Leslie Cheung: I am me, fireworks with different colors

"I am my

is a firework with a different color

the sky is wide and the sky is wide

to make the strongest foam

I like me

let the rose give a result

naked in the desert of

On July 31, 2000, Leslie Cheung's world tour concert officially kicked off. This was the peak moment in Leslie Cheung's life and the most enthusiastic night in Hong Kong. However, it was from this day that "murderous intent" was hidden behind the glory. Soon everything will fall to the ground.

On April 1, 2003, it was drizzling in Hong Kong on April Fools’ Day. Every year on April Fool’s Day, people would have a lot of spoof jokes, but this year there was a piece of news that shocked everyone; popular singer Leslie Cheung was in a hotel building in Hong Kong Top jumped off the building and died. The whole Hong Kong was suddenly shrouded in grief.

"I have never done anything bad in my life, why is this?" Leslie Cheung wrote in his suicide note. Leslie Cheung's death left countless mysteries and regrets for future generations.

In the 17 years since "Brother" left, the world has changed, but the only thing that remains unchanged is our love and concern for him.

A lonely "feelless bird", a lifetime of love is never available

"I finally came to my biological mother's house, but she refused to see me, and the servant said she would no longer live here. When I left here When I was in the house, I knew that I had a pair of eyes staring at me behind me, but I would never look back. I just wanted to see her and see her look. Since she didn’t give me a chance, I would definitely not give her a chance. "

This is a line from the movie "The Story of A Fei" starring Leslie Cheung. Many people say that the "Xu Tsai" in the play is a portrayal of him. The film's XU Tsai spent his entire life looking for his biological mother, but in the end he found nothing. In real life, Leslie Cheung rarely feels maternal love. .

On September 12, 1956, Leslie Cheung was born in a wealthy family. His father Zhang Huohai was a famous tailor and was called the king of tailors. Even big stars like Marlon Brando and Gary Grant have asked him to make clothes. Leslie Cheung is the youngest child in the family. He is called the "Ten Boys". The youngest son of a wealthy family was originally a favorite of thousands of people.

But he was thrown to his grandmother since he was a child, and he spent only a handful of time with his parents. His father Zhang Huohai is a famous playboy, not only married a wife of two rooms, but also has a lot of love affairs.

All this made Leslie Cheung's mother immersed in pain all day long, even if the affectionate ten boys kept acting like a baby beside her, she couldn't attract her attention. The misfortune of her marriage made her ignore the youngest son who had been begging for her love. The old saying about mother-child love has never been fulfilled in Leslie Cheung.

Leslie Cheung’s sister once said that her younger brother is a person who desperately desires to be pampered, but this desire has not been met in his lifetime. The lack of maternal love in childhood became a lingering shadow of his life. After

became famous, Leslie Cheung bought a seaside mansion and took his mother to live with him. He wanted to take advantage of the opportunity of living together to make up for his lack of maternal love in his childhood. However, both of them lived uncomfortably and rarely even talked. . As a result, he began to frantically buy gifts for his mother, and took his mother to a high-end restaurant to eat, but his mother was shrinking more and more, becoming more and more outsider, and in Leslie Cheung's words, even ignoring ordinary friends. To Leslie Cheung, this is really a sad irony.

Just like A Fei in the movie, the lack of childhood maternal love became a lingering shadow in his life. He exhausted all his life to find it. However, when he could finally feel a little bit of maternal love, his mother never Left him.

In the deepest darkness, he lived as a light

Because he lacked the care of his parents since he was a child, his home is a kind of temperaturelesslocal. So when he was 13 when he learned that his father was going to send him to study abroad, he didn't have a trace of nostalgia and care, and he wanted to fly to the UK right away.

spent a carefree teenage time there until an accident interrupted his studies in the UK-his father Zhang Huohai suffered a stroke due to excessive drinking, and once issued a critical illness notice, Leslie Cheung had to return To Hong Kong. Later, although his father turned from danger to peace, their family had to face the dilemma of the family. In order to make a living, he worked many day jobs, sold shoes, sold jeans, etc. Although this period of struggle at the bottom of the society later became life's wealth, in Leslie Cheung's view, the future was a bleak. It wasn't until many years of silence that he emerged with a song "Monica" and ushered in the spring of his career.

is exactly this bleak and bleak day, which makes him more aware of the hardships of fighting at the bottom, and also more able to appreciate the hardships of working hard in the entertainment circle. Therefore, he always takes special care of newcomers and juniors, and he is like a heart-warming "brother." He has helped and supported countless people, almost half of the entertainment industry. So far, every time the name of "brother" is mentioned, they are always moved to choke and weep.

There is a popular saying in Hong Kong to describe Leslie Cheung: Compared with his talent, his appearance is not worth mentioning. Compared with his character, his talent is not worth mentioning.

Hong Kong actor Zhang Weijian and had a life embarrassment before his debut, and suffered repeated blows, and his career was in a slump. Thanks to Leslie Cheung's help, he survived.

Zhang Weijian recalled with tears in an interview many years later that even he could not believe that a superstar who was in full swing patiently answered a call from an unknown junior for 40 minutes and provided many sincere suggestions. He was also introduced to famous musicians such as Li Xiaotian in the name of "cousin".

Leehom Wang was unaccompanied in Hong Kong when he first arrived and had no place to stay. Leslie Cheung asked Leehom Wang to call him his uncle, and Yin Yin told him: "After you come to Hong Kong, I will be your family. If you don't want to stay in a hotel, you will live in my house."

Whenever he recalled Leslie Cheung, Leehom Wang would be full of emotion: "I have watched "Farewell My Concubine" for 17 years...This is the most proud performance of Uncle Leslie in my life. Knowing him is the pride of my life."

poet Bai Juyi once described Gentleman Qianqian: "Treat people with things, treat your heart with your heart, and view your body with your body." People who have seen Leslie Cheung praise him as a gentleman, gentle and moist.

When he moved to a new house, he did not forget to decorate the maid’s room warmly and exquisitely, so that the maid would feel the warmth of being at home.

He said at the farewell concert; “One day, he will open a coffee shop, and he will definitely invite them to have coffee at that time.” I thought it was a joke, but he didn’t expect it to happen later. A few years later He invited more than 300,000 fans who had watched his farewell concert to drink free coffee.

has been in the industry for more than 20 years. He has been ridiculed for "singing is too unpleasant." During the "Tan Zhang" controversy, he was sent a coin. When he announced his relationship with Tang Sheng, he was attacked by countless people. After the concert, he was attacked by the media as "non-male or female".. However, in the face of all the malice in this world, in the face of this intriguing entertainment circle, he has always maintained a refined attitude , Repaying grievances with virtue, and using his own practical actions to influence generations of rising stars, has become a model across the century. Koo Tianle, who had received his help, still does not forget to continue the "brother"'s chivalrous courage and has become a clear stream in the entertainment industry.

Zang Kejia’s poem wrote: “Some people are alive, but he is dead; some people are dead but he is still alive.” Although

"brother" has passed away for many years, he has been living in people’s hearts, just like A lamp in the dark illuminates the souls of countless people.

Those who have "stuffs" are affectionate; those who have "flaws" see their true spirit

Zhang Dai wrote in his notebook "Tao An Dream Memories": "People have no hobbies and can't be with each other, because they are not affectionate; People are unblemished and can't be acquainted with them, because they have no true spirit. "

Leslie Cheung is such a true gentleman with the most affection and sex, a good actor who has become an idiot.

In 1989, Leslie Cheung's singing career won its peak. But in the face of the complex entertainment industry and the increasingly fierce "Tan Zhang" dispute, he finally chose to withdraw. At the farewell concert of

that year, he sang affectionately:

"Every time I go through spring, summer, spring and winter, I will always sing in the middle of the night, and I will always have no intention of sleeping. The wind continues to blow, and I can’t bear to stay away... ··"

Faced with the tears of his fans and the sighs of his friends, he just said calmly: "After staying for a long time, I found that I was sleek and didn't like it, so I decided to quit."

"It's out of the silt but not stained, and the mud is cleared but not demon." A true gentleman is always innocent, winning the name of his life. His personality is naturally incompatible with the intrigue and treacherous entertainment industry. He couldn't tolerate himself saying something against his heart and wearing a hypocritical face, so he chose to walk away, leaving people with too much aftertaste and recollection.

"You have a lot of looks, heavy makeup, light makeup, male makeup, no makeup, and dreamlike, like a dream, just like a flower. I like it all, and I like it all together."-"Rouge Button"

in real life, Leslie Cheung What is what, Jane has reached the realm of no madness.

For a while, he is Cheng Dieyi, who plays with me in "Farewell My Concubine", and for a while, he is the self-exiled Ouyang Feng in "Evil and Xidu", and for a while he becomes the entangled ten in "Rouge Button". The Second Young Master...

His friend Gao Zhisen once recalled:

"He saw me once, and he looked like a woman who resented him. I asked him if he was in a bad mood. He said, "I just After the performance of "Farewell My Concubine", I came over as soon as I got off the plane.&39;

Another time, after he finished " a happy event at home ", he had a playful gossip temper for many days. And I saw him dealing with people. He screamed and drank dumbly. It turned out to be because, "Recently, he was shooting a policeman movie and acting as the detective&39;...

In short, every time he finished a role, he would not be able to walk out for a long time."

filmed before his death. In the last movie "Alien Space", he is a psychiatrist. He saved others and walked out of Alien Space, but in reality he failed to save himself.

In the last two years of his life, after learning that he was suffering from severe depression, he also tried to save himself. For example, he consulted with the famous psychiatrist Mai Le Feifei, and he also kept meeting with many eminent monks, lamas, etc.

But he lived too seriously, and ultimately he failed to escape the fate of his fate. Cheng Dieyi, who played me irrespectively, still failed to fly over the sea.

The famous Hong Kong show host, Cha Xiaoxin, once said in a program "Uncovering the Mystery of Leslie Cheung’s Death": "He is a person who pursues perfection, and he must do his best in everything. (Hong Kong After the Passion World concert) He has trained himself many times, but still failed to adapt."

"I don't know what year is the palace of heaven, what year is this eve.

I want to take the wind to return, and I fear Qionglou Yuyu, the heights are too cold." .

dances to find out how the shadows are in the world?" The director of

Chen Kexin once said Leslie Cheung was perfect like a fairy. Finally, Leslie Cheung, the banished immortal who had left the world, returned by the wind and returned to his blissful world.

May there be no more gossip in that world, and my brother still looks innocent and bright.