01 Qiong Yao was not even afraid of death, so why did she choose to commit suicide at the age of 86? Little Lucky Star couldn't understand it at first. Is there anything more terrifying than death in this world? After reading her last words, I somewhat understood.

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Qiong Yao is not even afraid of death. Why did she choose to commit suicide at the age of 86?

Little Lucky Star couldn’t understand it at first. Is there anything more terrifying than death in this world?

read her last words and understood somewhat.

For people like them, a dignified death is better than a low-quality life.

She said in her suicide note: "I have witnessed such a tragic situation, so I don't want to die like that..."

It's not so much that she doesn't want to die like that, it's better to say that she doesn't want to live without dignity relying on a bunch of instruments.

When she could still make decisions for herself, when she could still do things by herself, she chose to leave this world gracefully. How much courage and courage this takes.

So, this is not an escape, but an active choice. At the end of the day, all you want in life is dignity.

But her dignity was torn apart by Chen Derong's words.

Chen Derong said: "I can think of my aunt's departure because Uncle Ping's departure had a great impact on her. Their love like a fairy couple is really enviable and touching..."

小福星I don’t know what Chen Derong thinks, but Xiao Fuxing feels that it is disrespectful to women to bid farewell to a woman’s dignity and insist on having a relationship with a man.

Qiong Yao is not a rich wife who lives dependent on her husband. She has her own career and interpersonal circle. Love is only a part of her life. At this point, all her decisions are only for herself.

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Qiong Yao probably never thought that one day, she could turn her life around by writing stories.

She was born in 1938, and her original name was Chen Zhe. As for the pen name "Qiongyao", it was chosen from the Book of Songs.

"Give me peaches, and give me Qiongyao in return."

What does this poem say? It means that if you are good to me, then I will be twice as good to you.

was born with such a name, do you think she can be romantic?

But her childhood was not romantic at all.

Qiong Yao's family originally lived in Hunan, but unfortunately she was born at the wrong time. The era was very turbulent, so she fled to Sichuan and Chongqing with her parents when she was a child.

Her two younger brothers were lost along the way, and her parents even thought about jumping into the river together as a family because their lives were so hard.

Fortunately, life was tough. It was only after we got to Taiwan that our life became stable.

Although her family seems to be quite educated, her father is a university professor and her mother also teaches. There is also a famous teacher who taught Emperor Xuantong.

sounds decent, right? But Qiong Yao was made a bit out of place by her family.

Her younger brothers and sisters all have excellent grades, but Qiong Yao... don't mention it.

, especially mathematics, is totally difficult for her. Although she started publishing novels when she was 9 years old, in a family where "other people's children" are rampant, this small achievement is not enough.

She always feels that she is "nothing". She has nightmares every night, dreaming of others laughing at her: "Professor Chen's daughter can't even pass the college entrance examination?"

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Once, she only scored 20 points on the math test. The teacher specifically told her that she must be "strictly disciplined" by her parents when she returns home.

She took the test paper and moved little by little to the door of her house with steps that seemed to have been filled with lead. As soon as she walked in, she was stunned.

My sister was lying in the entrance hall crying out of breath. My parents tried to persuade me and coaxed me, their faces full of anxiety.

She thought to herself, what is going on? Her parents told her helplessly: "My sister got 98 points in the test just because she didn't get a perfect score. She couldn't bear it any more." After Qiong Yao heard this, she almost dropped the 20-point test paper in her hand. She didn't say anything and went back to the room silently.

Then he picked up a pen and wrote a letter: "Mom, I'm sorry for coming into this world and causing you so much trouble, but I really can't change myself, so let me disappear from your world."

After writing, she stole the medicine at home and swallowed it all in one breath. When she woke up again, all she saw was her mother holding her hand, crying so hard that she could hardly speak.

After leaving the gate of hell, Qiong Yao regained her composure on the surface, but her heart was still in turmoil.

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But just when she felt that life was getting harder and harder, a turning point appeared. She met her first love, a Chinese teacher who was 25 years older than her.

This teacher is not only elegant, but also has a lot of poetry and books. Qiong Yao was precocious and had low self-esteem, so she fell headlong into this forbidden relationship.

The two of them were secretive at first, but later the school found out. The mother made a big fuss, and the teacher was fired and left Taipei.

Qiong Yao has nowhere to express her resentment, so she can only write these emotions into novels. In this way, she wrote "Outside the Window". The book

became an instant hit and was even adapted into a movie. But what about her love?

She never waited for that "four-year appointment", nor did she meet again.

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Later, she met another man. The other person told her: "Since you want to write, it doesn't matter whether you go to college or not."

These words hit her hard.

They got married. Unfortunately, life after marriage was not satisfactory. The man could not write well, but he was jealous of her achievements.

Drinking, gambling, and even staying up all night.

Qiong Yao endured it for a long time and finally got divorced. At this time, she met the most complicated love in her life - Ping Xintao, the owner of Crown Publishing House.

But Ping Xintao is married and has children. After Qiong Yao got together with him, she always carried the label of "third party".

Ping Xintao's first wife even wrote a book in her later years to accuse Qiong Yao, saying that she interfered in the marriage and ruined a family. Despite this, Ping Xintao cared for Qiong Yao in every possible way.

He would build a house with a glass roof for her romantic fantasy. He would fill her room with flowers. There were even rumors that they once broke up and Ping Xintao tried to commit suicide.

Qiong Yao was willing to immerse herself in the love held in the palm of her hand and wrote countless stories about love.

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After her works were remade into TV series, they quickly became popular throughout Asia. But at the same time, criticism has followed.

Some people say that her story is too divorced from reality and does not deserve to be called literature. Even her parents felt that she was "scolding her parents" in her works.

But none of this made her stop writing. She has written about "love" all her life and used her own way to make people believe in romance.

Until his later years, Ping Xintao fell ill. He gradually loses his memory and eventually may not even recognize her. Qiong Yao tried her best to take care of him, but she also had a fierce quarrel with her stepchildren.

All this gave her a new perspective on "eternal love". But no matter what the outside world thinks, Qiong Yao always sticks to herself.

She wrote 67 works in her life, influencing several generations.

As she said herself: "The word love hurts me, but also makes me successful."

Qiong Yao like this can be regarded as "burning with all her strength".