The reason for Leslie Cheung's suicide was finally found, just these three points!

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years have ebb and flow, but the world has never forgotten Leslie Cheung .

suddenly looking back on 17 years, his songs are still there, his movies are still there, and his people are still there. There are countless praises of Leslie Cheung from the world, and there is one sentence that makes me particularly deep: "Compared with his talent, his appearance is not worth mentioning, and compared with his personality, his talent is not worth mentioning."

Some people say that 2003 was the darkest year in Hong Kong's entertainment industry. Just like the elegiac couplet on the wreath that Mr. Tang gave to his brother: " is quiet at night, who resonates with ..."

On April Fool's Day, my brother made us the biggest joke. He jumped down from the twenty-fourth floor of the Mandarin Hotel, leaving the world with endless thoughts and guesses.

is 47 years old, a year of prosperity, why did you choose to live?

Some people say that he is trapped by love; some people say that he is invincible from the heights; others say that he has seen through the world and needs no nostalgia.

Lonely Childhood

In September 1956, Leslie Cheung was born in Hong Kong. There are 9 elder brothers and sisters in the family, so his name is "Shi Zai".

's father, Zhang Huohai, runs a tailor shop. Hollywood stars such as Marlon Brando and Gary Grant have made clothes in his house. In order to take care of the business, the parents are away from home all year round and rented in a building next to the tailor shop.

Therefore, Leslie Cheung said: " I didn't live with my parents in my childhood."

When he was 6 years old, an uncle asked him: "Did your father bring you delicious food?"

Leslie Cheung looked confused: " I am not familiar with my father. "

He didn't lie, because from himself From birth to the death of his father, the time between father and son was less than a week, only 5 days.

And, in these 5 days, there is one and a half days because my father was drunk and slept at home. That is also the longest period of time Leslie Cheung and his father have been together-36 hours. However, nothing was said!

It can be seen that the relationship between the father and son is really indifferent. What about his relationship with his mother?

Leslie Cheung once revealed: "My relationship with my mother is even stranger than ordinary friends." Between mother and child

, uses the word "unusual" to show how bad their relationship is.

Actually, Leslie Cheung spent only half a year with his mother. Brother

grew up in such a "family desert"! When we were young, we were most afraid of being beaten by our parents, but he felt that "being beaten by our parents is a very happy thing." Because he didn't even have a chance to be beaten.

Later, Leslie Cheung became famous and wanted to improve the relationship between mother and child. So, I bought a mansion, took my mother to live together, and often bought some valuable gifts for her mother.

However, the better Leslie Cheung treats her mother, the more her mother backs away!

Also, the youngest starling is 8 years older than Leslie Cheung, so he can't play with his brothers and sisters. " was very lonely when I was a child, I am a noisy, no-voice kid ." Leslie Cheung said.

When he was 13 years old, his brother was sent to the UK to study by his family. He spent 6 years alone on the other side of the ocean where he was born unfamiliar.

looked back on his childhood, " has nothing to memorize, and there is nothing worth me to miss ." Leslie Cheung concluded with these words.

Perhaps the seeds of loneliness, loneliness, and sadness were planted in Leslie Cheung's young heart. This made his character become stubborn and melancholy, so that he later embarked on the road of suicide.

The lonely young man

Leslie Cheung is undoubtedly the top star in the entertainment industry, film, video and song development, but his interpretation of the road is not smooth. It can even be said that it has grown up one step at a time by stepping on the bumpy road of thorns.

zIn 0z's early years, he was not recognized, and even made a romantic movie, this film is a stain in Leslie Cheung's heart that will never be erased. It wasn't until 1982 that took over the filming of "Young Fiery Fire", and it was really on the right track.

all say, "Life is like a play".

Leslie Cheung is a play idiot, it is easy to enter the role, and the play is very deep, can not get out for a long time. Just like the line in "Farewell My Concubine" directed by Chen Kaige: "Die Yi, you are really not crazy and not alive"

In order to play the role of Hua Dan Cheng Dieyi, Leslie Cheung retired for six months and went to Beijing. Concentrated on learning opera with a Peking opera master, without an assistant. The fever reached 39 degrees, and he continued to press his legs.

A few years later, the teacher came to Hong Kong to travel and said he wanted to visit his brother. He was happily like a child. said, "You just come, don't care about the others."

Later, the superstar accompanied the Peking opera teacher throughout the tour. To Hong Kong.

So, the actor is ruthless, this term may be suitable for other people, but it is definitely not used by brother.

Chen Kaige said: "Leslie Cheung’s addiction and involvement in filming is surprising. His tears, his smiles and frowns, he really became Cheng Dieyi. The Peking opera performer I prepared for it was a stand-in until it was finished. Use it."

All the actors, including the leading actors Zhang Fengyi and Gong Li, praised Leslie Cheung’s acting skills. They said: "You must have been a gorgeous in your previous life."

Leslie Cheung is such a stubborn person, he will repeat I carefully consider every role I play, just to give the audience the ultimate viewing experience.

"Farewell My Concubine" won the Palme d'Or, the highest award at the Cannes Film Festival in France, and became the first Chinese film to receive this honor. At the same time, he was selected as one of the "100 Best Movies in Global History" by Time Magazine.

Unfortunately, Leslie Cheung passed the Cannes actor by only one vote.

In "Rouge Knob", the twelve young masters and the poignant love are moving in heaven. They committed suicide in order to meet together and devour opium.

This film put Anita Mui as the heroine for the first time on the throne of the Golden Horse Awards and the Golden Horse Awards, but Leslie Cheung is still nothing.

In "Better Out", Leslie Cheung and Tony Leung's love and hatred for homosexuals are intertwined, and they are regarded as the most classic movies of the same type. Even if it is, Ang Lee's "Brokeback Mountain" is not comparable to it.

has a film critic said: "Leung Tony's eyes are like electricity, and Leslie Cheung's gesture with a finger is also decadent and beautiful, not to mention the sadness in his eyes!"

This movie is the brother's most hopeful golden horse award Yes, he attended the awards ceremony in costume.

did not expect to get zero votes. The reason is even more absurd, because "He is the true character! "

As we all know, my brother and Mr. Tang have a beautiful love.

Leslie Cheung made 58 films in his life, and was nominated for 13 Golden Horse Awards and Golden Horse Awards, all of which came back unfailingly until the "A Fei True Story". In the movie

, the classic dialogue with Maggie Cheung: "There is a bird in the world that has no legs. It can only fly and fly. When it is tired, it sleeps in the wind . This bird can only get off the ground once in a lifetime. , That time was when he died..."

Leslie Cheung is this kind of bird, his temperament that is out of the mud and not stained, only heaven is the most suitable for him. After falling into the world, it burned like a meteor.

His last movie "Alien Space" is more like a true character.

"You want me to jump down? You want me to die!"

He did it, whether it's in or out of the scene!

24 floors, exactly the same as in the play!

At that moment, did he have a moment of hesitation and a trace of nostalgia?In the year of

, after Leslie Cheung's death, the judges originally wanted to award him the winner of the Golden Awards directly. However, it did not do so in the end.

First, Leslie Cheung was magnanimous throughout his life, and if there was a spirit in the sky, he would definitely refuse to win the actor crown like this; second, Andy Lau and Tony Leung in Infernal Affairs that year were too dazzling.

In the end, the Golden Image Award winner was awarded to Tony Leung. I believe that my brother in the Spirit of Heaven will be pleased!

In fact, compared to his rough interpretation career, singing career seems more rugged.

In 1977, Hong Kong's Lai TV station hosted the "Amateur Singer Competition". With the encouragement of friends, Leslie Cheung decided to give it a try.

, who was struggling at the time, did not want to ask for money from his family. Fortunately, the family servant Six Sister gave Leslie Cheung 20 yuan from her living expenses, which allowed him to start a journey of dreaming.

Dripping grace, Yongquan reported, for this 20 yuan, Leslie Cheung was grateful to the sixth sister for a lifetime. In the

competition, Leslie Cheung made a stunning appearance with a 7-minute English song "American Pie", which left a deep impression on the judges.

At that time, each player only had 3 minutes. The judges asked him to make it shorter, but Leslie Cheung did not compromise. Moreover, he said something incomprehensibly-"It's really unreasonable."

In the end, the 21-year-old Leslie Cheung won the runner-up of that competition and Zhong Weiqiang won the championship.

However, his first album was uninterested and sales were bleak. Vendors had to deal with the discs at a low price, and let people buy them home as potholders for a dollar. During , Leslie Cheung was so poor that he could not even pay the rent. In order to make a living, he had to go to the bar to sing.

At that time, the music scene has always been Alan Tan and dominating the family, with no one else. Until 1983, my brother became famous with the song "The Wind Continues To Blow". The following year, "Monica" was the first dance music in the Hong Kong music scene to win the top ten Chinese golden tunes and top ten golden songs. Since then, the prelude of Tan Zhang Zheng hegemony kicked off.

Tan and Zhang basically monopolized the music awards in the Hong Kong music scene in the mid to late 1980s, whenever the two appear at the same time, applause and boos must be flying together. The fans of

were even more indifferent, and finally forced Alan Tam to announce that he would no longer accept any awards. In the second year, Leslie Cheung also announced his withdrawal from the music scene.

bleak feelings

Hong Kong people have a saying, "Leslie Cheung will have to be here for ten years." Before joining the entertainment industry,

supported himself by doing odd jobs and even set up a street stall... as long as he can make money, he does everything. Never complain.

At this time, Leslie Cheung met the love of his life- Tang Hede .

This man came out for his brother. He ate the cheapest lunch for several months and took out all his savings to help his brother tide over the difficulties.

Leslie Cheung once said: "The number of people who are icing on the cake at is countless, but how many can give charcoal in the snow? At that time, I had no fame and no wealth, but he was the only one who could treat me like this. How could such a person not touch me? And cherish it?"

On January 4, 1997, the last Red Hall concert after the comeback was filled with 80,000 people. On the

stage, Leslie Cheung said with cherished eyes: "Mom, I want to give you a song tonight, and at the same time, I want to give this song to another friend who has a very important position in my life... .. "It's self-evident who this friend is. After singing the song "The Moon Represents My Heart"

, Tang Hede in the audience has already burst into tears.

After that, they left hand in hand shopping, eating... Their love hardly has anyone fingered, all of them are full of blessings.

In his brother's life, there is another confidante that has to be mentioned, that is, Anita Mui.

She once said to Leslie Cheung: "If I don’t get married by the age of 40, will you marry me?"

Leslie Cheung nodded and said"Okay, okay."

In 2002, Cecilia Cheung was admitted to the hospital after falling from a horse. Her brother was the first to rush to the hospital to visit, and gave Cecilia Cheung the amulet that had never left. At that time, many friends advised him not to take it down, otherwise it would bring bad luck. Unexpectedly, the phrase became a truth.

At that time, my brother said: “Cigarette, you must take good care of him, because he has been with me, today I will give him to you, I hope you will be safe for your life.”

since then, Cecilia Cheung has been wearing the amulet. Every time talked about her brother, she burst into tears, thinking that she killed her brother.

In 2003, that afternoon, he and his lover Tang Hede talked on the phone, and they met to play ball at night. Before the tragedy, he had an appointment with an agent who had known each other for more than 20 years, , Chen Shufen, and for coffee.

Leslie Cheung was deeply tortured by depression at the time. When he was seriously ill, he suffered from insomnia all night, his hands trembling constantly, and he couldn't even hold the water glass. When he is upset and does not take medicine, Tang Hede often takes a sip first, and then coaxes him like a child.

Chen Shufen arrived for the appointment on time, but he did not see Leslie Cheung for a long time, so he called and asked when he would be there. Leslie Cheung said, "You will wait for me at the hotel entrance in 5 minutes, at the front entrance, and then I will come."

Chen Shufen noticed something was wrong and hurriedly got up and went outside the hotel. Unexpectedly, what was waiting was the figure of Leslie Cheung flying down like a butterfly. At that moment, it was like a bolt from the blue.

On the seventh day of Leslie Cheung’s death, his family set up a mourning hall for family, friends and fans to mourn. The fans who came to see his brother for the last trip blocked the surrounding streets, and the wreath lined up hundreds of meters away.

thousands of fans and movie fans, holding flowers, standing and waiting in the wind and rain, many people weep bitterly, and miserable feelings of parting are enveloped everywhere. Many of them came from overseas on a special trip. In the evening, everyone lit candles and sang brother classic songs in unison.

, the love of his brother's life, Mr. Tang is extremely sad, and he needs two people to help him to walk. The elegiac couplet he gave to his brother wrote: "Forever, this love will never end." It has been 17 years since Mr. Tang still guards Leslie Cheung's ashes. On the day of

's funeral, Anita Mui, Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, Tony Leung... Almost all the stars in the Hong Kong entertainment circle went to send his brother for the last time, and included this birdman.

is more short-lived, the more you cannot forget . Brother

, you have successfully avoided the exhaustion of the years, and you will always stand in the heavy mist with a delicate face like a teenager, sometimes innocent, sometimes charming, sometimes bright, sometimes looking at us with a ghostly smile.

You are the most different firework!

But you, like the theme song Li Zongsheng sang in "Farewell My Concubine":

You never really left, you are always in my heart!