Ayu perceives and “touches” the outside world through her mobile phone. Photographed by reporter Wei Wei
“One day I suddenly discovered that my birthday, December 3, is the day of World Disabled Persons’ Day. Is this a kind of fate? Probably not. !" Ayu (pseudonym) smiled, then turned her head away.
After graduating from undergraduate, he became a primary school teacher in Lixia District as he wished, and then entered the marriage hall... Before the age of 23, Ayu's life track was the same as that of other carefree girls, happy and sweet. The turning point occurred in 2004. One day when she was 4 months pregnant, her beloved father died of cancer; 6 months later, at the moment when the child was born, she suffered from pregnancy-induced hypertension suddenly blurred and lost her eyesight. A disabled person; when the child was 6 months old, the husband disappeared and left the mother and the child... Now, as a single mother, she has been a blind masseur for 8 years, working 10 hours a day, using a pair of cocoon but strong With his hands, he supported a home for his mother and son.
sent WeChat and trained in other places. The world of the blind is much stronger than imagined.
I saw Ayu in an ancient Chinese medicine massage shop near Luoyuan Street. On November 20th, she just finished a 10-day training in Beijing and returned to Jinan to work in this store. This study was originally only 3 days, but she learned more and more deeply. She studied for another 7 days at her own expense. She was very learned: "The previous massage was squeezing and pressing. The patient was very painful. Our body was also very strenuous. I have been working for 8 years. , Long-term exertion, the shoulders and waist are hurt, and the body strains a lot, which is very bad. This time I learned the ancient rotating massage, which activates the body's self-healing force through the vortex force. The patient feels less painful. The physical damage is also small.” In the impression of
, blind people are rarely seen on the street, and they need courage to go out: blind paths are often occupied, and guide dogs are almost invisible. And Ayu's ability to go out bravely, and often goes out of town, really surprised reporters. "I have to go out to study twice a year, Beijing, Tianjin, Weifang, Qingdao, and also to Shanghai and Suzhou. As long as I can get on the train, I can figure out how many rows of seats are in my mind. Usually, I like to buy and sell. Window and toilet seats." She said.
How about buying train tickets? "Of course I bought them with 12306!" She smiled and shook her phone, and began to demonstrate: she saw her fingers swiping across the screen, and the phone made accelerating voices, buying tickets and groups Chat, send to Moments via voice conversion, use Didi to take a taxi for travel, eat Meituan takeaway, "read" to use lazy people to listen to books, Himalayas... just install a small program on the phone, her life is different from normal people There is another difference.
is just that the phone screen is black and the pupil, the window of the soul, is closed.
has suffered a series of life blows. She was desperate to the end.
Ayu's family was in Lixia District. In 1998, she was admitted to the foreign language department of a college in Jinan. Just like ordinary girls, everything went so smoothly. After graduation, she applied to a primary school in Lixia District and entered the marriage hall. But on the third day after marriage, her father was suddenly diagnosed with terminal cancer. When she was 4 months pregnant, her father passed away, like a bolt from the blue sky, which brought a huge blow to the whole family.
During pregnancy, Ayu detected pregnancy-induced hypertension, and the high pressure reached 150. Everyone never expected that tragedy would happen the moment the baby was born. During the delivery, her eye pressure rose sharply, and her eyes suddenly became dark and she was blinded. After
, she learned that she had a disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and her vision went from blurry light perception to eventually blindness.
changed from a girl of heaven to a worthless person. Ayu was immersed in great grief and suddenly lost confidence in life. "Do you know the feeling of flustered?" Ayu asked the reporter. During the days of
, Ayu did not remember how he came here. All her energy was put on the child, but another blow struck: her husband suddenly left when the child was six months old.
"I used to stand on the top of the 28th floor several times and wanted to jump off. It was over a hundred. But when I got to the edge of the building, I was really scared..."
A year later, Ayu went to the court to file a divorce and became a single man. Disabled mother. In her daily life, she lies in a daze on the sofa, staying for an afternoon, waiting for the child to come back from school, cooking for him, tutoring homework, and accompany him to grow up. She said that at the time, she was most envious of the garbage pickers. "At least they can pick them up, but I can't even pick them up."
By 2009, Ayu's eyesight had already gone.When only light perception remained, she found that she was completely useless, and she didn't even want to care about the child. She cried and cried, the more she cried, the more sore her eyes and the more grumpy her temper. She had always resisted the blind massage before, but finally, she bravely dialed the consultation number of the Lixia District Disabled Persons' Federation.
works 240 hours a month, and the highest monthly salary is nearly 10,000 yuan.
"Accept, change, leave, get calm, lose calm, let the flow go." This is a circle of friends recently posted by Ayu.
accepted the reality, and Ayu began to change. After studying in the massage training class, she started to massage in a small shop near her home. At that time, a client could only provide 5 yuan for massage. In the first month, she only made a few hundred yuan, but she was delighted when the salary was paid. Ruo Kuang: She finds that she has made money and she has value.
In 2012, she went to work in a well-known massage parlor for the blind, and has become a senior masseur through her studies. I go to work at 10 am and leave at 11 pm every day. I work 240 hours at the maximum in a month. When my monthly salary is the highest, I can get nearly 10,000 yuan.
Slowly, she was recognized by everyone, and she had many old customers after working for more than 4 years, but last month, she suddenly chose to leave. "I like learning. I always want to keep accepting new things. Everything comes from my belief and willingness. The previous method doesn't suit me anymore, so I want to change and leave. I don't know what the future will be. I Believe that my choice can realize my value even more.”
This is the beginning of the article to go to Beijing to study.
"No one applauds but also flies, no one appreciates but also fragrant." When interviewed by
, Ayu's voice has always been dull. She has experienced all kinds of misfortunes, but she seems very peaceful.
She said that she was lucky. "I discussed and communicated with friends who had the same illness, and found that there were too many similar situations. Some of them went blind when they were five or six years old, and some were seventeen or eighteen, but I didn’t get sick until I was 23 years old. I went to school and had a child. God still took care of me.” She smiled.
Although the doctor said that Ayu will eventually lose the sense of light and become completely blind, but she “doesn’t believe” and no matter how tired she is every day, she will push the meridians and massage herself: “I will never allow this. When things happen, I have to be positive and optimistic, I have to be more cheerful and happy, I will not let this happen early. I want to heal myself through what I have learned. I learn Tui Na just to find the answer, why the whole family People are fine, and this kind of illness has come to me."
Life continues. The aging mother and the growing up son are the biggest pillars of her life. Speaking of them, Ayu used a word-"protection." She said that she wants to make herself stronger and use her hands to protect her mother and her children.
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