Movie "Mom! "Character Interpretation｜Feng Jizhen, hello

Feng Jizhen, hello!

saw each other for a few days, and finally had the feeling that I wanted to chat with you, so I started chatting, but I didn't know where it would stop. When it comes to writing, I'm always a person who goes with my feelings, so I'm not a qualified professional writer.

no matter what, say it first!

The first time I met you was probably around this time last year, my hair was short, not fluffy, and more than blunt. I don't like it a bit, probably because it looks uncomfortable.

Later, with the deepening of the search, I kept approaching you and knew a little of your things and experiences, but I should still not know you.

Until I walked into the theater and saw a lot of things that happened to you, I seemed very moved, but I didn't seem to have any feelings at all.

Rather than saying you are a Kochi mother and daughter, I would rather say you are an ordinary mother and daughter, because you love each other like most mothers and daughters. It is only because of the accumulation of culture that your life will be so full and meaningful, and your life will be so elegant and quiet!

culture can improve not only cognition, but also aesthetics!

don't want to say that he has swiped twice or 3 times, because the number of times doesn't decide anything, only with heart. Of course, because of the second brush, I really understood a lot of details.

Compared to the first time I shed tears unprepared, the second time I was more like taking the task of dismantling you, sitting in an empty theater, watching the childish you, I couldn't bear to let go of anything. a detail. I don't have too deep emotions, it's all about what this shot wants to explain and express!

always, let's talk about it!

I know that instead of looking at you and your life with a mission, it is better to put you in the crowd and look at you. It's like a chance encounter. If I don't feel it, we will leave it. If I have a lot of thoughts, I will pour out some immature thoughts in my heart.

1. Take a look at the major events in your life

In 2014, you were 65 years old, which means that you were born in 1949, the same age as the Republic; the zodiac ox; specializing in science, university teacher; both parents are literate, and mother is liberal arts student, university teacher, and his father is a famous archaeologist. Family happiness index, five stars!

Since I have time for reference, I will sort out and figure out your life according to the timeline.

1949 , you were born. Your parents gave you an atmospheric and hopeful name-Feng Jizhen, Ji is compassion, really seeking truth. Look, the name is what your parents expect from you all your life!

In 1954, , you were five years old. Your parents came back from a business trip in Shanghai and brought you a pair of red dancing shoes. You wore them and danced on your father's feet. Your mother knitted a sweater and watched you. Warm.

1966-1976, it was a turbulent decade, culture and cultural people were greatly damaged and destroyed, your father was no exception. If he died in the early days of the Cultural Revolution, that is, in 1966, when you were 17 years old, you must have understood it if you were sensible, but you may not understand the current situation and current affairs. But are you not a victim of that era?

It's just, from what you're telling me, that I misunderstood that your "inexperience" happened as a child. here, I have questions, but I don't ask.

Since then, you have been saddled with unspeakable guilt, secretly torturing yourself to this day.

In 1973, art schools resumed enrollment plans, playing your Xi Meijuan entered Shanghai Theater Academy to study acting, she was 18 years old that year. In 1977, was the first time in the country to resume the college entrance examination. That year, when you were 28 years old, you should have taken the college entrance examination and passed the entrance examination.

around 1981, you should graduate from college and then enter a university to become a people's teacher. Because of the hurt in your heart, at thirty you did not choose to start a family! You've been punishing yourself for the mistakes you've made by making yourself unhappy!

Around 1985 , your mother retired and started a free and long retirement.

Over the years, you and your mother have been doing charity work all year round, subsidizing students, cleaning up trash, and helping if you can.

around 2004, you retired, started your full-scale volunteer career, and used your spare time to organize your father's archaeological memoirs. Your words are few, you look serious and old-fashioned, but your heart is warm, and you will not let go of every life you see in need. It doesn't matter if you take the blame for it. "Teaching and educating people", you are not only practicing on the three-foot podium, but also reflected in every bit of life.

people say that you are doing this to achieve self-redemption. Redemption has an end, but goodness does not. I believe that you are a kind and enthusiastic person, because your parents are such people, the sponsored students have come to visit your mother many times, visit you...and your name, that's why they are so talented would expect the same from their children.

The gentle, respectful, thrifty qualities of a generation of Chinese cultural people are all found in you.

In 2014 , you and your "old urchin" mother get along in a little idyllic yard. You go out every morning and come back late to do volunteer work. You don't care about your mother. A kind of farce to attract your attention, so that you can spend time with her.

Your life rules are boring, but the occasional discussion of literature makes life look extraordinarily stylish.

is also in this year, due to the worries that you can't let go of all the year round, you start to have forgetfulness, auditory hallucinations, hallucinations one after another...and then you are diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease. You seem to accept this fact at once and blurt out so calmly, but in fact, you are not ready. You must have mixed tastes in your heart, right? !

You don't want to be a burden to your mother, quietly do everything for her, send her to a nursing home, and prepare to face it alone. You see, loving mother also in a very egoistic way.

For the next three years, you who once cared for your mother became a child with a bad temper who was cared for by your mother. She takes care of you and loves you so hard, but she can't stop you from forgetting her steps, and even using violence against her. How painful would you be if you knew that you hurt the mother you were sorry for? Mom still takes care of you, loves you, and does everything possible. This is the mother, and it is also the blood relationship that keeps giving up and creating miracles.

In 2017, , you have forgotten everything, and your mother is nearly ninety years old, and all kinds of physical exhaustion. So, you go to a nursing home, where you may stay until the last part of your life, or you may be picked up by Zhou Xia, and life will be fresh.

Although you won't remember anyone, they will be with you and love you!

The 13-year-old child told me that she had been waiting for the reappearance of the bad girl Zhou Xia you saved while watching a movie, but she never showed up, she was very disappointed.

She thinks that Zhou Xia is your hope, and when she shows up, she will rest assured of you both.

Maybe she still doesn't know what aging is and what disease is, but she must have felt that you are people who need to be helped and cared for.

2. Forget the sickness of the whole world

In fact, no matter how you look at you, you are still special, especially in that you are a member of the "people trapped in time".

and the difficulty is this, it is difficult for me to truly understand you, a person, and start to forget everything in this world: people and things, flowers and grass, mountains and streams...

How does she feel? panic? sad? Crazy?

It's hard to empathize, even if I go to learn more about this disease, it's hard to understand. But through your performance, from a stereotyped person to a highly complex person with eccentric behavior and emotional instability; from a person who can organize academic archaeological reports to a child-like person with a book upside down; From a person who is a bit clean and regular to a sloppy and casual person... I can clearly see the true appearance of this disease on you!

I have also deeply felt the change in my attitude towards "Alzheimer's disease", and I no longer casually commented that some of my dad's states are the precursors of Alzheimer's disease , which is a terrible "curse" in my opinion, I used to say it casually, even though there were people around who said he was. After this, I will no longer arbitrarily qualify. I don't want him to be, I don't hope that one day, he will forget this world, forget us, and I don't want him to be trapped in his time and space and can't get out... Memory, is a treasure, it belongs to the individual wealth.

I think, I don't want my dad to go through your experience, that's my understanding of Alzheimer's.

Alright, that's it. May you be well! ❤

Goodbye, Feng Jizhen. I remember you, a character who made my idol reboot himself.

September 25, 2022 early

September 26, 2022 Repair