Why did Xu Qin hesitate to approach Song Yan in "Fireworks in My World"?

My overall score of human fireworks is 2023 /

She doesn't have the courage to resist Meng Mu. On this day, Meng Yanchen came early in the morning to send Xu Qin to work as agreed, yesterday's reminder let Xu Qin know what he should do, but even without Meng Yanchen's reminder, Xu Qin didn't have the courage to resist Meng's mother. Because, for so many years, under long-term oppression, she has already lost herself. She didn't have the courage to protest, she didn't have the courage to face her love, she didn't have the ability to love, and she didn't have the qualifications to love. Now she feels that she doesn't deserve to be loved at all.

On this day, when they arrived at the hospital, Meng Yanchen said that he would take Xu Qin abroad, and then the two of them never came back, Xu Qin directly refused. Here, Mother Meng went to ask Vice President Liu specifically for Xu Qin, but in the end, Xu Qin's application to join the medical team was also rejected by Director Xu, who looked down on people like Xu Qin who relied on relationships. Under the control of her mother, Xu Qin violated her own heart and clearly fell in love with each other, but she didn't have the courage.