the exam from the frontier, and his family was very poor. Xiaocao sees that she is pitiful to feed this classmate every day. Yang Jing asked her if your classmate gave you money, she said no, my classmate is really pitiful.
Xiaocao is now studying at the People's Public Security University of China.
Xiaocao University is a foreign-related police service. Once the school has tasks that require English translation, he will definitely call Xiaocao. There was a transnational chase in his junior year, and Xiaocao was chosen to travel to Spain as an interpreter.
Yang Jing said that Hangzhou held the G20 last year, and Xiaocao was sent to serve in the most core VIP area because of his excellent English. She came back and told me: Mom and I shook hands today. I joked with her at the time that you don't want to wash your hands forever.
Yang Jing’s experience is that her daughter also wants to let her fly, but she has to pinch the kite string in her hand, including talking about her boyfriend’s private matters. Xiaocao will seek her mother’s opinion. Yang Jing’s attitude is to support and then support. This surprised and envied the classmates in the daughter's bedroom, saying that this mother was really enlightened.
When my daughter came back from Beijing during the New Year, we also got together with Yang Jing's mother and daughter. When Yang Jing talked about excitement, Xiaocao would caress her mother's knees, as if it was half comforting and half coaxing, and then handed over the napkin, and then when she got off the elevator, she would hold her mother. This scene is very warm .
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I will not forgive for a lifetime, is it really possible to put down
one invisibleHis hands are pressing on her, and at the same time pushing her. For many years, Yang Jing has always felt this way.
Yang Jing has been wearing Xiaoxiao for her husband for three years. Inside and out, it is either brown or black. Zhang Zhongxin left for five or six years, and she has never bought an inch of yarn. I used to wear clothes that my old classmates didn't want, but now I wear clothes that my daughter "eliminated".
There has never been a single man in or out of her home in the past eighteen years. This is also the rule she set for herself, fearing others to gossip. In the eighteen years of
, Yang Jing thought again and again, this Zhang Zhongxin is really cruel, he left himself, my promise, I will spend my whole life to do it, and use my life's hard work in exchange for the happiness of my daughter.
Yang Jing often went to visit Zhang Zhongxin. At that time, Yang Jing faced multiple difficulties. First of all, her body and spirit were on the verge of collapse. Because of her allergic physique, she could not get penicillin injections. After her son left, her heart suffered a problem and she had to take medicine all the time. After the husband left, he developed anemia again and has not improved. I usually have a cold and can only take Chinese patent medicine, so she basically becomes a medicine jar.
has been taking her medicine for seven full years. Later, the doctor told her that you are already made of medicine all over, and medicine is poison. If you want to exercise, you can’t just take medicine.
A healthy body for the elders is the greatest blessing for children. In order to stay with her daughter for a longer time, Yang Jing decided to make a change. The year
should be 2006, when Xiaocao was 10 years old, and since then, as long as Yang Jing is alone, she will ride to the gym directly after work.
has persisted for more than ten years, first doing yoga and then practicing equipment. She has seen obvious results. The annual physical examination indicators are all good, the heart is no longer problem, and the anemia is basically better. The more important thing is the state of mind. Looking at Yang Jing's words and deeds, especially her thoughts, she doesn't look like a person who has retired for nearly ten years.
Yoga is Yang Jing's practice for many years.
Yang Jing said that if Zhang Zhongxin is still there, I don't think I will be what I am today. It was Zhang Zhongxin and Xiaocao that made me what I am today.
In fact, she will slowly understand later that being with her daughter and accompanying her daughter’s growth is her greatest happiness, and the only happiness, and this is also the greatest wealth Zhang Zhongxin left her.
Yang Jing said, a person should cherish good luck, cherish your happiness, you will be happier. I look at my daughter now, the more I look, the happier I am Without this daughter, I guess I would not live now. With this daughter, I see new ones every day.
When Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin were together, she thought she knew him, but she really knew Zhang Zhongxin after he left, and she knew more about him later.
One of the things that Yang Jing hated the most was that on the day of his son's "May 7th" festival, Zhang Zhongxin didn't go home very late. In the end, Yang Jing's classmates called Zhang Zhongxin and said that you were still not a human being. Ah, you won't come back for your son "May 7"!
was going to be very later, after Zhang Zhongxin passed away, Yang Jing slowly began to understand her husband, how could he not have a son in his heart, this is the eternal pain in his heart, he has been blaming himself for the car accident that went home And guilt, it was a big rock tightly pressed against his chest.
Chess is one of Zhang Zhongxin's few hobbies. When his son is alive, he often plays chess with his father. After the son went, he never played chess again, and the chess pieces and chessboard were hidden. A photo of his son Zhang Zhongxin has been hidden in his breast pocket and never left his body until he finally died. His love for his daughter Xiaocao is even more so, no matter how late he comes back, he will kiss his daughter.
Zhang Zhongxin’s comrade-in-arms and fellow villager Wang Zhenjin knew Zhang Zhongxin best. They were soldiers who joined the army together. Zhang Zhongxin was very hardworking when he first joined the army. He had a very good military quality and had excellent target shooting results. At that time, it was not easy to be able to come out of the countryside to serve as a soldier. Zhang Zhongxin was also the first among their group to join the party and was rated as advanced.
Zhang Zhongxin is naturally kind and simple. He feels that it is already a good thing to come from the Huaibei countryside to settle down in Hangzhou and become a policeman. CommunityThe old people need him, and his parents are not around, so he treats the elderly in the community as his parents, and has been doing his filial piety to them for more than ten years.
Zhang Zhongxin also felt his own value from the needs of the elderly. Even after the liver disease was recovered, he said to others: It is better to die at work than to die at home.
Zhang Zhongxin regards helping the elderly as a belief, nothing is more important than this. In order to do it well, other things can be tolerated.
Zhang Zhongxin’s image data
before the new life is also at this point, Yang Jing truly understands Zhang Zhongxin. Everyone has their own truly important things to do. Yu Zhang Zhongxin is to help others; Yu Yang Jing is to fulfill promises.
18 years ago, Yang Jing kept it for 18 years, and promised to have done it: don't do other "things" and concentrate on growing the grass.
Xiaocao has grown up, and she herself has survived the painful Nirvana and feels that she has been born anew, although she sometimes says in her mouth: I will never forgive him in my life.
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The deepest feelings
Yang Jing sometimes feels that Zhang Zhongxin is not too far away from her. For many nights, she felt him as if he was on the ceiling, but it was higher than the ceiling.
For so many years, Yang Jing always remembers Zhang Zhongxin's kindness to her.
Yang Jing likes to eat stinky tofu and mutton. Zhang Zhongxin doesn't touch these things, but in order to make Yang Jing happy, he often buys these things and burns them to Yang Jing to eat.
Going home from a business trip, she will definitely bring Yang Jing gifts, sometimes clothes, sometimes souvenirs.
Yang Jing is a little obsessed with cleanliness and likes to have a clean house. As long as Zhang Zhongxin goes home, he will definitely do the hygiene at home again.
Because Yang Jing loves to watch movies, Zhang Zhongxin often buys movie tickets to watch with her. Later, he also takes Xiaocao to watch them. Now movie watching has become a part of Yang Jing's family life. Every Spring Festival, both mother and daughter will watch one or two movies.
Hangzhou is cold in winter, and Yang Jing’s hands will get frostbite. After getting married, Zhang Zhongxin will not let her touch cold water in winter, and will patiently rub her hands. After two years of marriage, Yang Jing no longer develops frostbite. Yang Jing said that the body has memories. In fact, Zhang Zhongxin is a very delicate person, who forgets me as soon as he works. These memories are the strength that supports me to keep this promise for him for life. In short, he gave me too many thoughts.
Zhang Zhongxin left Yang Jing a lot of beautiful thoughts
Many years have passed. Once, when Yang Jing passed by the Jiangong Community, an old lady recognized her and asked if she was Zhang Zhongxin’s wife and said she is now Thin.
Yang Jing said that that ordinary question was a great comfort to her. She suddenly felt that she had always been connected to the man named Zhang Zhongxin in her life. It was not Zhang Zhongxin that she could not forgive, but herself, and she had chosen not to give up.
promise is love, responsibility and hope.
is that she kept her promises and gained inner peace after suffering.
Now, maybe Yang Jing will still say: "I will never forgive him for the rest of my life." But that's just talking, has no regrets in her heart.
