Police sister-in-law Yang Jing: I will never forgive him for the rest of my life

This may be the most touching story you have ever seen about sacrificing the family members of heroes-

​​(This article is about 10,000 words, it takes about 20 minutes to read)

Preface: Promise or lie?

Eighteen years ago, Zhang Zhongxin, the people's policeman who was awarded the title of National Second-Class Hero, died of liver cirrhosis. While he was still in a coma, he was in a coma for three days and three nights, but his eyes were still open.

The attending doctor solemnly said to Zhang Zhongxin’s wife, Yang Jing, “Sister Yang, your husband is rarely seen in our hospital in this situation. I think he must have something important to let go.”

Yang Jing thought of her husband. Before she fell into a coma, she told her: "I'm leaving, please bring your daughter up and do nothing else."

Yang Jing knows that the so-called "do nothing" in her husband's words means nothing. Let her not remarry again.

"I was only 40 years old at that time. I didn't agree at once, just saying that I would try my best." At

, Yang Jing couldn't find anyone to confide in. She could only pour out all the pain in her tears to the doctor, she said : "If I promise him, what if I can't do it?"

Obviously, the choice before him is whether to keep the promise or lie to the dying person? Doctor

wanted to help Yang Jing clear the depression in her heart. He told Yang Jing: “It’s not a problem if your husband’s mouth and eyes are not closed. If you can’t do it, then go to his grave to confess later.”

Yang Jing finally obeyed. The doctor’s encouragement, because she also felt that it’s impossible to drag her like this all the time, so she went to the hospital bed and said to her husband: “Don’t worry, I will do nothing in this life, so I will bring up my daughter.”

said strangely, Yang Jing It was discovered that as soon as her voice fell, the index curve of heart rate and blood pressure on the intensive care unit quickly changed to a straight line. Zhang Zhongxin, who was in a deep coma and was reluctant to let go, immediately went peacefully.

Zhang Zhongxin, who has been working as a police officer all his life, finally got rid of the pain caused by his illness, but Yang Jing, who stayed in the world, made this promise, but didn't know how she would go in the future.

Yang Jing holding a portrait of Zhang Zhongxin

Eighteen years have passed.

On an ordinary day in the autumn of 2018, two volunteers from Zhenshui Wuxiang found Yang Jing in an ordinary company in the suburbs of Hangzhou.

Maybe no one has come close to her life for so many years, and no one has tried to walk into her heart. That afternoon, the past eighteen years ago was like a flood that burst a bank, and the surging surging could not stop it. But the bitterness and grievances of the eighteen years have stopped Yang Jing's tears and dried and wet.

Now speaking of Zhang Zhongxin, speaking of the past eighteen years ago, Yang Jing still gritted her teeth and said more and more angry. She said: "I will never forgive him for the rest of my life!"

1. A policeman carrying a gas tank

Zhang Zhongxin was a policeman at the Xixi Police Station in Hangzhou. He died of illness on June 15, 2001, when he was only 43 years old. He was awarded more than 20 honorary titles such as National Outstanding Community Service Provider and National Outstanding People's Police Officer before his death. After his death, he was posthumously awarded as a second-class hero by the Ministry of Public Security.

Zhang Zhongxin is an extremely ordinary community policeman, ordinary like air and sunlight.

Zhang Zhongxin when he was young

In those days, the duty of the community police was to walk from house to house to search for information, but Zhang Zhongxin did more. He also helped people get haircuts, carry gas tanks, and bathe elderly people who could not take care of themselves... …

One more time, Zhang Zhongxin, who was a community policeman, was shocked when he stepped into the house of Old Man Zhang for the first time, and a stench came on his face.

It was a special family. Both the old couple were in their seventies and could not afford to be ill. The 37-year-old daughter Xiaoqin was dumb, paralyzed, mentally retarded, and had severe epilepsy. Xiaoqin has never cut her hair since she was born, and her hair is messy and dirty.

That afternoon, Zhang Zhongxin, who was soft in heart, washed Xiaoqin's hair with tears in his eyes, and the bowls he brought out were muddy water.

Since then, Zhang Zhongxin has become a member of this family, washing, cooking, buying rice, buying vegetables, shampooing and haircutting all inclusive, until he suffered from liver ascitesWas admitted to the hospital. For 11 years, Lao Zhang's family has become accustomed to the life of Zhang Zhongxin.

Zhang Zhongxin, who cuts hair for community residents,

After 15 years of being a police officer, he has changed five communities. This is what Zhang Zhongxin has done the most. No matter how small things are, as long as they can, he will help solve them one by one.

There is a wooden box in Zhang Zhongxin's relic. The words "Serve the People" on the box have faded. It contains razors and scissors, which he brought back from the army. With these simple tools, Zhang Zhongxin has served more than 4,000 people in the community.

Zhang Zhongxin's small box for "serving the people"

A person is unrespected and loved, and it is most often seen when he leaves.

When a reporter went to his community for interviews, only ten residents were notified in advance, but when the reporter arrived, the gate of the community was already full of people. They all spontaneously told reporters about Zhang Zhongxin, because this one died young. The police treat them as parents, brothers and sisters.

After Zhang Zhongxin walked for a long time, the chalk words "Sorrowful mourning for Comrade Zhang Zhongxin" on the community blackboard were still painted new by the residents over and over again. To this policeman who was familiar with his family, the residents did not want this name to be the same. Farewell to yourself. Some of them knew that Xiao Zhang was no longer there, but still stubbornly dialed that familiar paging number.

A policeman will only help the residents of the community with chores instead of investigating the law and order and solving the case. Is this considered a serious business? At that time, there was also a fierce debate on this issue within the public security system.

But there is an indisputable fact that the area under Zhang Zhongxin is always one of the communities with the best public security and the lowest crime rate.

Comrade Zhang Zhongxin’s farewell meeting

After Zhang Zhongxin passed away, a young policeman posted a post on the public security intranet: "I didn’t say a word with Zhang Zhongxin, but only met in the place where he worked last. A smiling face.

attended the memorial service that day, an old grandmother rushed out holding the coffin and crying and said: "Xiao Zhang, I am over 70 years old, let me go for you!" I, the one who didn’t care about At this time, tears were already welling in my eyes, and everyone present was in tears.

I suddenly understood whether it was an excellent people’s policeman or not, it depends on how important his status among the people is. At that moment, Zhang Zhongxin made me feel What a glorious thing to be a people’s police!”

2. Miscalculated Xiaojiujiu

Residents of the community have received rave reviews from Zhang Zhongxin, but in his wife Yang Jing, what he did to Zhang Zhongxin is full of resentment.

How could Yang Jing have no opinion? Because he didn't do good deeds in general, but did so completely regardless of his family. But she found her husband herself, and she was also helpless.

Yang Jing grew up in a military compound, influenced by his family, and has a good impression of being a soldier.

Yang Jing when she was young

She and Zhang Zhongxin were introduced to each other, and Zhang Zhongxin’s first impression was that she was very honest and looked good.

Yang Jing's personality is quick talk, which is exactly the opposite of the "Jing" in her name. At that time, she also had her own little Jiujiu, and felt that Zhang Zhongxin was honest and could listen to her. In the end, he didn't expect that he listened to her, and after listening, he would do it himself.

Zhang Zhongxin became a community police officer after the army changed jobs. Since then, he has rarely got off work and went home on time. Even when Yang Jing gave birth to his son, he was not by his side, and rushed to the hospital after he was on duty in the clinic.

A child has been added to the family. There are more things. Ask him to come back and help. He always has something to do with someone in this residential area and who is waiting for him in that residential area. It seems that any resident is more important than his wife.

Yang Jing is most angry that Zhang Zhongxin helps people carry gas tanks, but at home, she carries gas tanks. He helps people buy rice and vegetables. She always buys rice and vegetables at home. What was even more unexpected was that when she asked Zhong Xin, he was still righteous, and she choked so that Yang Jing could not speak: "Those are lonely old people, can't you do it?I'm working, of course I have to help. If you can't do it, I will help you too. "

Yang Jing hates the pager the most. Days and nights are endless. The end of the pager is always a community resident who is more important than his wife. He called out and left immediately and asked him. He always That sentence: The residents have something to find me, what if I don’t go?

Later, when Zhang Zhongxin came back one day late, Yang Jing crossed the calendar. After three months, except for one day, all other dates were marked. It was full of red forks. After 15 years of marriage, the days when the husband came home from work on time for dinner, the total number of days did not exceed one year.

Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin

Later Yang Jing really couldn’t stand it and filed for divorce. On that day, she went to the street to file for divorce. As it was being done, Zhang Zhongxin's pager called again, saying that something had to go in the residential area. Yang Jing waited all morning, but her husband did not come back. As a result, it was this pager that prevented them from divorcing.

said It is also strange that the day after Zhang Zhongxin left, the pager that had followed him for more than 10 years suddenly broke down. Yang Jing installed a new battery and dialed her husband's call sign several times, but the pager remained silent as if she was asleep.

3. He is a policeman, but he failed to protect his son

Yang Jing didn’t know that her husband was actually very kind, because he felt that doing good things would be rewarded.

Once a family of three

But what Yang Jing got was not a good return. Her biological son Kun Kun was lost under the nose of the police husband.

It was before the wedding of Zhang Zhongxin’s youngest brother, Zhang Zhongxin temporarily asked for leave to bring his son and borrowed a car. The car called a friend and drove all night to Suzhou. The friend drove on the village road and plunged the car into the embankment because he was unfamiliar with the road. The friend and Zhang Zhongxin were fine, but his son Kunkun could not be rescued. When the son was in the second grade of elementary school.

Yang Jing's son suddenly left almost collapsed. She said: her son had always wanted to ride the small plane that was flying up and down in the children's park. Zhang Zhongxin didn't know how many times he promised the child, but Not once, the son told her with tears in his eyes that his father and deceived people several times.

At the son’s farewell ceremony, Zhang Zhongxin cried loudly, crying while beating himself. The son’s body was about to be pushed away, he I dragged the cart hard, and took my son’s little hand and shouted: “Kunkun, Dad will take you to the small plane, this time I really don’t lie to you, really.”

Speaking of the scene, Yang Jing said Her heart is about to break.

Every Qingming Festival, Zhang Zhongxin always goes to visit his son. When he sees that little tombstone, Zhang Zhongxin always sits on the ground and punches his chest, "Kunkun, you want Forgive dad. . . "

's son’s accident made Zhang Zhongxin more silent. In those years, he spent more time in residential areas.

A few years ago, he was injured in a car accident while a colleague was driving to work, and he lost in a small clinic. After bleeding, he developed hepatitis. He often suffered from liver pain and he did not go to the hospital in time. Until the last discovery, the ascites was already very serious.

When Zhang Zhongxin was hospitalized, he also told Yang Jing that he was cured and he could wear a new policeman. He went to work. Later, his condition continued to deteriorate, and Zhang Zhongxin stopped mentioning work, but always said to Yang Jing: "I will accompany you more in the future. As he died, he hugged his wife and cried: "I am sorry for you and my son in this life, and I will repay in the next life!" "

Zhang Zhongxin died of illness in the fifth year after her son left. Three years later

, Yang Jing's father left, and the person who loved her the most in the world also left. From then on, she was only left with herself, even a place to complain. It's all gone.

When she thinks of Zhang Zhongxin, she becomes even more angry. For his career, she left the mother and daughter in the world. It is harder for the living to be than the dead.

So Yang Jing would say: I will never forgive my life. He.

Fourth, I feel that I will not be able to pass this hurdle

"I am a one-of-a-kind person, so I dare not promise at the beginning. But do you think I have suffered for so many years for this promise? I'm alone in the palm of my hand, I'm lonelyI can’t sleep, and I have to face everything alone. Who can bear this kind of suffering? "

Yang Jing said several "one person" in a row. More than a year after the son of

left, that is, at the end of 1996, Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin had a daughter Xiaocao. The name Xiaocao, first, I hope she will be strong. The second is to look forward to the arrival of Xiaocao, which can bring the power of growth to the whole family. The birth of daughter Xiaocao

brings new hope to the whole family

The year Zhang Zhongxin left, her daughter Xiaocao was only 5 years old .

she broke down once after the death of her son, but fortunately, the arrival of her daughter Xiaocao made her temporarily forget her pain. Now that her husband left her hands and asked her to make a promise, she felt that she was going to be unable to pass this hurdle. After walking for a month, once Xiaocao had a high fever in the middle of the night, Yang Jing found something was wrong, Xiaocao’s forehead was hot and crying constantly, Yang Jing's heart was stabbed, and she decided to go to the Provincial Children's Hospital overnight.

Can hold Xiaocao When I came downstairs, I realized that in the middle of the night, I couldn’t get a taxi from the remote door of Chengxi’s home. In desperation, Yang Jing could only walk to the hospital with his daughter on his back. Because of the long distance, I only took one after walking for a long time. Xiaoban, Yang Jing felt very aggrieved, she cried unconsciously, and the daughter in her arms also cried.

In this way, the mother and daughter were walking under the dim street lamp until the sky began to darken, and then they went to the provincial child protection department. Hospital.

At that time, the mother and daughter had a frightening life. One night there was a thief at home. The thief crawled in through the kitchen window, and all the money in the bag was taken away. The only thing left was the one in front of the husband's portrait. Each unit that worked so hard to collect water costs money, because she was the unit leader at the time. At that time, Yang Jing was so scared that she was trembling, but she had nowhere to rely on.

The long-term fatigue caused her original frozen shoulder to severely attack, and the hospital beat her I came back from the closed needle, lying on the bed so painful that I couldn’t get up. My daughter was only five years old and couldn’t move her.

Then there was no way, Xiaocao climbed onto the bed and used her small body to get her mother to do her best. The arched back, exhausted the strength of breastfeeding, forced her mother to sit up. That year, Xiaocao began to scrub her mother’s back that could not be washed, and also began to comb her mother’s long hair.

The little grass who helps with housework

At that time, this long hair was the only thing Yang Jing thought of her husband. Zhang Zhongxin liked her to have long hair. When she first got married, she cut her hair once. Zhang Zhongxin was very unhappy, and then kept it for her husband. I haven't cut it. But in order to reduce the burden on Xiaocao, Yang Jing had to cut her long hair.

Xiaocao started cooking at the age of five. Yang Jing said: "Once I came home from work, Xiaocao Saying that my mother had finished cooking, my tears were hanging down. Xiaocao thought he was not burning well. I said this is the best meal in the world I have eaten. There are nanny in charge of the children in my family, and Xiaocao in our family is already standing alone on the small bench to wash the water. "

Life is busy and tiring.

Yang Jing said that when his father left, Xiaocao was in kindergarten. At that time, I put filial piety on Xiaocao and don't put it on the sleeve. Many children in kindergarten joke that Xiaocao has no father. She went home and cried for several days.

When Yang Jing went to pick up Xiaocao, she saw a child who said that she had no father, and she gave the child a slap without saying anything. She said she knew it was wrong. , But there is no way. Otherwise, Xiaocao's injured heart cannot be calmed, and it can't be suppressed on the aura. The child's parent called to apologize in the evening, and then Yang Jing also apologized on the phone.

Xiaocao twisted her ankle when she was in the fifth grade. The classroom was on the fourth floor. Yang Jing had to carry Xiaocao to the school from the first floor to the fourth floor, and then from the fourth floor after school. Two times a day. For three months, she really couldn't move her back, but there was no way, no one could help. Sometimes she shed tears while she back, and then gritted her teeth and moved on.

5. I don’t know how to pay back the debt

The biggest difficulty for Yang Jing after her husband left was that she had no money in her passbook. He had already owed a debt for the treatment of the illness, and many importing drug countries could not report it. At that time, he bought the German medicine before sending it to him. Yes, this medicine took 6000 mark.

My family is empty, but I want to live, what should I do?

After Zhang Zhongxin left, Yang Jing carried the house alone.

Yang Jing thought that if she had promised her husband, she must do it. can have nothing, but we must give our daughter the best education , piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, we must learn, and we must learn well.

At that time, a piano lesson cost one hundred yuan. Gritting her teeth, Yang Jing said to the teacher, Xiaocao's father is gone. We are a single-parent family. I will introduce you to ten students. You will give me a discount. The teacher later only charged her 60 yuan per class, and Yang Jing really introduced many students to the teacher. Yang Jing said that this teacher is pretty good, as long as the next student to learn piano hasn't arrived, he will teach Xiaocao Tong. She helps clean up when there is no one else in the teacher's house.

Once the flush toilet in the teacher's bathroom was blocked, and shit and urine flowed all over the floor. Yang Jing gritted her teeth and went in, bludgeoning all the dirt away with her hands. She vomited while digging, and she had never done anything like this since she was spoiled. The teacher was very touched when she learned about it. She said she had planned to have a good class before calling someone to do it.

Mother and daughter

Going home at night, Yang Jing feels sick when she sees food. Xiaocao asked her mother if she was sick. Yang Jing told Xiaocao how she cleaned the bathroom, saying that her mother had no abilities and no money. By doing so, she thought that the teacher could teach you better. Xiaocao said with tears in her eyes: "Mom, I will repay you well in the future."

Yang Jing said that at that time I really wanted to cry, or scold Zhang Zhongxin again, or that I would never forgive him for the rest of my life. . Although it's useless to say these things, I still have to say it, say it in my heart.

Yang Jing worked in the business system after graduating from high school, including the deputy business manager in Little Luzon. After that, she was transferred to the university to work as an administration and later as an accountant. I retired at the age of 50, and the retirement salary was not high, which made me stretched. How to do? Not only had to pay off the debt, but also had a training class for her daughter seven or eighty-eight, so after retirement, she had to go out and look for work again.

A search on the Internet, retired people don’t even want to be a cashier in a supermarket. Yang Jing only knew at that time how people collapsed when they were helpless. Only then did she think why her husband had to help those lonely elderly people back then, because they really had nothing to do except Zhang Zhongxin.

Yang Jing finally found a job in a gift shop, moving things in a warehouse. She was difficult to stand up when she squatted on the ground, so she had to have a strong will to hold her.

She has also worked as a tutor. That's because Xiaocao has good grades. The parents of her classmates said, come and help us. Yang Jing said that she listened to military broadcasts on time every morning. This is a habit developed in the military compound. She said that there is no problem with current affairs and politics. You can also bring your language to ensure that you can be admitted to key middle schools. In the end, people wanted to pay her, but she didn't accept it, but Yang Jing remembered every income and expenditure clearly.

She doesn't take money from others. It's not that she doesn't want money, but she feels that she has to take the right way. The way here is not the principle, but the favor and face. Yang Jing has a bottom line, that is, she can't accept charity, and is only willing to exchange at an equal value. Perhaps the "equivalence" here is more of a consciousness. Only if I give, I can get it.

Later, when someone gave Xiaocao New Year's Eve money to various cards during the Chinese New Year, she accepted it. She felt that she could receive it at this time, and she can receive it with peace of mind. This is actually the money for her sweaters, the money for making shoes, and the money for others. Money for tutoring.

Knitting sweaters once became one of Yang Jing's livelihood methods

So in such a long time, she never asked the organization for help, and never accepted other people's simple help. She always hopes to get back the corresponding value through her own efforts and dedication, so she feels at ease.

For a long time, she made money by making sweaters for others. Imported cashmere sweaters were popular on the market at that time and they were very expensive. So Yang Jing went to the Hangzhou Building to quietly memorize the styles of these imported woolen sweaters. After learning at home, she told her colleagues: You use one thousand yuan to buy cashmere thread, and you pay me one thousand yuan to make you like styles, not like no money , So the colleague can save one thousand yuan for 3,000 pieces of clothes, and Yang Jing can make one thousand yuan.

In this regard, Yang Jing said this-

You have to live, you live well, you must work hard. As much as you have, you can live what kind of life. If you have a high IQ, you can use your brain to make money. If you have a low IQ, you can also use your emotional and physical strength to make money.

Yang Jing has an accounting certificate, but it's just a salary and meal ticket issued by the unit. So besides self-study on the Internet, she went to the tax bureau's office to study in another way, quietly listening to other people's questions and how to answer them. After listening, sometimes I still don't understand, so I went to the counter and asked the staff. During that time, I sat there for a day, and for a while, even some newcomers regarded her as a member of the tax department.

Now she is an accountant for a company, and she is the head of business such as accounting and tax payment. She has won the trust of the boss, so the salary has been rising.

6. Forever Zhang's sister-in-law

When Zhang Zhongxin was here, Yang Jing was Zhang's sister-in-law, Zhang Zhongxin was gone, and Yang Jing was Zhang's sister-in-law, which has never changed.

Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin's siblings

Yang Jing said: All these are done for Zhang Zhongxin, and you must not shame him. If a person is kind or not, you must treat your family first. If you can't even do your family, what are you going to brag about outside?

In November last year, volunteers from Zhenshui Wuxiang also followed Yang Jing to Zhang Zhongxin's hometown. It can be seen that Yang Jing's position in the minds of Zhang's family was established by Yang Jing's care and dedication to Zhang's family bit by bit over the years.

When Zhang Zhongxin was there, she didn't necessarily go back every year. Before, she had quarreled with relatives in the countryside for a year. But after her husband left, she felt obligated to go back every year, including bringing Xiaocao back, because after all, Xiaocao was a descendant of the Zhang family.

Father-in-law Yang Jing said before his death, "My eldest son is gone, but my wife is here, and she is better than you have a son."

The Zhang family is also proud of Xiaocao. After Xiaocao was admitted to the China Public Security University with a first-line grade, the people in his hometown were extremely happy. They were very simple and could not remember the name of the school, so they said that they were better than Peking University and Tsinghua University.

Yang Jing feels that this is also worthy of Zhang Zhongxin and Zhang's family. When Zhang Zhongxin came out as a soldier and became a policeman in Hangzhou, it was a lot of face. Now Xiaocao's entrance to university also saves Zhang's family.

That time when I returned to Suzhou with Yang Jing, we were accompanied by Zhang Zhongxin's two younger sisters. When they talked about Yang Jing, tears came down. They are grateful to this sister-in-law from the bottom of their hearts, and they are not good at talking.

Zhang Zhongxin has passed away for so many years. The brothers and sisters of the Zhang family go out to work, and Yang Jingneng is there to help wherever they go to Hangzhou. Because she said that they are indeed still having difficulties, she can still borrow money, but they can't borrow money in their hometown. She borrowed money with interest, and all of it was paid off in advance.

Recently, the son of Zhang Zhongxin's eldest sister got married and asked Yang Jing to borrow 150,000 yuan. Among them, 50,000 used gifts were returned, and 100,000 has not been paid. Yang Jing also borrowed the money. She would not ask her elder sister for it, but would pay it back slowly. But Yang Jing also told Zhang Zhongxin’s eldest sister that after Xiaocao will get married and have children, she will come to help. She may not be able to do anything at that time...

Seven, for her daughter, she did everything

Xiaocao Xiaocao, Yang Jing talks about her daughter Xiaocao most.

Growing up in such family encounters, Xiaocao has been more sensible than other children since childhood. When I was young, my uncle took Xiaocao to KFC and walked to the door. The four-year-old Xiaocao swallowed, and said uncle's hand: Don't eat anymore, dad is sick, let's save some money.

Xiaocao became Yang Jing's hope for life.

After her husband left for eighteen years, Yang Jing was not afraid to be frightened. It can be said that all the way is the rapids.

In kindergarten and elementary school, she was afraid of her daughter being bullied, so she protected her daughter like a chicken. Yang Jing usually likes to read books, and she is always wondering how to change her destiny.She first changed her daughter's name, and then spotted a mole on her face.

Yang Jing even thought about changing her name, but in the end she didn't change it. This is exactly what she is most sensible. She believes a little bit of what others say, but she doesn’t believe it all. She says the only thing she can believe. It's my own effort.

Xiaocao started to learn dancing and piano in kindergarten, continued to learn piano and ballet in elementary school, and vocal music in junior high school. The mother and daughter both rushed around like this, only changing from one bicycle to two bicycles.

Xiaocao still remembers the first time her mother took her to the piano shop and asked her to choose what she liked. So she chose the most beautiful piano. After growing up, Xiaocao knew that the piano she picked was the most expensive in the store, and it took her mother to wear many sweaters day and night to change it.

In Yang Jing's concept, children who have not been satisfied since childhood may grow up very greedy. She said that Director Qi in the "Name of the People" is like this.

Xiaocao has been more sensible than other children since she was young. When Xiaocao was in the second and third grades, during the spring season, she would let her daughter hang upside down on the single parallel bars in the community every night. She thinks this can make the child grow taller because she and her husband are not tall. Now Xiaocao is about to graduate from university, and his height has grown to 1.68 meters.

Yang Jing is very strict with Xiaocao in her studies. She beat her daughter only to learn. The family only allows Xiaocao to watch cartoons for half an hour on Saturdays. The first thing I do when I go out and come back is to touch whether the TV is hot or not, to judge whether Xiaocao has watched TV.

When I was in junior high school, I was not allowed to watch the TV. Xiao Caoti protested, "Don't you stop watching TV if I'm not at home?" Yang Jing immediately packed the TV and said you make a mark to see if I have turned it on. Later, the TV was simply shelved. She herself even said that sometimes she and her daughter have reached the stage of "matching wits and courage", but the original intention was for that promise.

As a mother can think of her daughter, Yang Jing has almost achieved the extreme.

8. The daughter has become a police flower, as if it is a destined reincarnation

Now Xiaocao also has the kindness and helpfulness of his father, which makes Yang Jing both happy and worried, and what is happy is the quality of the daughter. I'm afraid my daughter will delay her studies if she does too much.

After half a month of military training in high school, Xiaocao behaved a bit differently.

On the first day of training, Xiaocao washed the clothes. The other 5 students in the dormitory did not wash them. Some children called their parents and asked them to come and wash the clothes. Xiaocao saw this matter in his eyes. After supper, he washed the clothes of the other five students in the dormitory, and just washed them for about a week. Later the children in the dormitory washed their clothes by themselves. This change of

surprised parents, and they also admired Xiaocao's behavior. Later, parents in the dormitory would prepare an extra for Xiaocao to deliver meals to their children.

Yang Jing said that at this time I seemed to have seen another Zhang Zhongxin, how powerful the inherited genes are.

Maybe it was destiny. When Xiaocao was applying for the college entrance examination, she was determined to apply for the China Public Security University. Yang Jing felt a little frustrated. She was worried that Xiaocao would go the way of Zhang Zhongxin. She hoped that Xiaocao would have happiness in the future. A happy family, she finally figured it out, her daughter's volunteer needs her to support, she chose acquiescence.

Later, Xiaocao went to university and it was the same. There was a child who had passed the exam from the frontier, and his family was very poor. Xiaocao sees that she is pitiful to feed this classmate every day. Yang Jing asked her if your classmate gave you money, she said no, my classmate is really pitiful.

Xiaocao is currently studying at the People’s Public Security University of China.

Xiaocao University is a foreign-related police service. Once the school has a task that requires English translation, he will call Xiaocao. There was a transnational chase in his junior year, and Xiaocao was chosen to travel to Spain as an interpreter.

Yang Jing said that Hangzhou held G20 last year, and Xiaocao was assigned to serve in the core VIP area because of his excellent English. She came back and told me: Mom and I shook hands today. I joked with her at the time that you don't want to wash your hands forever.

Yang Jing’s experience is that her daughter also wants to let her fly, but she has to pinch the kite string in her hand, including talking about her boyfriend’s private matters. Xiaocao will seek her mother’s opinion. Yang Jing’s attitude is to support and then support. This surprised and envied the classmates in the daughter's bedroom, saying that this mother was really enlightened.

When my daughter came back from Beijing during the Chinese New Year, we and Yang Jing's mother and daughter also got together. When Yang Jing talked about excitement, Xiaocao would caress her mother’s knees, as if it was half comforting and half coaxing, and then handed a napkin, and then when we got off the elevator, she would hold her mother. This scene let us It looked very warm.

Nine, a lifetime of unforgiveness, can you really put down

An invisible hand is pressing on her, and at the same time pushing her. For many years, Yang Jing has always felt this way.

Yang Jing has been wearing Xiaoxiao for her husband for three years, inside and out, either brown or black. Zhang Zhongxin left for five or six years, and she has never bought an inch of yarn. I used to wear clothes that my old classmates didn't want, but now I wear clothes that my daughter "eliminated".

For eighteen years, there has never been a man in or out of her home alone. This is also the rule she set for herself, fearing other people's gossip.

In the eighteen years, Yang Jing thought again and again, this Zhang Zhongxin is really cruel, he left himself, my promise, I will spend my whole life to do it, and use my life's hard work in exchange for the happiness of my daughter.

Yang Jing often went to see Zhang Zhongxin

At that time, Yang Jing faced multiple difficulties. First of all, her body and spirit were on the verge of collapse. Because of her allergic physique, she could not get penicillin injections. After her son left, her heart suffered a problem and she had to take medicine all the time. After the husband left, he developed anemia again and has not improved. I usually have a cold and can only take Chinese patent medicine, so she basically becomes a medicine jar.

For seven years, her medicine has not stopped. Later, the doctor told her that you are already made of medicine all over, and medicine is poison. If you want to exercise, you can’t just take medicine.

A healthy body for elders is the greatest blessing for children. In order to stay with her daughter for a longer time, Yang Jing decided to make a change.

That year should be 2006, when Xiaocao was 10 years old, and since then, as long as Yang Jing is alone, she will ride to the gym directly after work.

has persisted for more than ten years, first doing yoga and then practicing equipment. She has seen obvious results. The annual physical examination indicators are good, the heart problem is fine, and the anemia is basically cured. The more important thing is the state of mind. Looking at Yang Jing's words and deeds, especially her thoughts, she doesn't look like a person who has retired for nearly ten years.

Practicing yoga has become Yang Jingxin's hobby.

Yang Jing said that if Zhang Zhongxin is still there, I don't think I will be what I am today. It is Zhang Zhongxin and Xiaocao who made me what I am today.

In fact, she will slowly understand later that being with her daughter and accompanying her daughter’s growth is her greatest happiness, and the only happiness, and this is also the greatest wealth Zhang Zhongxin left her.

Yang Jing said, a person should cherish good luck, cherish your happiness, you will be happier. I look at my daughter now, the more I look, the happier I am Without this daughter, I guess I would not live now. With this daughter, I see new ones every day.

When Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin were together, she thought she knew him, but she really knew Zhang Zhongxin after he was gone, and she knew more about them later.

One of the things that Yang Jing hated the most was that on the day of his son's "May 7th" festival, Zhang Zhongxin didn't go home very late. In the end, Yang Jing's classmates called Zhang Zhongxin and said that you were still not a human being. Ah, you won't come back for your son "May 7"!

Until very later, after Zhang Zhongxin passed away, Yang Jing slowly began to understand her husband. How could he not have a son in his heart? This is an eternal pain in his heart. He has been blaming himself for the car accident that went home. Guilt, it was a big rock tightly pressed against his chest.

Chess is one of Zhang Zhongxin’s few hobbies. When his son was alive,Often play chess with dad. After the son went, he never played chess again, and the chess pieces and chessboard were hidden. A photo of his son Zhang Zhongxin has been hidden in his breast pocket and never left his body until he finally died. His love for his daughter Xiaocao is even more so, no matter how late he comes back, he will kiss his daughter.

Zhang Zhongxin’s comrade-in-arms and fellow villager Wang Zhenjin knows Zhang Zhongxin best. They are soldiers who joined the army together. Zhang Zhongxin was very hardworking when he first joined the army. He has extremely good military quality and good target shooting results. At that time, it was not easy to be able to come out of the countryside to serve as a soldier. Zhang Zhongxin was also the first among their group to join the party and was rated as advanced.

Zhang Zhongxin once served in the army

Zhang Zhongxin was born kind and simple. He felt that it was a good thing to come to Hangzhou from the Huaibei countryside to settle down and become a policeman. The old people in the community need him, and his parents are not around, so he regards the old people in the community as his parents, and has been doing his filial piety to them for more than ten years.

Zhong Xin also felt his own value from the needs of the elderly. Even after the liver disease was recovered, he said to others: It is better to die at work than to die at home.

Zhang Zhongxin regards helping the elderly as a belief, nothing is more important than this. In order to do it well, other things can be tolerated.

It was at this point that Yang Jing truly understood Zhang Zhongxin. Everyone has their own truly important things to do. Yu Zhang Zhongxin is to help others; Yu Yang Jing is to fulfill promises.

18 years ago, Yang Jing kept it for 18 years, and promised to have done it: don't do other "things" and concentrate on growing the grass.

Xiaocao has grown up, and she herself has survived the painful Nirvana herself, and feels that she has been born anew, although she sometimes said in her mouth: I will never forgive him in my life.

Finally: The deepest feelings

Yang Jing sometimes feels that Zhang Zhongxin is not too far away from her. For many nights, she felt him as if he was on the ceiling, but it was higher than the ceiling.

Yang Jing has always remembered Zhang Zhongxin's kindness to her for so many years.

Yang Jing likes to eat stinky tofu and mutton. Zhang Zhongxin doesn't touch these things, but to make Yang Jing happy, he often buys these things and burns them to Yang Jing to eat.

When going home from a business trip, I will definitely bring Yang Jing gifts, sometimes clothes, sometimes souvenirs.

Yang Jing is a little obsessed with cleanliness and likes to have a clean house. As long as Zhang Zhongxin goes home, he will definitely do the hygiene at home again.

Because Yang Jing loves to watch movies, Zhang Zhongxin often buys movie tickets to watch with her, and later also takes a little grass to watch them. Now movie watching has become a part of Yang Jing's family life. Every Spring Festival, mother and daughter will watch one or two movies.

Hangzhou is cold in winter, and Yang Jing’s hands will get frostbite. After getting married, Zhang Zhongxin will not let her touch cold water in winter, and will patiently rub her hands. After two years of marriage, Yang Jing no longer develops frostbite. Yang Jing said that the body has memories. In fact, Zhang Zhongxin is a very delicate person, who forgets me as soon as he works. These memories are the strength that supports me to keep this promise for him for life. In short, he gave me too many thoughts.

Zhang Zhongxin left Yang Jing a lot of beautiful thoughts

Many years have passed. Once, when Yang Jing passed by the Jiangong Community, an old lady recognized her and asked if she was Zhang Zhongxin’s wife, and said she was Now thin.

Yang Jing said that that ordinary question was a great comfort to her. She suddenly felt that she had always been connected to the man named Zhang Zhongxin in her life. It was not Zhang Zhongxin that she could not forgive, but herself, and she had chosen not to give up.

Editor's postscript: Some of Yang Jing's ideas and practices eighteen years ago may conflict with current popular concepts. But in the current historical situation and social concepts at that time, Yang Jing has undoubtedly achieved the ultimate in independent women. And this ultimate cornerstone is the feeling that Yang Jing and Zhang Zhongxin can never give up. anyAt that time, when we evaluate whether a person's behavior is correct, we should make an objective and fair evaluation in the historical context of the time. And the volunteers of True Water Wuxiang are more of a true record of the ups and downs and hardships Yang Jing has experienced over the years, as well as the unspeakable suffering in her heart. As a mother, a wife, and a strong woman, Yang Jing, like every ordinary person, has experienced hesitation, struggle, and nirvana in the interweaving of love and family. We hope this true record can give every strong soul more strength.

Editor: Huang Rong

Part of the photography: Xu Zhiwei

Article reprinted from: Zhenshui Wuxiang Public Welfare