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- When he was young, everyone was who didn't go crazy.
"If you want to be famous, you must be punished by others. Today is a problem, and the article is still to come." do fight.
They stood in a row of dangling, kicking, lowering their waists, splitting , and when something went wrong, the master's whip hit the head. There is an old saying in
: If you enter the class, you will be killed!
If you don't practice well, you will be beaten; if you don't sing well, you will be beaten;
Bamboo sticks were drawn so bloody, he couldn't cry in pain; his clothes were sticking to his body with blood, and tears could only be swallowed in his stomach. Before
became the "Jiaoer", the protagonists Xiaoshitou and Xiaodouzi were here, practicing Sanjiu in winter and Sanfu in summer. Most of the children in
come from poor backgrounds. They are either orphans and abandoned children, or, like Xiaodouzi, they are "things in a kiln".
Not to mention becoming famous, whether or not he can survive depends entirely on the blessing of his ancestors.
But this group of teenagers is like a fire in the ice sky. They can't swear away, and they're not afraid of fighting. Their hearts are churning with eager expectations for life. One of the scenes in
is even more emotional.
Once, after the practice, Xiao Laizi, who practiced with Xiaodouzi and Xiaoshishi, heard the cries of , a food seller, , and he swallowed hard and said, "How many candied haws do I have to eat before I can become a star."
He swaggered up to the gate, slammed the door open, and ran away like a smoke.
followed closely by Xiaodouzi, who was afraid of being beaten despite being blocked by a small stone.
These two children passed through the lively Tianqiao street market, and came across Peking Opera star who made a grand appearance in front of him, and the grand occasion of that person's former dignitary instantly ignited Xiaodouzi's dream.
He dared to run back, even if he was beaten to death, he secretly swore that he would make a personal appearance.
Xiaodouzi has changed, and he did not forget to work hard with the small stone.
couldn't sing the sentence "I am a female Jiao'e", Xiaodouzi was stabbed in the throat with a wooden stick, and his mouth was full of blood, but he continued to sing;
was punished to kneel in the snow with a basin of cold water , Even if Xiao Shi is frozen into an ice man, he will not beg for mercy, and he will be the mighty Chu Bawang the next day.
If it wasn't for a new born calf who is not afraid of tigers, these sins magnify people, I'm afraid they would have scared people stupid long ago.
But teenagers are not crazy, they can't survive, they have the ambition to travel the world with swords, and they also have the arrogance of the heroes.
They believe that as long as they endure all the hardships, they can become superiors; as long as they bite the bullet, no one dares to stand in their way.
In order to become a danjiao, Xiaodouzi forced herself to become a "female Jiao'e", cut window flowers into butterfly-like shapes, bought handkerchiefs made of fat powder on the street, held orchid fingers on and off the stage, and spoke and walked with an extremely coquettish posture.
and Xiao Shishi, reciting opera words and practicing his figure over and over again, sang in his dreams: "Think of me Xiang Yu, I am so powerful..."
looked at them, and people couldn't help but think of when they were young I myself have gullies in my chest, and heaven and earth in my belly.
Although we come from ordinary and humble backgrounds and have ordinary talents, who is not full of passion and fearless in the wind and rain?
At that time, "about dreams, about literature, about love, about traveling through the world" was like a jar of fine wine, and the aroma was dizzying.
We have not yet heard the sound of broken dreams between clinking glasses, all the loss and melancholy, never hurt.
Who didn't have such energy when he was young?
newborn cowThe calf has nothing to fear, and is omnipotent.
We slammed into freedom and success, that fearless but high-spirited enthusiasm, rushing through our blood like a torrent.
juvenile madness, probably the original appearance of being born.
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- When people reach middle age, they cannot live in powder.
Thousands of days and nights of hard practice finally made Xiaodouzi and Xiaoshishi a coveted role because of the song "Farewell My Concubine".
They are no longer little actors who can be bullied by others, but the famous Cheng Dieyi and Duan Xiaolou.
Cheng Dieyi plays the poppy, charming and fascinating.
On stage, he vowed to follow Bawang to the death, and off stage, he would also sing a lifelong drama with his senior brother.
has no choice but to be an actor, he has never been able to help himself.
Dieyi soon became the prey of the powerful. In order to sing opera, he had to compromise and be a prostitute for the perverted old eunuch, and was molested by Yuan Siye, who covered the sky with only one hand.
He thought that as long as he managed these people, he would be able to fulfill himself and his senior brother, but he didn't want to. The most difficult thing to do was his senior senior brother Duan Xiaolou.
Duan Xiaolou doesn't act like a lunatic, he just wants to be an ordinary man. When he is old, he will marry a wife and have children, and live his own life behind closed doors.
For this reason, Dieyi once pulled Xiaolou and begged: "It's about singing for a lifetime, a year, a month, a day, an hour is not a lifetime."
saw Duan Xiaolou walk away, Dieyi still doesn't give up, he doesn't believe it, why can't life be a show?
He remembered that his brother had a fancy for a sword when he was young. Now this sword is owned by Yuan Siye. In order to let his brother sing, Dieyi took the initiative to go to Yuan's house to curry favor.
But when he went to great lengths to bring the sword to Xiaolou, Xiaolou said disdainfully: "If you don't come to power, why do you want a sword?" He began to indulge himself, singing to the Japanese, hiding at home smoking a big cigarette, and maintaining an ambiguous relationship with Yuan Siye.
He is decadent, opinionated, and covered in thorns.
was caught as a traitor. Everyone said that as long as they made up a nonsense, they could escape, but Dieyi said during the trial: "The Japanese didn't force me, that Qingmu knows how to play."
He and Xiaolou because of As an actor, he was arrested and paraded in the streets. No matter how Xiaolou tried to persuade him, Dieyi couldn't accept it, and even excitedly argued with the new youths about what a play was.
He doesn't seem to care about anything anymore, but when he is robbed and can't act as Yuji, he doesn't care about being decent and speaking harshly in public and shaming his face.
is like this, Cheng Dieyi has become an alternative, out of tune with the world. Li Bihua, the original author of
, said that "life is a face that wipes away the powder", but when people reach middle age, no one can treat life as a play.
Aesthetician Zhu Guangqian said:
Everyone is an idealist when he is young, he likes to close his eyes and build a gorgeous castle in the air in his imagination.
later entered the WTO and gradually deepened, and ideals encountered nails everywhere, so they sacrificed ideals to accommodate reality.
In the end, the wise ones obey their promises, and they are smooth and not revealing edges and corners;
We used to think that we were omnipotent, but when we walked, we found that we could not control anyone except ourselves; It's broken when you touch it;
We used to sing loudly about the splendor of life like summer flowers, but now we singI think the phrase "you and I are both mortals" is the most ironic.
confronted reality head-on, ranging from broken bones to severe injuries.
This is not Cheng Dieyi's fault, it is the fate that all those who fight with their lives cannot escape.
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9z- growing up is a kind of down-to-earth disillusionment.
If Cheng Dieyi is a splendid firework that flies into the air and extinguishes instantly, that small building is a cannonball that suppresses the fire.
He was once a "grandfather" who was flattered by everyone, and he was honest and forthright.
went to the kiln to rescue the prostitute Juxian, and he was not afraid of prejudice and married her; seeing the Japanese soldiers ruining the costumes, he stopped without saying a word.
Even if he faced the fourth master Yuan, he would not look directly at him, and he even made the other party speechless by making jokes.
Even if he is thrown into prison for making trouble, he is still strong and his neck is harder than anyone else.
is such a bully in and out of the show, but in the soft and hard bubbles of life, he has shed his hard skin and is so useless as if his spine has been taken out.
The reason is very simple, he can be crazy, but "crazy" can't be a meal, as long as others don't support you, you Duan Xiaolou is not as good as a dog on the street.
Everyone on the stage respects you as an overlord, but you are still a common man when you take off your costumes.
At first, Duan Xiaolou refused to accept the suppression. He set up a street stall to sell vegetables and melons, but at the end of the day, the money he earned was not enough for a cup of tea.
If you have been hungry for a long time, your backbone will also loosen; if you can't make money, the overlord has to bow his head to life. In order to return to the stage,
went to Yuan Siye's place to plead guilty, begging others to raise his hand;
was later tied up and paraded through the streets, and he did not resist all the teasing and persecution.
He slapped his forehead with a brick and made everyone laugh with his head covered in blood;
he shook out the "ugly affair" between Dieyi and Yuan Siye, which made everyone happy;
He admitted that his wife was a prostitute and vowed to clear it up limit.
did this, not because he had a vicious heart and no nostalgia, but after half his life he finally understood:
's arms can't twist his thighs, so when people bow their heads, they have to bow their heads, and when they need to beg for mercy, they must beg for mercy.
We look down on Duan Xiaolou, but it is hard to criticize him, because what he has experienced is the growth and transformation that most people cannot get around.
Overlord also asks for mercy, I am afraid it is the most common drama for people who are middle-aged.
I remember the screenwriter Shi Hang, in his speech, Zeng choked up and said:
I once thought the future was different, now I stay in my future, I know that nothing has changed, my current dream is still the same As a kid, the only difference is that I have no plans to implement it.
This is a disillusionment, a despair, but a solid disillusionment.
dare not have ideals, no longer have ambitions, become philistine and vulgar, selfish and timid.
Such helplessness and sadness, I don't know how many adults are caught off guard.
is obviously disgusted, but he has to put on a flattering face; obviously he values love and righteousness, but he chooses to benefit himself after weighing the pros and cons.
You finally admit that pride and ambition are not enough, and don't take it too seriously.
This is the price of perseverance, but it is also the price of maturity.
Rather than rushing and smashing his head, it's better to take a step back and bow your head appropriately.
This is a wise choice and the wisdom of survival.
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9zIn Farewell My Concubine, there is a particularly classic scene.
Before Xiaolou got married, Dieyi questioned him: "Brother, you forgot how we became popular, we have to start from the beginning!" It's really impossible to become a devil! Singing is crazy, but if we are alive, we are crazy, how can we live in this crowd of mortals?
To live is not to sing, you do not have the halo of the protagonist, and you are not "immortal", you can only be humble and submissive in the face of all kinds of hardships.
Who was not the arrogant Cheng Dieyi when he was young, desperate to move forward regardless of life and death;
But after middle age, in order to shoulder the burden of life, we must bow to fate and become a mediocre and tenacious Duan Xiaolou.
used to have higher ambitions and stronger love than gold, and finally turned into a dream bubble in the smoky fire of life, and the mighty overlord must learn to beg for mercy.
This may seem like a contemptible compromise, but in the final analysis, it's a wake-up call that comes from scratching the skin and cramping.
I like the song "Mountain Creek" by Gu Cheng:
"The green mountain stream is thrown into the river, and the green spring silk is floating in the turbid current. Should we sigh that it has lost its pure nature? Or should we congratulate it, Escaped wandering and withering?"
Pure mountain streams can only gain infinite vitality when they merge into turbid rivers.
The loss of purity is not a tragic new life.
When we grow up, we no longer have the freedom to leave as soon as we say it, and we are no longer as clear as a stream.
The days are full of mud and sand, and if you want to flow east to the sea, you have to get rid of seven dissatisfactions, eight resentments, and flow with the trend.
But the rushing river, it is precisely because of the twists and turns of the road, it has its mighty and unparalleled splendor.
Like it , may you bypass the rapids and ravines like water, and even be gentle, in any kind of life, gallop forward.
Author: Insight Jin Shanyue
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