I wonder if any of you guys remember?
years ago, an article called "I am Fan Yusu" went viral in WeChat Moments, garnering more than 100,000 views on WeChat.
The full text of this explosive article is more than 7,000 words, describing the painful but unwilling life of a rural woman named Fan Yusu.
's sentence "My life is a book that I cannot bear to read, and fate has bound me extremely poorly" has become a golden saying that has been passed down to this day.
Fan Yusu herself has since become an alternative housekeeping aunt who became popular because of her autobiography.
became famous and then fell silent, but the housekeeping aunt never stopped writing.
Now seven years have passed, and she still lives in Pi Village outside the Fifth Ring Road. She works as a female worker in a villa area in Shunyi, Beijing, working half a day and studying half a day. What is different about
is that she published her first book this year.
1-year-old Beipiao
From childcare nanny to popular female writer
Before becoming famous, Fan Yusu was an ordinary rural woman.
In 1973, she was born in an ordinary rural family in Xiangyang, Hubei Province.
has a family of five children, two boys and three girls.
My father is in poor health, and my two sisters are disabled. The whole family is supported by my mother, and the living conditions are very poor.
But the young Fan Yusu quickly showed talents that were different from those of his peers.
She loves reading and has her own thoughts and appreciation of literary expression.
She also changed her name to Fan Yusu because she disliked that her original name "Fan Juren" looked like the flowers and plants that can be seen everywhere on the roadside.
She even wanted to leave home and wander around like the protagonist in the novel, "walking around the world with a sword."
Later, she really left a note and left for a foreign country. She wandered in Hainan Island for three months before returning home.
In "I am Fan Yusu", she recalled that experience like this:
"There are papaya trees and coconut trees on the road. Lying under the trees, you can eat papaya and drink coconut juice. I got tired of eating fruits, so I Searching for food in trash cans is how the protagonists in the novel live."
Now, her behavior is just what young people call "looking for poetry and distance".
is very bold, very romantic, and very free. The only thing I worry about may be the safety of 12-year-old children.
But in rural areas where boys are valued over girls and conservative thinking is concerned, a girl running away from home is tantamount to elopement. If she ruins the family's reputation, she has to be beaten and kicked out of the house.
At this moment, it seems that a pair of ruthless hands has put Fan Yusu's destiny back on the "right track" of a rural girl: stop studying and get married as soon as possible.
When she was 12 years old, her family sent her to a private primary school in a remote rural area to work as a teacher.
At the age of 21, because she could not bear the life of sitting in a well and watching the sky day after day, she resolutely quit her job and went to Beijing to "drift".
She worked as a waiter, set up a stall, sold second-hand books, and eventually became a nanny. The new name that
had carefully chosen was not called out a few times, because nannies in big cities do not have names.
From this moment on, Fan Yusu's life seemed to have been pressed on a shortcut key.
She works in Beijing, gets married, has children, and lives in Pi Village outside the Fifth Ring Road, living a poor life in a small corner of the big city.
After getting married, she was emotionally discordant. She was beaten and scolded by her husband many times. She wanted to leave with her children, but she did not have the courage to leave.
In order to earn some royalties, she wrote the pain she experienced into words, so she wrote "I am Fan Yusu".
In it, she recorded the situation when she returned home due to divorce, but was shunned by her relatives;
"At this time, I have understood that I have no home.
For poor people in rural areas, life is not easy, and family ties are of course weak. .
I don’t resent my elder brother, but I have understood that I am a passerby in the village where I was born and raised.
My two children are rootless in the water. Only my mother loves us."
She would think of her own daughter while coddling her employer's children and feel deeply guilty that she was unable to accompany her.
"I was only responsible for the three-month-old baby girl. The baby does not sleep well and often wakes up in the middle of the night. I got up and fed the baby milk powder and put her to sleep.
At this time, I thought of my two daughters in Pi Village. At night, without their mother sleeping with them, would they have nightmares and cry? I shed tears as I thought about it. Fortunately, it was midnight and no one saw it. "
Although she lives in poverty, she has a kind heart.
"At this time, I thought: Is it because people bully people who are weaker than themselves to get physical pleasure, or is it gene replication? From then on, I had the idea to convey love and dignity to every weak person like me I met. "
She didn't want to be buried in the boring life, so she formed a literature group with people in the village who had the same hobbies, and listened to lectures while working.
In the hard days, literature became her spiritual refuge, and she also studied literature She rediscovered her 12-year-old self.
After the popularity of "I am Fan Yusu", reporters came to interview her in an endless stream.
People gave her many labels: "lower-class female writer" and "housekeeping poet".
Many people wanted to sign her up and provide her with financial support, but she refused.
There were also women who were domestic workers who approached her and regarded her as a role model, hoping to learn from her.
"Many women have dreams of going to school and literature. , or becoming a writer are just dreams.
Especially rural girls, they would not let anyone go. After reading the article "I am Fan Yusu", they seemed to see a flame, igniting their childhood dreams.
I can talk freely under the light and express my opinions. I will not shrink into a shell because of my status as a "nursing sister-in-law".
"I turned out to be like a mobile phone that is short of battery. I am constantly reminded that the battery is low. 20%. Now I still make do with my life, but I feel like a mobile phone with 50% battery. "
Because she only works half a day, she is even poorer than before she became famous.
But she has not complained about the current situation, and has never regretted not following the popular traffic.
"I think being famous is good luck, and It’s not about my ability. "
Although life is still the same, she has not stopped writing.
In 2023, she kicked open the door of the literary group office with three large bags of manuscripts and published the long book "Reunion after a Long Farewell".
In this book Here, she transformed into a "Fan Juren", and because of her fantasy about an old mulberry tree, she embarked on a journey to find her roots.
Common people, ghosts and gods... This autobiographical work has a Douban score of 7.8. The testimony of her resistance to fate is also the spiritual healing for her half-life.
But this is not the end. This housekeeping aunt who lives outside the Fifth Ring Road in Beijing is still writing.
She may still record herself, and she may look at it. Aiming at other places, maybe she will return to her hometown and plant tough and transparent seeds for the children in the countryside.
But no matter what, these are her own choices, and they are no longer forced on her.
Writing is not. Dream
but loudly announce my existence to the world.
There are many rural female writers similar to Fan Yusu.
For example, Chen Hui, a popular "market writer", is a well-known department store seller in Liangnong Town. A small vendor, she spends her free time reading and writing.
She admits that only by hiding in words can she forget the unpleasantness of life.
The market is her window to observe the world and one of her sources of inspiration.
" Some people say that literature is an ivory tower, but I never think literature is that noble.My life was not satisfactory at that time. I couldn’t play mahjong, and I had no money to go shopping. Reading and writing cost almost nothing and did not affect other people. ”
By chance, her work was noticed by the local Writers Association, and it was successfully published in the magazine, officially opening her other identity - "vegetable market writer".
There is also "My Altay", which became popular all over the Internet in the first half of the year. 》Original author Li Juan.
She describes an ethereal and free spiritual pure land for everyone, but in reality, her experience is full of misfortunes.
When she was young, Li Juan and her grandmother made a living by picking up garbage. After returning to her mother, she witnessed her stepfather becoming addicted to alcohol and domestic violence against her mother after marriage.
Due to various reasons, Li Juan finally dropped out of school and studied technical work and worked odd jobs with her mother. Only in books could she find a sense of safety. Feeling.
But she was not trapped by the poor life, but turned her inner loneliness into a surging enthusiasm, spreading it over the vast land of Xinjiang.
"Jiupian Snow", "My Altay" and "Winter Pasture". ...
She wrote excellent works one after another, won many literary awards, and successfully saved herself from being timid when she was young.
html Han Shimei, who started writing poetry at the age of 251, is also a typical representative.
She dropped out of school at the age of 19. She was married to a mentally retarded man for 3,000 yuan by her mother.
The bride price for her marriage was borrowed. The day before she was pregnant and gave birth, she was chopping firewood and carrying water, and her husband was gambling. It seemed that her life was already as bad as it could get.
But she did not give up on herself, either in life or in spirit.
In order to pay off her gambling debts, she worked two or three jobs.
During her breaks from work, she wrote poems about her life in the fields.
She successfully published a collection of poems, went to the United Nations to give a speech, and planned to file for divorce. She will spend the rest of her life walking around and living for herself.
Some people say that their success is accidental. It's just that their talents have been discovered.
But for them, it's just about writing out their spiritual world to withstand the hardships of life.
They all used their own experiences to prove that the starting point cannot determine the ending point. At that time, paper and pen were their weapons.
Destiny passed by them like a ruthless train, but they just relied on themselves to firmly grasp the steering wheel of fate.
Just like what the animated movie "Nezha" said, "You can only decide who you are."
No woman should be born ignorant and poor, and should be trapped in the kitchen.
As long as you have love in your heart, it is never too late to start.
Just like Liu Xiaoxiang said: It is better to be in pain than to be numb.
They did not compromise with their fate, but boldly questioned difficulties, resisted injustice, enriched their inner spiritual world and found their true selves in the pain and struggle of the ups and downs of the world.
This courage to save yourself is worth learning from everyone.
The only one who can trap you is yourself.
"Those who get out of the cage may not reach the oasis, but the moment they get out of the cage, they are no longer others' prisoners, but people who can feel fate and wind and rain."
I hope we all have such sobriety and wisdom. Even if we live like weeds, we can still grow wildly and chase our own ray of light.
